my apology

the world as a whole partakes momentary weakness
i shouldn't have let the thought question form to my lips
and someone shouldn't have encouraged my weakness
understand i had no ill intentions in phrases or actions or quips

and that one act as described was all i really desired
just to lie in slumber with one another interlocked
and you answered so negatively for me and so perfectly
and equaled so much undying respect for you not lost

which probably would have diminished somewhat however
in some form, possibly subconsciously, or another plateau
had you answered any other way and sweet you are to put it
in a way that is both honest and won't harm my ego

i don't think i'll consume around you in the future
it's not that i don't believe the things i profess
without the inducement by alcohol or any other substance
and its not even that i don't trust myself in this mess

i know i would never hurt anyone, least of all you
but i don't trust the emotions i can't control that surface
its so much better to keep them buried deep within
and most of all it makes more sense