Disclaimer:  I don’t own a1 this is just a story.

 

This is my brand new fic and it might be my last depending on how this does reviews wise because I’m now wondering if I’m wasting my time writing.  Anyway hope those of u who read this enjoy it and to all those of you who have read & reviewed most of my fics a big big thank you.

You’re the best

Kaz xxx

 

 

 

One

 

Life

Your life is your existence from the time you are born until the time you die.

 

 

 

     Christian stood by the cot watching his baby daughter as she slept.  He loved her so much, never before had he ever felt such love a smile curved at his lips as he recalled the night she was born.  He’d been in the basement of his home playing pool with a few friends when the phone had rang, Georgia his then girlfriend had gone into labour and he was needed at the hospital straight away, not that he had gone of course he’d just laughed and carried on playing pool but that was a different Christian the selfish rough Christian who thought of no-one but himself.  The Christian who was disrespectful to his mother and argumentative with his step father, the Christian now was in control of his life a loving father who was now holding down two jobs and he was still only 21 “So this is where you are?” he heard a voice behind him, turning he smiled at Shelby Geddes his girlfriend of now.

 

 

      He turned to face the pretty dark haired young woman then smiled “I’m just checking on Jessie” he said as he shook his curtained hair out of those light green eyes Shelby smiled then took a few paces nearer “Christian she’s fine…now come you have guests” she reminded as she took his hand he looked at her then smiled

“I will just give me a moment”

“Okay but don’t be to long hon” he kissed her cheek then turned back to his daughter, he loved to watch her sleep she was always so peaceful like some kind of little angel How could anyone leave her?  She was so small and vulnerable yet that’s exactly what her mother had done she’d left them when Jessie was just six months  “I love you so much” he whispered as he pulled her little teddy bear cover over her then reached down and smoothed away her blond hair.  He bent down and retrieved the white teddy, which had obviously been tossed out in a fit of temper.        Christian smiled as he recalled his Mother’s words “She has your temper” she had told him one afternoon.  He frowned as memories of his mother filled his mind he hadn’t seen her for almost a year “Night sweetheart” he whispered as he bent down and kissed her forehead.

 

 

     Shelby was speaking to someone on her cell phone when he appeared at the top of the stairs “I gotta go” she said hastily as she watched him slowly descend nodding courteously to his guests as he passed by “Drink” said Shelby handing him a glass of wine “Chris how’s that sweet little girl of yours?” he heard a voice behind him a voice which for so many years had struck fear into him, Christian’s eyes widened as he slowly turned around “What the hell are you doing here?” he hissed the small dark man frowned “Chris calm down” Shelby cautioned Christian placed the wine goblet onto the table “Don’t!  Tell me to calm down” Shelby eyed their guests nervously all eyes were on Christian and his Step Father “Chris please let’s not do this,” the man muttered

“Do what?”

“This…I came to celebrate your birthday”

“Well!  I sure as hell don’t want you here!”

“Chris!”

Christian looked at the hand on his arm and promptly swept it away.

“I want you to leave!”

“Chris!” said Shelby

“Get the hell out of my home”

“Christian please cant we put the past behind us”

“You what?  You gotta be kidding?”  He said then suddenly seized the man by the throat throwing him against the wall  “If you ever come within two feet of me I’ll blow your fucking head off!” he threatened

“Christian…cool it…let go of him”

Christian hesitated for a second before obeying “Get outa my fucking house!” he growled

The small man stared hard before making for the door “Just remember Boy I can whip your ass anytime I damn well please”

Christian made a sudden move towards him but was held back.

 

      As soon as he’d gone Christian lifted another drink from the silver tray and downed it in one gulp “Jesus Chris…I thought you were really gonna kill him” he heard his friend say “That goddamn temper of yours” he added as he watched Christian walk away.

 

 

      “Are you okay?” he drew in a deep breath then turned around “Yeah sure” the pretty blond smiled at him “I bet you never thought you’d see him again” Christian drew in a deep breath “Nope” Kate stared at him “Well you sure told him…how could you do that?” Shelby snapped, “You don’t know what you’re talking about shelb” the woman rolled her eyes “well suppose you tell me?” Christian finished his drink in silence.  His eyes fixed firmly on the ocean “Chris” Shelby pouted “Please!  Just leave me alone” he said “Shelb…we’re gonna go” he heard someone say “You don’t have to” Shelby protested but they were already going “I’ll go to” said Kate as she tossed a strand of blond hair over her slender shoulders “Yeah I think you had better” said Shelby her tone firm it was no secret just how Katherine Harper felt about Christian “Call me if you need me” she said as she placed her hand on his bare arm “Thanks…sorry about all this” he apologised “It’s okay” she smiled as she reached down for her purse.

