confession

i seem to have this desire for the unattainable
or maybe it's just the old adage
that the good ones are always taken
there was once before, morgan was her name
and it all was so special
special to the point of incredible
but of course their were so many barriers

and again came another
and of course with so many barriers
but one who was not only every thing 
i'd ever looked for...
but also every thing i had never thought
to look for
michelle was her name

and i never want to take from her
and i never want to ruin her world
and i don't want to be "that guy"
but i can't help the feelings i feel
i've mastered much about myself
but someone that i think about...
consistently...
for no reason at all...
this i haven't mastered

some things make sense
some things don't 
and i still hold faith in that every thing
happens for a reason
but michelle, i still can't see
the reason in all of this
sometimes i think i'm just to be tormented
sometimes i think there's a greater purpose
that i'm not privy to
but above all
i know
i will never forget you and the impact
you've had on my life


on wednesday... or thursday
depending on how you want to see it
we met
by saturday
although, i didn't realize it then
i knew u would have an impact
on the rest of my life

now i sit
and oftentimes i just think
and wait

although i don't know
if anything that i'm waiting for 
will happen

i don't even know 
if it's right that i'm hoping it will