point

 sometimes i ponder the simplicity of it all
pointedly showing me an ease with which
i've never known to be true
sometimes i ponder the frustration of it all
stoicly finding in myself everything
i can never say to you

an incredibly magnificent situation
that i could never have dreamed by myself
often i look to the stars
an incredibly unrelenting situation
taken me by the hand and my emotions
are leading me so far

i've dealt with frustration, anger, and loss
i've lived through denial and rejection
most of the time admirably
i've found within myself calm acceptance
of things that i cannot possibly change
and things that can't be

i've dealt with opportunity and memories
i've lived through caving in and finding strength
and i've had say my goodbyes
it's a matter of sifting the sand to find the gold
but how do i find the joy and the pain, and the lessons
in something i don't recognize