~Hello all! Mid week update of First Time, as it’s one of those short little experimental chaps- this one I’m not all that proud about- haha- but it’s needed, so shall put it in. ‘normal’ chapter again on Friday. Nothing much else to say really, so read and endure!! Hehe, Kate xxxx~
It had been a long time coming, but finally it was here. Didn’t mean that it hadn’t always been there of course; just now it had thrown off its cloak of invisibility and was now exposed. Subtly exposed. The people who needed to see it were still too blind to notice its guest appearance, but others could see it plain as day; it shrieked loud in their ears and they shook their heads at it, wondering why the people it lived with were so blatantly ignorant.
For it wasn’t the nicest thing to ever live with. But it was so easily caught, like a troublesome scent in a room, once it entered into its desired destination, it spread all over, covering every inch of its new home until it was completely comfortable. It was contamination. But you couldn’t argue that it was gatecrashing. It was there because it had been summoned there.
It had been created by uneasy and suspicious feelings, got so out of hand, that this being had been attracted to them, crept up towards them and grabbed them; seized them; covered the feelings completely until there was just it left.
And now it was working, had a job to do; it licked its lips in satisfaction and delight and concentrated on the target ahead.
He liked his new home. He had never been here before, and he was surprised she’d called to him. But when he’d entered her mind, and seen the thoughts and emotions she was having, he was pleasantly overjoyed- so she was a nasty person after all. She did have an evil streak beneath her good exterior, a darker side to her sweetness. Somewhere he belonged! He could bring out these nastier sides of her, and thrive off them. She was going to change lots, he laughed to himself, and her target isn’t going to know what hit her.
He lay low though; not time to strike yet. Patience was a virtue; but also his greatest foe. It was hard to be patient when you were so greedy for action. But patience had its rewards, he did have to sleep sometime after all, and recharge his batteries.
He would have to wait carefully until he was allowed to work. And even then he couldn’t go all out, it would have to be a suppressed effort. Because there was one thing he didn’t like in her at the moment, she, being his new home.
The balance wasn’t right. The goodness she held within her, the willingness to be a good friend: honest, loyal and true had obviously been living there for years, and when he’d come along and tried to push them out of the way, they’d resisted. He could push so hard as they would give every now and then, an inch or two, but still they were a strong barrier. If he was going to conquer her completely, then those honourable intentions would have to go.
But how to get rid of them? He knew they didn’t want him here, but that was just tough luck. She’d lured him here, and once someone called, he stayed. No-one changed their mind concerning him. He was too strong an emotion to endure; once you felt him, you were infected. Pure and simple. You couldn’t just shake him off- how naïve! No, he was needed here. He had work to do, people to destroy. The goodness would have to see who was the superior.
It was because there were more of them in numbers, he understood that. If it had been him, one-on-one against, say loyalty, he would have punched its lights out. But just as he would be about to deliver the defining punch, honesty would jump in to help. And trust. And ‘the good friend’… and then he’d be the one retreating.
But give up he would not because he could see his cake and eat it here. This girl was feeling him; he lived off her.
Now back to the job in hand. This girl who he had to fight against- Becky. He knew that he was being used against her. All because of this guy- her boyfriend- Steve.
This was a common situation for him- he called it the classic ‘love triangle’. He worked with them a lot; sometimes with more than one of the three parties- but when these people were around each other, he only felt his power strongest in her, and not Becky or Steve. They weren’t giving off any vibes like that, and then he realised that there was some clever secrecy going on here.
Becky didn’t know about them, did she? Otherwise she would feel his pain, too. But she had no need to, because secrets blocked the way.
Damn secrets- they always got in the way.
Steve didn’t seem to need him either, although he was more prone than Becky to debating it. It could never enter a body though, until it was called for it to come. And Steve hadn’t called yet.
But he didn’t mind. He was perfectly happy sat here in Elisabeth- okay, she didn’t welcome him very much, but tough- he was here and she wasn’t getting rid of him.
A strange sensation then came upon him; heat encircled its body, building him up and he grew in excitement. Time to work! Ahhh yes, he could see why now, there Becky and Steve were, they look very close… oooh that makes me feel stronger; healthier. Ohhh the goodness is quivering now, they can see how tall I am!
Oh, now they’re kissing. I feel as though I’m inflating. I push at the barrier and its weak. I know if I just stretch a little bit more, I can break through a tad further…
Another presence has filled her body, but I am not deterred. It’s a familiar one, and I’m not sure who’s side its on yet. It’s definitely not good, but it doesn’t embrace me, either. I guess it’s kinda caught in the middle… why does she keep thinking that line? It must mean something to her.
But no- guilt is going to be a problem for me. It’s just another person to live with. God, this girl’s complicated. She has no idea what she wants.
A lick of the lips; except me; she wants me.
I died down again into her sub-conscious as Becky and Steve went away, and I laughed, wondering if she knew I was even there.
One day, I thought to myself, she’ll realise I’m here and won’t be able to do anything about it, because I will be deeply embedded into her personality- to the point where I won’t just be a guest anymore.
I’ll be part of her.
Yes- another monster had joined guilt in Elisabeth’s mind.
And this one… was jealousy.