Chapter 50

 

When she got up the next morning Christian had completely vanished, there was no sign of life at all in any of the rooms and so she could only presume that he had stepped out to clear his head.

 

Thinking that it sounded like a good idea Mel quickly threw on her comfiest joggers and set out for a run.  Slipping out of the front door she began to do her warm up stretches on the doorstep.  Since living with Christian she had become so conscious of the way she looked, he was obviously really into pretty slim girls and she had to live up to his criteria if she was to keep her man.

 

Bending right down to the floor she touched her toes and held the position for a moment or so, closing her eyes she breathed in deeply and brought herself back up again.  Just as she opened her eyes to begin another stretch a sudden flash went off in front of her.

 

Looking all around in confusion, she was just beginning to think she was imagining things when another one went off in exactly the same direction. 

 

Curiosity getting the better of her she walked towards the flashing bush and came across a man with a large camera grinning at her sheepishly.

 

“What are you doing?” she asked in confusion.

 

“My job,” he replied with a cheeky confidence that shocked her.

 

“Well can you go and do it somewhere else please?” she asked.

 

He laughed and took another snap.  He was cocky, arrogant and confident, dressed in a sharp suit with a huge cheesy grin.  It didn’t seem to matter what she said to him he just continued to carry on snapping.

 

“So you’re the new girlfriend then are you?” he asked, suddenly whipping a notebook out from his oversize pocket.

 

“No,” she said firmly, trying to walk past him and start her exercising.

 

“So you were the girl that stole Christian off his fiancé?”

 

She ignored him and began to jog off at a slow pace, she was annoyed to see that he had decided to jog beside her.

 

“Want to tell your side of the story?”

 

“Not really!” she retorted, turning on her walkman to try and drown him out.

 

“Are you in love with him?”

 

She ran faster, hoping that sooner or later he would lose interest – he did, but it was a good 10 minutes later, when she was just about sick of trying to fob him off with one word answers.  By the time she got back to the flat she was fuming, banging open the door she stomped into the kitchen to find Christian sat at the table, his head in his hands.

 

“Where have you been?” he asked.

 

“Being stalked by paparazzi,” she snapped.

 

“What were you doing out there by yourself?”

 

“Aren’t I allowed to step outside my own house?” she asked.

 

“You have to be more careful,” he replied, “you can’t just come and go as you please anymore.”

 

“Great!” she said sarcastically, taking the towel from the chair and wiping her face.

 

“Where have you been anyway?”

 

“Jogging”

 

“Jogging?” he asked in shock, standing up and coming towards her.

 

“Yeah jogging”

“Mel, you’re pregnant, you can’t just go around jogging,” he said in exasperation.

 

“I’m fine.”

 

He sank back down into the chair, “the world’s gone nuts,” he declared.

 

“Eh?”

 

“You,” he explained, “you’re not treating yourself properly, you’re not putting on weight and every time I try and ask you if you are OK, you try and make me feel like an idiot.”

 

“I don’t,” she replied, “I just know my own body that’s all.”

“I’m only worried.”

 

“I know, but you have no need to be,” she replied, “everything is fine, I’m fine, the baby’s fine and there is nothing to worry about.”

 

He sighed and rested his head back in his arms, “everything is such a mess.”

 

“Is this about last night?” she asked gently, stepping towards him.

 

“Partly,” he explained, “I feel awful about what happened.”

 

“You don’t need to, I like having sex with you.”

 

He smiled at her and she blushed slightly.

 

“I wish I could actually remember it,” he admitted it.

 

“Things are that awful?”

 

“Yeah, I told you, I just go into autopilot, I don’t really have much clue of what I’m doing.”

 

“It’s going to get better,” she said, slipping her arms around his neck, “everything is going to be fine and you will be happy again, I promise.”

 

“I’m not sure it can be,” he said sadly, “I’m not sure who I am anymore.”


”We will find you again, I promise.”

He gave her a weak smile and her heart bled for him, she was so overcome with emotion that she knew what she needed to say, taking a deep breath she leant down towards him and whispered directly into his ear.

 

“Christian I love you”

 

He looked at her with surprise for a moment.

 

“Pardon?”

 

“I love you,” she said, still only a little louder than a whisper.

 

He paused for a moment.

 

“Thanks”

 

She hugged him, she wasn’t concerned that he hadn’t said it back, she knew that in time he would, at least he now knew how she felt.

 

“Let’s tell everyone,” he said suddenly pulling away from her.

 

“Tell everyone what?”

 

“About the baby,” he smiled, “I want everyone to know.”

 

“You mean tell our families?” she asked

 

“Yes, and the press.”

 

The colour drained from her face immediately and she grabbed on to the chair, suddenly feeling very faint.

 

“Mel!” Christian snapped to attention, “you OK?”