 

 

 “Well that went well,” snapped Shelby as soon as she closed the door

“Don’t start” Christian replied angrily as he poured himself another drink

 “I think you’ve had enough”

“Yeah?  Well I don’t! I ain’t had nearly enough”

“Chris please don’t start not tonight”

“Start what?  I ain’t starting anything you’re the one mouthing off”

“I’m going to bed!” said Shelby making for the stairs

“Yeah that’s the best idea you’ve had all night”

Shelby watched him slump onto the armchair then raise the crystal glass to his lips and gulp down the rest of his drink.

   

       It was just after one when Christian retired to bed his disregarded clothes lay in a heap on the floor small stains of blood visible, he took a deep breath then got into bed, his right hand bandaged.  Shelby was asleep on her side her arms gripping one of the pillows.  Christian watched her for a while before he to drifted off to sleep.

 

 

      He woke with a start after something soft hit his face.  Opening one eye he turned his head to where the little figure stood a grin on her little face “Hey how’s my girl?” he smiled as he reached down to lift her onto the bed “Wow Jesus H Christ” he groaned she stared at him light green eyes wide and expectant “Wow!” he lay back down and held his head, the room spinning “How much did I have to drink?” he thought as he glanced down to where Jessica now sat on the white rug playing with Blinkie her white teddy bear Christian lay watching her for a while she was engrossed in her task of trying to poke the toys eyes out, her blond locks falling around her face “Daddy broke” she said as she held it up to him “Hey sweetie I’ll fix it later okay?” she stared down at it then slowly got to her feet and toddled over to the bed.

 

 

      He lay there trying to will himself out of bed and failing miserably Jessica had toddled off back to her room and was now busy pulling out all her toys “What the hell is she doing?” he thought but just couldn’t get out of bed.  The sound of something crashing next door and the wails of his daughter had Christian flying from his bed and along the narrow hallway to her room “Oh Jesus!” he yelled on witnessing the scene.  The cot lay upturned and two chubby little feet stuck out from beneath, it looked as though she’d been trying to climb back inside and it had toppled “God! Oh God!” cried Christian as he swiftly fixed the cot then lifted his sobbing daughter into his arms consoling her after he’d checked to see that she was okay.

 

 

      After breakfast Christian bathed his daughter then while she took a nap he went to shower.  He entered the bathroom and quickly turned on the shower the water immediately springing to life.  Closing his eyes he let the warm water hit his face and run down the length of his well-toned body, all those trips to the gym had paid off.  He reached for the soap and held it under his nose taking in the sweet smell before running it along his arm across his shoulder then down the front of his torso a smiled curved his lips on hearing Shelby knock lightly on the door, he reached down then turned the golden key “Hey” he greeted she stood there taking in the sight of him in all his nakedness “Where have you been?” she grinned back at him “I had to go out…you were sleeping it off” she told him “Yeah?” she nodded “So what exactly did I do last night?” she stared at him “You don’t remember?” he shook his head “No” she moved closer “Well we argued” he frowned “We did?  What about?” she forced a smile “Something in nothing” he pouted at her “I’m sorry babe” he apologised she grinned “Yeah so you should be…I hate it when we argue” she said as she stared at him the water running like little raindrops down his face “I think you should make it up to me right now!” he grinned “Really?  And how do you wish me to make it up to you ma’am?” she glanced at him taking in every inch of that perfect body “Well!” she said as she begun to remove her little black top Christian watched her closely, his desire intensifying with each second he wanted her right there and then “I want you to make love to me right here right now!” she demanded “Right now?” he asked locking the door once again “Right now!” she said then kissed him roughly on the lips as she pushed him violently against the shower wall.

 

 

      Christian licked his bottom lip and tasted blood Shelby stared at him her eyes filled with passion.  She wanted him right there and then they kissed again this time as their kiss deepened he felt her hand grip his buttock and her fingers dig into his flesh quickly he reached for her breast cupping it in his hand the water engulfing both of them, she smiled then moved her hand taking his manhood in her palm “Now I have you right where I want you” she whispered then nibbled on his earlobe.  Suddenly he caught her around the waist and forced her against the tiles “Really?” he groaned breathlessly “Ha! You’re so masterful” she giggled, “Yeah you had better believe it honey,” he whispered huskily.  Shelby relaxed allowing herself to be taken she loved the way he made love to her he was so gentle “I love you” he whispered she frowned then wrapped her arms around him, feeling his body next to hers “I love you to” she sighed as she kissed him once more.