Standing in front of a sparkling clear spring, I feel the pain once again, of a broken heart! The love of my life is now gone. I life my head, feeling the cool summer breeze on my face. A faint smell of your cologne touches my senses running a chill down my spine. I turn to fine you but you are nowhere to be seen. Wanting to feel your arms around me. I fold my arms under my chest, sitting down on the bank of the crystal clear water. A single tears runs down my cheek falling to the water. You are the man of my dreams. The man I want in my life forever, more then a friend. But you seem to not want what I have to give you. I have loved in the past, but never like this, never given my heart to a man, as I have you, never shared so much as with you.
You seem to not know what you want or wont tell me. As more tears fall to the water and the faint wind continues to blow your scent by, I have decided to do the only thing I have left to do. Let you go, to live your life as you figure out what it is you want. I want more than anything for this not to be the way, but you wont talk to me. So I let you go from my life! I remove myself from yours. The one man I believe and trust when you said you would not hurt me. My love for you has never changed and will never change. You shall always be the love of my life. I will try to see this thing as life goes on, but my love will never change. With these thoughts I stand, wipe my tears and say “Jason I love you………remember always what we had!”
Amber Dawn
6-14-99