Chapter Eleven

 

Mark woke up at 3 o’ clock in the morning wondering why it was so light in his room. The reason why it was so light, as he discovered when he opened his eyes, was that the light was still on. Initially, Mark was cross that he’d woken up because he was in the middle of a really nice dream about Rose and was just getting to the good bit, but when he rolled over and looked at his alarm clock and noticed he’d forgotten to set it, he was extremely glad he’d woken up because otherwise he’d have overslept and been late getting to the studios. Which would have been a complete disaster considering it was live TV.

But it was still 3 in the morning.

Mark had two choices. He could either set his alarm to go off at 5 and go back to sleep, or he could get up now and chill for three hours before he needed to leave. Mark really wanted to go back to sleep and not wake up at 5, but seeing as that wasn’t an option he decided that if he slept for two hours and then had to wake up he’d feel much more tired than he did now, so the best option was to get up.

Generally speaking, Mark was quite good at mornings. Well someone had to be coz Paul and Ben certainly weren’t. Ben didn’t get out of bed before at least five cups of coffee and Paul was the most irritable person in the world when he hadn’t had enough sleep. It was safer just to stay out of his way when he was like that! Mark hoped Paul hadn’t been out drinking last night. If he had, there was a very slim chance he’d actually make it to the GMTV studios on time. Or at all… Mark made a mental note to ring him at about 6, just to check he was awake.

Mark sat up and rubbed his eyes. Getting out of bed, he went over to his wardrobe to find something to wear. He decided on his black Ghostbusters t-shirt and a pair of dark denim jeans and put them on his bed. Then, grabbing a towel, he went to have a quick shower seeing as he had time.

 

Ten minutes later, Mark got out of the shower feeling very refreshed and much more awake. He went back into his room and quickly got dry and changed into the outfit he’d selected. He ran a towel over his hair a couple of times and then went downstairs to get some breakfast. He didn’t actually feel hungry, but that wasn’t the point, he knew he’d be hungry later if he didn’t eat now, and it was a morning habit; get up, get changed, have breakfast.

So that’s what he did.

“Hmmm, what shall I have? Toast, or some kind of wheat stuff with dried fruit? Decisions, decisions.” Mark said to himself, not really wanting any of that.

He settled on two pieces of toast with butter and Marmite and took it through to the living room. He sat on the sofa and turned on the TV, not expecting there to be anything even remotely good on at 3 in the morning. He wasn’t disappointed.

God, I’m like some kind of insomniac. He thought to himself as he flicked through the channels, wishing fame didn’t come attached to early mornings.

The music channels seemed to be the only channels showing anything worth watching so he put The Box on and ate his toast accompanied by Hear’Say, Atomic Kitten and Travis.

Although he would much rather he was still fast asleep right now, Mark was glad to have a bit of spare time as there were a few things he wanted to do. He needed to email his brother, Gary, who was in America at the moment with his band D2E. Mark was very close to Gary and had meant to return the email he’d sent him last week but just hadn’t had time. He wanted to tell him all about Rose and he also wanted his advice about telling his mum and dad about her. He kept telling himself to take Ben’s advice and not care about what anyone else thought, but he wasn’t like that, he couldn’t just not care.

Putting his plate on the kitchen side, Mark went back upstairs to his room and switched his computer on. While it loaded up, he absent-mindedly picked up a magazine lying on his desk. It fell open on an a1 interview.

“No, really, this isn’t the page I look at the most.” He said with amusement.

It was okay, he was allowed to be proud of a1 and he liked reading interviews they’d done. Although part of the reason was because he loved the fact that only people who knew them really well would really know what they meant when they answered the questions. Everything was a subtle in-joke as far as they were concerned. Especially when Paul was talking about Ben. Now there was a dangerous situation. He had a tendency to reveal things Ben really didn’t want the whole world to know. Things that Chloe wasn’t meant to know.

That was a point actually. Ben had been talking to Mark about that yesterday at Legoland. It was something he was quite worried about, Chloe finding out about certain aspects of Ben’s life. They’d had a really long talk in the car on the way back to London, and Ben had assured Mark that he was going to put his “crazy period” as he’d called it, behind him. Ben had told him that when he met Chloe, something just kinda clicked inside him and he realised how stupid he’d been. He’d decided that he wasn’t going to be “like that” any more; it wasn’t who he was now as far as he was concerned. Mark wasn’t sure whether it was a case of him not wanting to be like that or not needing to be like that, or both, but whatever the reason for the change, Mark was glad of it. He’d never understood why Ben had gone that way. It wasn’t like he had to be like that; he could have more or less anyone he wanted. Or maybe that was it. He could, so he did.

