~Heya, just an update from me! if you’re wondering why this is going up early, it’s cos a) it’s a short chap (not a groovy one, it’s just short- haha!) and b) am not uploading First Time on Friday this week. *Much giggling* cos am just not, okay? Hehehhehehe. *More giggling* I’m gonna go now before I say something I shouldn’t, lol. *goes* Kate xxx~
Just hearing Becky’s voice was like a Godsend; an opportunity given to her that she couldn’t abuse.
“Oh.” Becky’s realised who it was calling- and wasn’t nearly so enthusiastic.
Elisabeth was taken over by the fact that she was actually talking to her. After a week of silence and hurt, she was completely overwhelmed by what to say.
“H-Hi!”
“Hi.”
Elisabeth thought she better cut down the happy tone. She was so relieved and pleased she was actually talking to her directly now, but she couldn’t act like this around Becky. This had to be done right: tactfully. Becky of course, was probably still furious with her.
“Erm- I’ve been trying to ring you,” Elisabeth began with.
“Have you?” Becky replied half-heartedly. Elisabeth knew she wasn’t that in the dark- Dan must have told her she’d phoned.
“Yeah- twice.”
“And why was that?” Becky said, a tired sigh coming out in her question.
All that happy mood had drenched away now- Becky was being so cold and disinterested with her… she had to get her to care. Just a bit.
“Because-” She stopped; and realised she didn’t want to go over it all here. Not on the phone. “Look Becky- I know- I know you’re really angry at me, and you have every right to be- every right! I hate myself for what happened too, believe me, I do. And all I want is a chance to talk to you, and tell you how sorry I am.”
“You think sorry’s enough?” Becky said back at her.
Elisabeth sighed. “No. No, personally I don’t think anything’s enough. What I did was stupid and pathetic… and I wasn’t being a friend. But I can at least try… if you’re willing… at least I can explain things to you- let you know what happened.”
“I don’t think I want to know what happened,” Becky said uncomfortably.
“No- no! Please Becky, at least hear how it was from my point of view! You don’t know how much I’m sorry for it… and- well- I don’t know if I regret it because it taught me so many lessons…”
Becky groaned on the other side.
“… no! But, but… I regret the way it happened. For it to be your boyfriend. Look Becky, just please… can we talk things over?”
There was a pause on the phone, and Elisabeth held her breath, wondering what Becky was going to say. All she ever wanted was this moment- and she’d never been sure how Becky would react to her.
But now it was happening, and Becky had to say yes, she had to.
“No.”
“Becky!-”
“Look Liz, I don’t think you realise how much you- you and Steve have put me through. I trusted both of you and never in a million years would I dream that of you, you of all people! Not just because you’re the shyest person I know, but because you’re my best friend- would go off and be with my boyfriend like that! And then lie about it, keep it from me, just generally being a complete bitch. And then when I saw you two together, it broke my heart. I lost all my trust and faith in you- I don’t know how you could have done it…”
Becky’s words made Elisabeth want to cry. She couldn’t bear her being this upset, all because of her. It wasn’t humane. You don’t treat your friends like that. But she kept going.
“Well then let me explain! Let me explain to you why I did it, why it all happened, and what I feel! And I’m not going to blame it all on Steve, because it’s not Steve’s fault- it’s mine.”
There was another pause on the phone, and Elisabeth diagnosed it as possible hesitation, and so she kept talking.
“I don’t want things to be like this! I made a stupid mistake, and all I want is a chance to put it behind me and… I want my best friend back! I know I probably don’t deserve it for what I’ve done, but I’m begging you Becky, please! Can we talk this over?”
She finished her little petition, and waited with baited breath for the new revised answer.
What was she going to do if Becky refused?! She suddenly thought, panicking. What if she’s so adamant that she doesn’t wanna talk to me, doesn’t ever wanna see me- again?!
What can I do?!
Maybe you can try and try but in the end you just have to give up. If it’s not meant to be… but I need Becky, she thought to herself. I need her. She’s the only real girlfriend I’ve got. She’s not just a best friend, she’s like my sister! She’s my housemate… she’s so much to me; she’s brought me so much in life, brought me out of my shell as much as I was willing to go, and she’s been such an influence; such a support.
You can’t lose something like that. Someone that special in your life. You can’t just throw it away like it doesn’t matter. That’s what it felt like to Elisabeth sometimes, when she was with Steve- that Becky didn’t matter. That Becky could have whoever she wanted when she wanted, but for poor Elisabeth- this was the real thing!
No! Becky had feelings too- Becky had really cared for Steve, she had admitted to Elisabeth that she’d nearly been in love with him, and that had been true. Becky was a real person as well; and Elisabeth had just overlooked that fact- and it had been the worst mistake she’d ever made. Becky did matter- Becky mattered a lot- and her whole life was depending on this decision.
“Okaaaay,” Becky sighed, succumbing to her request. “Okay- I’ll talk things over with you.”
A wide grin spread across Elisabeth’s face, and she wanted to squeal, and jump up and down, clapping her hands in excitement.
Becky wanted to talk! Becky wanted to talk!!!!
But she held her cool, only releasing a deep breath of relief that she had a chance to make things better.
“Thankyou, thankyou!” She gushed at Becky, but her best friend wasn’t going to make all things plain- sailing for her.
“When?” She quipped.
“As soon as possible?” Elisabeth said, anxiously, not wanting this fall-out to last any longer. “Or… or… as soon as it’s good for you- whenever, I don’t mind!”
She was just so happy. So happy they were going to meet up.
“Okay- I’ll come round to the house sometime over the weekend,” Becky sighed, still sounding fed-up, but Elisabeth tried to ignore it. That could be changed.
It could change!
“Sure, sure, that’s fine! Anytime, that’s good,” Elisabeth agreed eagerly, letting Becky dictate it all. She was just so glad to be getting this opportunity, she didn’t need to be pushy.
“Right, see you then.”
“See you!”
Becky hung up, and Elisabeth followed suit, and allowed herself a little cheer
of success.
Yay! Becky was coming over! And they were going to talk, and sort things out, and all was going to get back to normal.
Okay, okay Elisabeth, she warned herself, don’t get too ahead of yourself. This was good news- but nothing had been solved yet.
She still had a lot of work to do.
Still- phase one completed!
Now to get ready for Paul coming over…