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self-destructive?
i'm not digging a hole for myself the hole's been dug already i can see myself through anything i've seen it through already how do i understand my motivations how do i purchase reality things that don't make sense are closer yet to me where's my grip on reality too far removed from what's good for me but i wouldn't call it self-destructive more like a matter of curiosity it's been a while since i've been productive anyway it's been a while since my ears perked up and the hair on my neck stood on end mabe it's just a matter of wanting the unattainable i don't want what little i have to end the clouds are covering what might be the sun wish i could see but it's too far away i'm pretty sure i know what's up behind the cover but i can't reach to move the clouds away talk about a sobering blow inside how the hell did it come to this in the future i can't let this happen i need to guard myself against things like this self-destructive, no i don't think it is the hole's already there i'm just pulling in the dirt and smothering my air |
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