There was nothing strictly wrong with one-night stands, in Mark’s view they were morally wrong, but Ben took it to a pretty bad extent. Mark hadn’t said anything but he could see that Ben wasn’t happy being that way. It wasn’t like him. Mark had known Ben for many years and he wasn’t that kind of person. The person he’d become since meeting Chloe, a short amount of time as that had been, that was the real Ben, and Mark hoped it stayed that way. He hoped Ben could hold on to Chloe, coz she was exactly the kind of person he needed. Ben was worried that if Chloe found out about his “past”, she wouldn’t want to be with him. Mark disagreed with that theory. He had told Ben that he should tell her about it before she found out from someone else, which in Mark’s book was much much worse.

Ben’s problem though, was that he thought Chloe was too good for him. Mark believed that no-one was better than anyone else and he wished Ben wouldn’t think like that. Apart from anything else, Mark could see it leading to problems within the relationship. He really wanted Ben to be happy. He deserved it and Mark truly thought Chloe was the one to make Ben happy. Mark just hoped Ben would let her.

Jolting back to reality at the sound of a beep from the computer, Mark realised he’d been staring into space for a good ten minutes.

I think about other people’s problems too much. He thought, clicking ‘OK’ on the message box that had appeared on the screen and starting up ‘Outlook Express’ so he could check his mail.

“You have three new messages.” It told him.

There was one from his friend Lee, one from Del, a1’s PA and one from…

“Rose.” Mark said happily, eagerly opening the email and reading what she’d written.

 

To: buzzlightyear@btinternet.co.uk

From: jelly_beans56@yahoo.co.uk

Subject: Hiya!!

Message: Hi Mark!

             

              How are you? I just wanted to say thanks for such a great day. I had the best time ever,

              I hope we can do it again sometime! Have a good time at GMTV tomorrow – me and

             Chloe will be watching!

 

              See you soon,

 

             Loads of love,

             Rose

   xxxx

 

Hitting ‘REPLY’, Mark typed this back:

 

To: jelly_beans56@yahoo.co.uk

From: buzzlightyear@btinternet.co.uk

Subject: re: Hiya!!

Message: Hi Rose

 

Thanks for your email, it really cheered me up at this ridiculous time of 4 in the morning! Mad isn’t it?

And all for the sake of a TV show that’s on so early in the morning that no-one will watch it anyway!

Oh well, you’ll be watching and that’s all that matters to me right now. I do think it’s a bit unfair that

you’ll be able to see me but I won’t be able to see you. I’ll just have to use my imagination! I’ve been

thinking about you loads, all the time really. It’s hard not to. I really miss you. But you’re right, I will

see you soon and I can’t wait! I had a great time yesterday too and hopefully next weekend will be even

better!

 

Anyway, better go, I have to reply to an email my brother sent me a week ago! Say hi to Chloe for me,

 

Mark xx

 

Mark re-read what he’d written and clicked ‘SEND’. ‘Message sent’ appeared on the screen and Mark continued to check his mail. When he’d read the other three messages, he started on the email to Gary.

 

“But don’t we need it done by next Tuesday?” Christian was asking his mobile phone. Or rather, the person at the end of the phone. “August?! Can’t we do it sooner?”

Chris was sitting in the canteen at the GMTV studios in London waiting for Ben, Mark and Paul to arrive. He knew Mark was going to be late because he’d rung him earlier to say he was stuck in traffic but he was getting slightly worried that Paul and Ben hadn’t turned up yet and they had to be on in about 40 minutes.

“Yeah, they’re here.” Chris lied to their manager.

They’d been discussing the new single and Chris was surprised to learn that they weren’t being allowed to showcase any of their new stuff until at least August when the single was due for release. He’d thought that they’d be performing their song, ‘When I’m Missing You’ at the charity concert on Sunday, but obviously not. He was disappointed because he was really proud of what they’d done and wanted to show it off. And he knew the fans had already been waiting for too long to hear some new songs. He was also annoyed that he hadn’t known about this before. Did the others know? Why hadn’t he been told? More importantly, how had he missed it? He’d been to every meeting as far as he knew. He’d have to ask Mark.

When he got there.

Which could be a while.

