No! I have been lost in the fact that I was not good enough. That everything was my fault. Why should I hold all the pain, hurt, sadness, self-pity, and guilt? I fell in love with a man, a man that showed me only the things he wanted, things that would make him like to be a savior, a knight in shinning Armour. Why should I feel guilty when I loved what was given to me, even if to was not all in truth. It is not my fault that he can't let go of his past and his pain, to free himself to love as he truly wants to. If he wants to run away from love, and not open himself up, and take the chance to love me completely, there is nothing I can do. I can not play the game anymore. I cannot continue to hurt myself with this. Though I shall never love again, at least I will know that to took the chance to love someone, through the games, through the pain, and hurt he caused me, I always loved him. One day he will see the he is missing one of the most precious things in life, Love. Sure the things he thinks make him happy now, will for a while, but eventually he will realize, how empty his life really is! I will not make any more excuses for the things he does or the things he did that hurt me so. I will only say that, I know I could have made him happy if only he would have looked inside him self and saw what he was doing, in the long run he only hurts him self, more so then he has hurt me. One person can only do so much to show a person they love them, but if the person is so blind, and ignorant to see what is right in front of their face, there is nothing more to do! So I hold no more guilt I did what I could, and he is the one to blame. 

Amber Dawn

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