***

 

You mean, mean thing! How could you ruin it? It's worse than to discover Santa isn't real. God has a wife?! And what next, are you going to tell me that pigs can fly?!

No, I'm just kidding.

Ashera. I like its sound. Nice to meet you, Ashera. We are even now. I wish my parents would be as nuts as yours, in picking my name. Benjamin sounds so… old. I won't mind to be called Apollo. Maybe I'll change my screen name to that. It's better than Christopher_robin, and more attractive too… except of it, that's what I am *smiling smugly*.

And that brings me to the important point. Can you believe that the guy who told you he is Apollo just now was, like, the shyest boy in school? Ah, those were days! What can I tell you? The best days of my life. Jolly fun. I was fat and wore glasses. Are your teachers cold blooded monsters like ours? Do you have to study the awful masterpiece "Lord of the Flies"? And if so, do you remember Piggy? You got it, then. They bullied me, made me feel like I'm nothing. And look where they are now, and where I am. Usually big asses that bully others do not get far. That's a fact. If I could become a stuck up bastard, you can do it too. No, you shouldn't become a stuck up bastard. I hate it in girls. I hate it in anyone but myself. But… you got the point.

Oi, I can't believe I wrote you such a lecture, but, fuck it, I hope I made you feel better, and I truly complimented for being someone you confide in.

Enjoy your vacation, and come back soon. I'll miss your emails. You see what a selfish prick I am?

 

Ben.

 

***

 

Deer Ben,

You did cheer me up. Thank you. Lots of people that I know, including my mother, tell me how shy they were, and how they overcome it. They say it is such a light manner, as if it's the easiest thing it the world. Well, I guess they feel it is, now. I hope I'll feel like it too, someday. But I don't care about my shyness that very much, really.

We just returned from our vacation. I knew I'd find a letter from you, and yet it made me happy.

I had a pretty good time, I mean, considering the fact that a drop of water didn't touch my skin (except of the shower's water, of course). You see, that's part of my shyness. I don't like the idea of people seeing me half naked. (And I don't like to shave my legs and armpits, too, but that's another story). And since the only thing you can do in Tiberia is swimming (sea or pool) and boating… well, lets just say I didn't have much to do. We stayed in Club Inn Tiberia, a four stars hotel. The balcony was full of birds' shit, the little children were unbearable and the food was pretty bad. But hey, when I would be a millionaire I'd stay in Nof Cineret hotel and such.

Well, I'll go to sleep. Have to wake up at five tomorrow. Good night!

 

Ashera.

 

***

 

Hello, Ashera!

Happy to get your mails again.

What do you mean, a drop of water didn't touch your skin? Girl, you don't know how to have fun. I'm sure there's nothing you should be ashamed of. I've heard Israeli girls are the most beautiful girls in the world, so there. Except of it, what do you care about things that other people think? Fuck them, just dive in.

Oh, I wish you would come to visit me in London. Then I'll show you what fun is.

I'll meet you at the airport… I'll carry a big sign with your name on it (now, that I know it), so you could recognize me. Then I'll take you to an excellent Italian restaurant… do you like Italian food? Well, I guess that everybody does. After the meal I'll take you to my apartment. Oh, you'd love it, and you'd LOVE my puppy. She is not as cool a thing as a giraffe, but she is truly sweet. Then you could take a shower and a rest.

On the afternoon we'll go to St. James Park. Have you been there? It's the most romantic place in London. We'd buy sandwiches and cola and sit on a hidden bench, to eat. And then… well, you can guess. I'm a great kis… hey! The little bastard! Sorry for that. P is fooling around, almost spilled coffee on the keyboard… Who lets him drink coffee anyways?  Well, where was I? Oh yes, I'm a great kisser, I swear.

Then we could go to the Coho. I'll take you to a pub, and then to a night club… no, I guess that would be too much for you at once. So we'll just go home, and, you know… I'm good at that too *smiling cheekily*. So, what do you say?

 

Yours, Ben.

 

***

 

Hey, Ashera, I think I offended you somehow. Why? You know it was only a joke, isn't it? Ok, maybe not a joke, but I'm sure you like to imagine things like that too. I guess I shouldn't have written such things, only that I truly don't think they are to rush or something. Please forgive me? I like to write to you, I like to get your letters, I want to be your friend. Am I forgiven? If I am, write to me, please!

 

Ben *on his knees*.