“Okay, well I’ll speak to you later then.” Chris said into his phone, ending the conversation. As he hung up, he noticed Ben had appeared and was walking over to his table.

“Hiya!” Ben said cheerily as he approached.

“Where’ve you been?” Chris asked.

Ben looked at his watch. “What are you talking about? I’m on time. How long have you been here?”

“About half an hour. Why are you so happy at this time of the morning? Usually all you can manage is a grunt.”

“I just spoke to Chloe.” Ben revealed, grinning and pulling up a chair next to Chris’s.

Chris looked puzzled as he tried to work out who Chloe was.

“Oh!” he exclaimed, finally working it out. “So that’s her name is it?”

“Yeah, I forgot you didn’t know.”

“So go on then, tell me all about her. She’s one of the fans you went out with on Monday night yeah?”

Ben nodded. “What do you want to know?” he asked Chris.

“Everything! Anything! She’s obviously pretty special to make you cheerful at half 6 in the morning. I didn’t think it was possible!” Chris joked.

“Shut up! And yeah, she is special, very special.” Ben said, getting a far away look in his eyes.

“What does she look like?” Chris asked.

“What does who look like?”

Ben and Chris turned round and saw Paul standing behind them.

“God, you look terrible!” Ben exclaimed.

“Oh yeah, thanks.” Paul said grumpily. “Who are you talking about?”

“Ben’s new girlfriend.”

“Another one? How long’s this one going to last then?” Paul asked, smiling knowingly at Ben.

“It’s not like that.” Ben said quickly.

“Oh really?”

“Yeah, actually. But if you’re just gonna be an idiot then I won’t bother telling you about her.”

“I wanna know.” Chris said.

“Yeah, sorry man, I was only joking.” Paul apologised.

“It’s alright, it’s just… oh never mind. Well anyway, she’s called Chloe, she’s… um… I dunno where to start! She’s just great.”

“Oh well that answers all the questions I had then.” Chris said with amusement.

“Well you’ll get to meet her soon, you can ask her yourself.”

“What?” Paul asked.

“She’s coming up to stay with me next weekend.”

“Really? Cool! Where does she live?”

“In the Forest of Dean.”

“Where’s that?” Chris asked.

“Kinda near Cardiff.”

“Woah, isn’t that miles away?”

“Yeah, me and Mark went up yesterday, it takes about 2 and a half hours to get there from London.” Ben told Paul and Chris.

“Mark? Why did he go up?”

“Um, maybe I should let him tell you.” Ben said, realising that Mark might not want Paul and Chris to know about him and Rose yet.

“Why?”

“Just because it’s his business and I don’t think it’s really my place to say.”

Paul and Chris exchanged glances. Paul opened his mouth to say something else but was interrupted by Del coming over and telling them they had to go into make-up.

“Where’s Mark?” he asked.

“He’s on his way. He’s stuck in traffic.” Chris said.

“Can you give him a ring for me? Find out where he is?” Del asked him.

“Yeah sure, I’ll do it in make-up.”

“Okay, thanks.”

Del led a1 out of the canteen and down a corridor into a room full of mirrors and chairs. Several make-up artists were milling around busily and as they entered the room. Ben, Paul and Chris were ushered into the chairs in front of the mirrors. As the make-up artists applied a very simple base to their faces so the studio lights wouldn’t make them look like ghosts, Chris got out his mobile and phoned Mark.

“So tell me more about Chloe.” Paul was asking Ben. “What does she look like?”

Ben smiled at Paul. “She’s really beautiful. She’s got long dark brown hair, brown eyes, a lovely smile…”

“You always get the good looking ones. It’s so unfair!” Paul said. “How old is she?”

“Um, 15.” Ben said quietly.

“15? Isn’t that kinda young?”

“It’s just a number.” Ben said defensively.

“I know but… it’s under age man!”

Ben and Paul both burst into laughter as Chris got off the phone.

“What’s so funny?” he asked.

“Just Paul being stupid as usual.” Ben said, still laughing.

“Of course. Mark’s gonna be here soon, he’s just got out of the traffic jam so he shouldn’t be much more than 5 minutes now.” Chris informed the room.

“What’s the time?” Ben asked.

Chris looked at his watch, much to the displeasure of the woman who was trying to make him up. “It’s 20 to.”

“Is he gonna be here in time?”

“Just, I hope.”

“Oh, he needs to be here!” Ben exclaimed.