 

“Just a bit dizzy,” she replied, in somewhat of a daze, “you sure telling the press would be a good thing?”

 

“Yes,” he replied firmly, “it’ll help to get them off your back.”

 

She felt too weak to protest and before she knew it he was on the phone to Hello magazine.

 

 

 

“So life is good then?” Mark asked as he walked beside Mel.

 

“Yeah great,” she replied enthusiastically, “everything is fantastic.”

 

“And you’re proving me wrong,” he smiled at her.

 

“Yep, that’s my ultimate aim, to make you eat every negative word you said.”

 

“I only did it cos I cared,” Mark insisted.

 

She laughed at the serious tone to his voice, “I know.”

They were walking down Oxford Street arm in arm, popping in to what ever shop took their fancy.

 

“Right, bag check,” he said suddenly, completely changing the subject.  Picking up Mel’s arms he examined the various bags hanging off her hands, “only three, you need much more than that.”

 

“I know,” she groaned in response.

 

“A girl complaining about shopping?” he exclaimed.

 

“I wouldn’t normally,” she protested, “it’s just that this isn’t as fun as I thought it would be.”

 

“You not looking forward to doing this Hello magazine shoot?”

 

“Not at all, don’t really want to be the next Posh and Becks.”

 

He chuckled at her comment, and pulled her along the pavement faster, singing a little cheery tune as they went.

 

“You can’t complain really,” he said as they reached Selfridges, “he’s given you a ton of money.”

 

It was true, that morning in the kitchen Christian had pulled a huge wadge of cash from out of his wallet and given it to her.

 

“Yeah to buy outfits for this stupid shoot,” she grumbled, “it’s all so fake.”

 

“I’d love to do Hello,” Mark continued to chatter, trying to make light of the situation.

 

“You wouldn’t, it’s so cheesy and it dooms your relationship.”

 

“Says who?”

 

“This article I read, it said that 90% of married couples split after doing a Hello magazine shoot.”

“But you’re not married.”

 

“Is beside the point,” she grumbled back, refusing to let him win.

 

“I’m surprise he’s even doing it really, it’s not his kind of thing,” Mark continued as they weaved their way in and out of the designer trousers.

 

“ Think he just wants to get the baby announcement sorted,” Mel said absent mindidily as she ran her fingers over the material on the racks.

 

“How is baby?”

 

“Fine, thanks.”

 

She quickly moved to the next rail of clothes and absorbed herself in picking out various items and looking at them carefully, she could feel his eyes boring in to her.

 

“You’re still a size 10?” he screeched loudly as he watched her picking up a top.

 

She hastily put it back and shrugged her shoulders.

 

“You sure everything is fine?” he asked, “it’s just that me and the lads were saying the other day that you don’t seem to be getting much bigger and …”

 

“Great!” Mel snapped in response, “more of you on my back – Im fine.”

 

His face fell.

 

“Sorry, pregnancy mood swings,” she explained, putting the top down and grabbing hold of his arm, “think I’m in need of a sugar fix.”

 

He didn’t object as she pulled him the whole way up to the tea room and they sat down for a hot chocolate.

 

“Why do I feel like such an idiot?” she asked, glancing around at her surroundings.

 

Everyone else in the tea room was at least 50 and dressed in checked shirts, cardigans thrown over their shoulders with pearls adorning their necks.

 

“I belong in Top Shop, not in here.”

 

He chuckled to himself, “you are sweetness and light today.”

 

She smiled at him, “sorry Mark, I’m not very company today.”

 

“It’s OK,” he said sincerely, “I’m enjoying myself.”

 

“That makes you a very odd man.”

 

He laughed and took a sip of his drink, while she sat looking at him, thinking to herself.

 

“Mark?”

 

“Yep?”

 

“Would you mind if I did a bit of shopping by myself?”

 

“Course not,” he said, and got up immediately, bundling up the few bags that he had.

 

“Just need a bit of Mel time that’s all,” she explained.

 

He was so sweet, he didn’t need to be asked twice, he gave her a peck on the cheek and left obediently.  She watched him leave, gave him a few minutes and then quickly left Selfridges, she knew exactly what she wanted to do with the rest of the money.  Running out into the street she found the nearest Anne Summers store, and checking that no one was looking snuck in through the door.

 

She had never been in a shop like this before, and blushed red the second she entered it, the walls were adorned with types of underwear she never knew existed.  Quickly darting past the very daring section she headed straight for a rack of pretty looking underwear.   It was all so cute, pink, lacy and gorgeous – she loved it all, the only problem was what would Christian like?  She knew she needed something, the kind of girls he slept with wore pretty underwear like this and if she didn’t have any how was she ever going to keep him?

 

Settling on several different pretty items she paid for them and darted out of the shop.  Christian was just going to die when he saw here in these.