“Why?” Paul asked. “Well, apart from the obvious reason.”

“Oh, we just had this thing we were going to do. For Chloe and Rose.”

“Who’s Rose?”

“Oh, um, Chloe’s best friend.”

“Ooh, is she good looking as well?” Paul asked.

“I can never tell whether you’re joking or not when you say that.” Ben said, trying to avoid the question.

“Well it depends, is she good looking?” Paul persisted. “Or even okay looking…?”

Ben laughed. “Yeah, she’s quite cute I guess, but she’s the same age as Chloe.”

“Oh. Well, if she doesn’t have a problem with it…” Paul joked.

“Well I think M…” Ben stopped just in time, kicking himself for almost letting Mark’s secret slip.

Not that it was a secret, just something not many people knew. And it was Mark’s business, Ben had no right to tell Paul and Chris, friends that they were. Mark should be allowed to tell them when he wanted to. But all this talk of Paul and Rose was making him a bit nervous. He was going to say that he thought Mark might have a problem with it, but he was so glad that he hadn’t. Mark would have killed him. He got kind of funny about his private life sometimes.

“How old is Chloe?” Chris asked, having missed the conversation between Paul and Ben earlier.

“15.” said Paul.

“Don’t say it.” Ben said before Chris could comment.

“I wasn’t going to say anything. Apart from oh, maybe.”

“Yes you were. Or at least you’re thinking it. But she’s not too young. God, it’s not as bad as M…”

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Ben thought crossly. That was twice in the space of a few seconds now.

“Not as bad as what?” Paul asked.

Why does he have to notice everything? Ben asked silently. For once can he just not notice?

“Um, not as bad as, well, loads of people. Michael Douglas and Catherine Zeta Jones for example.”

Phew.

“True.” Mused Chris.

There was silence for a few seconds and then the door opened.

“Ah Mark, glad you could make it.” Paul said, noticing him in the mirror.

“I’m really sorry I’m late, there was a crash and there was a huge traffic jam.”

“Oh it’s okay. We were just finding out about…”

“No-one! Mark, can I have a word with you for a second please?” Ben asked, getting up out of his chair and hurrying a very surprised Mark out of the room.

“Well I thought the standard greeting was hello, but I guess this works too.” Mark said. “Are you alright Ben?”

“I’m fine. Look, are you going to tell Chris and Paul about Rose?”

“Uh, yeah. Why?”

“What? Right now?”

“I dunno. Ben, what’s the matter?”

“Nothing. I just didn’t know whether you wanted to tell them and so I didn’t mention it, but I kind of did, but Paul thinks…”

“Okay, slow down Ben. What, you’ve told them or you haven’t?”

“No. I mean, they don’t know, but they know about me and Chloe and a couple of times I accidentally said a few things about you and then said that I couldn’t say coz it wasn’t my business. But I said something about Rose, and Paul’s been, well, you know what Paul’s like.”

“Oh, I see.”

“So I just thought I’d warn you to ignore him if he says anything about her coz he doesn’t actually know who he’s talking about.”

“Okay, thanks.”

Mark turned to go back into the room.

“Oh, there is one more thing.” Ben said.

Mark turned around. “What?”

“They know how old she is.”

“Ah. Did they say anything about Chloe’s age?” Mark asked thoughtfully.

“Not really. Paul being Paul, just stuff like that. You’re really worried about it aren’t you?” Ben asked.

Mark sighed. “Yeah, but not because I have a problem with it. More because I’m terrified someone’s going to say, you can’t go out with her, end of story. Because I don’t want to have to choose something over her, or vice versa.”

“Mark, no-one’s gonna say that.” Ben said, putting a comforting hand on Mark’s shoulder.

“Tim will.”

“Screw Tim. He doesn’t know anything about it.”

“Are you two done girly chatting?” Paul shouted from the make-up room. “Coz we’re on in five minutes and Mark’s not been made up.”

“Have I got time to tell them?” Mark asked Ben.

“Save it until after. We can have a proper chat then.”

 

“Oh my god, they’re gonna be on any minute!!” Chloe squealed excitedly.

Her and Rose had been sat in front of the TV for a good half hour so they made absolutely sure they didn’t miss a1’s appearance. The video was all set up to record on Chloe’s say and the two girls were so excited they couldn’t sit still.

“This is the first time we will see them on TV as our boyfriends.” Rose said.

“I know. This is the coolest day. We are so incredibly lucky.”

“Do you think they’re thinking about us?” Rose asked dreamily.

“I hope so. Ben said that he’d be thinking about me the whole way through when I talked to him this morning.”

“Awww… he is so sweet.”

“I know.”

“OH COME ON!!!!!!! WE WANT TO SEE a1!!!!!” Rose shouted at the TV screen. “What’s the time?”

“2 minutes to 7.”

“Oh my god, I think I’m going to be sick! I’m way too excited about this aren’t I?”

“No, look at my hands.” Chloe said, holding her hands out in front of her to show Rose that they were shaking.

“Aww, bless.”

“I’ll probably burst into tears as soon as I see them.” Chloe said, laughing.

“OH MY GOD, THERE THEY ARE!!!!!” Rose screamed as Ben, Paul, Mark and Christian, collectively known as a1, walked onto the set.

“Oh my god, Ben looks so gorgeous!”

“I love Mark’s trousers. Oh my god, he’s wearing a sleeveless top! I think I’m going to faint!”

Chloe and Rose lapsed into silence, enthralled by the action on the TV.

a1 were sitting on a sofa opposite the presenter and they all looked surprisingly awake under the circumstances.

The two girls stared at the screen, taking in every single word as a1 happily chatted away about their music.

“They look so cute, don’t they?” Chloe asked, smiling happily at the image of Ben.

“Do you think Paul and Chris know about us?” Rose asked.

Chloe thought. “Yeah. I guess, anyway. Why wouldn’t Ben and Mark tell them?”

“Oh no reason, I was just wondering.”

“You know, Ben said that everyone’s gonna know about me and him in a few days anyway coz the photos the fans took will have found their way to the magazines and onto the internet and stuff. That’s why he said I should tell everyone I know before they find out another way and things get confused.” Chloe told Rose. “You and Mark are okay though coz you went out the back way when you were leaving the hotel. Have you asked him if you can tell people?”

“No, not yet. I haven’t spoken to him since Tuesday. He said he’d ring me after the show today. You haven’t told everyone though have you?”

“No, I don’t want to. I’ve only told Grace. And you obviously.”

“Why don’t you want to tell people? I can’t wait!” Rose said enthusiastically.

“I dunno really. I think that if I ring everyone I know and go ‘guess what? I’m going out with a popstar!’ not many people will believe me and also, what if it only lasts for a few days? Then I’m gonna look really stupid.”

Rose looked shocked. “Clo, it’s not only going to last for a few days. Ben loves you.”

“I know, I just don’t want to tempt fate I guess.” Chloe shrugged. “Plus, it’s no-one else’s business. I’d rather they rang me if they want to know. Otherwise, if they don’t care, I don’t either.”

“I love it when you’re being all stubborn and defiant. You’re so funny!” Rose laughed.

“Thanks. You’re so odd!” Chloe said, turning her attention back to the TV.

“Yeah, it’s in Hyde park, this Sunday. So everyone come down and see us!” Paul was saying.

“And quite a lot of big names will be appearing alongside you, is that right?” The presenter asked.

“That’s right. I’m not sure of the whole line-up, but I think Steps, Atomic Kitten, S Club 7, Craig David, people like that are going to be performing.” Mark said.

“Urgh, not Craig David.” Chloe said.

“I hope we don’t have to talk to him.”

“Yeah, I might say something I might regret!” Chloe giggled.

“Oh, I hope Five aren’t gonna be there.” Rose said. “I might punch them or something!”

“You’ll have to ask Mark when he rings you.”

“Yeah.”

“Do you think Paul and Chris’ll like us?” Chloe asked.

“Yeah, why wouldn’t they? Mark and Ben did.” Rose pointed out.

“Over sixty tracks in fact.” Chris said.

“Oh god, how many times have we heard that?” Chloe said.

“I know, same old story. What I wanna know is when we’re actually gonna get to hear some of them!”

“We should have asked Ben and Mark when they’re releasing the album.”

“They wouldn’t have told us though would they? Closely guarded secret and everything.”

“I guess. They should tell us though. We are their girlfriends after all.”

Rose giggled. “You can say that again if you like.”

“What? We are their girlfriends?”

“Uh-huh. Keep saying it, it sounds good.”

“We are going out with Ben and Mark from a1.” Chloe said with a smile.

Rose sighed. “Ahhh, life is good.”

“Well that’s about all we have time for. Thank you for coming on guys and good luck with your single. a1, everybody!”