Four

 

    

      Jessica stood just outside the bathroom door listening to her father’s girlfriend be sick inside.  “Are you okay in there?” she called; Jo straightened up and eyed herself in the mirror.  “You want me to call my dad?” the little girl offered.  Jo Logan, Hollie’s sister panicked.  “No!  No sweetie, I’m fine, I’ll be out in a minute.” She cried anxiously but she had already gone.

 

      Ben, who was busy fixing breakfast for them all, looked up when Jessica entered the kitchen.  A puzzled look on her face.  “What’s up with Jo?” she inquired, Ben stared at her.  “Nothing, why?  What made you think there were something wrong hon?” she pulled out a chair and sat down.  “Coz she was awfully sick in the toilet.”  Ben flew from the kitchen and upstairs to the bathroom “Jo, Jo you okay in there honey?” he asked as he knocked on the door, she opened it and smiled “Sure, why wouldn’t I be?” he looked puzzled.

 “It’s just Jess said you were feeling a little off colour.”

“I’m fine.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yup, come on, where’s that breakfast you owe me?”

 

      They entered the kitchen together and smiled down to where Jessica sat eating pancakes, “Daddy, can I go see the parade with Brit today?” Jo frowned, it felt strange that Jessica should refer to Ben as daddy but she supposed it was only natural.  He was probably the only father she knew.

“If Brit’s folks say it’s okay.” Ben permitted.

“I’ll go call them now.”

Jo smiled as she watched her dive from the chair.

“So, how did it go with Mark?”

“It didn’t, he’s representing Ingebrigtsen.”

“Oh, so what you gonna do?”

Ben grinned “Colin’s gonna represent me.”

“Wow, the Read brothers up against each other.  They should sell tickets.”

“Colin seems pretty optimistic that I’ll get custody.”

“Well that’s something then.”

“And he thinks she’ll be here for Christmas.”

“Who’ll be here for Christmas?” Jessica asked.

Ben and Jo exchanged glances.

“Rosetta, she said she might stop by.” Ben lied.

“Oh.  Brit said I can go.”

“Okay, have you done your chores?”

“Yeah”

“Okay, you can go get ready then.”

“Cool, by Jo”

Jo got down from the stool.  “My cue to leave I think.”

“You don’t have to, I ain’t gotta be in work until late.” Ben told her.

“Mmm sounds tempting but I really gotta get going, I’m on duty soon.”

Ben had forgotten she was still a police officer.

“I still say you went back to work too soon.”

“And I still say I’m fine.”

“Ok” he said, she kissed him.

“Oh Yuk, would you guys knock it off, that’s just so gross.” Jessica chastised them.

“I gotta go.” Jo said at last.

“I’ll see you tonight?”

“Yeah, maybe.”

Ben grinned.  “I’ll see you tonight; I’ll be home around 1am.”

“Ok.” Giggled Jo as she made for the door.

 

      Ben watched her make her way along the pathway and get into her car before returning to the task in hand.  Washing up, why he’d given Rosetta the day off he didn’t know.  He finished washing up and then made his way down to the basement where he put a load of washing on.

 

      When he returned he noticed Jessica sitting by the window, she was wearing a pink duffle coat, hat scarf and gloves.  “Hey what’s up hon?” he asked, she looked up through huge tears.  “Brit’s awfully late.” Ben crouched down, coming face to face with her. 

“Hey give her time, it’s still early.  Parade don’t start until two.”

“Yeah, it’s almost that now and besides, I saw Britney leaving already.”

Ben took a deep breath and slowly exhaled.

“What exactly did Britney say honey?”

“She just said, sure you can come.”

“Did she ask her folks like I said she should?”

“I don’t know, she said that her mom said she can bring one special friend and well I’m her friend aren’t I?”

“Maybe they couldn’t take any special friends in the end?” he suggested.  Jessica shrugged a shoulder.  “Hey, I got some time off, what you say I take you to see the parade?”

She beamed up at him and wiped away her tears.  “Yeah, you’re the best daddy in the whole world.” she said as she hugged him tight.  He closed his eyes, cherishing those words.

 

 

      Kate pulled on Christian’s arm.  “Come on, it’ll be fun. Besides you said you’d go already.” Christian glanced at the frost covered streets then back to where Kate stood. 

“Yeah, but its cold out.  Wouldn’t you rather stay here and err keep warm?”

“Oh and how do you suppose we keep warm?” she teased.

“I think I can think of a way.”

“Is that all you think about?”

“Why?  What am I thinking?”

“You know darn well what you’re thinking.”

He caught her around the waste and pulled her close and although she was very tempted she managed to restrain herself.

“Come on, it’s started already.”

He frowned and let go.

“Why would I wanna go watch a stupid parade?”

“Because you want to make me happy, you do wanna make me happy don’t you?”

“I could make you ecstatically happy hon.  If you’d just let me.”

“I might.”  He straightened up, “After the parade.”

“Kate!”

“Chris.”

“Okay, you win; I’ll come and watch the stupid parade.”

 

      The town’s streets were brimming with streamers and tinsel, everything Christmas held to offer could be seen on the streets.  Kate pushed her way to the front, dragging Christian with her.  His eyes surveying every little girl visible.  “Well you could look as if you’re enjoying yourself.” She called over the noise; he glanced down at her then smiled.  “Oh I am, believe me.” He said as he watched the floats go by.

 

      Roxi pushed her way through the crowd minutes later and stood at the other side of Christian, he turned to her and grinned wickedly,

“What, no cool uniform today?”

“Chris, I know this might be hard for that puny brain of yours to take in, but I don’t got to wear it everyday.  Where you had to wear…”

“Ok, you win.  I’ll shut up now.”

“What’re you doing for Christmas Rox?” Kate inquired.

“I’m not sure.”

“You wanna come to us for Christmas?”

Roxi smiled but noted the look on Christian’s face and promptly declined.

“Are you sure?  We’d love to have you.  Wouldn’t we Chris?”

No response.

“Chris” she nudged him, following his gaze to where a little girl stood.

“Chris, are you okay?” Roxi joined in, she to following his gaze.

“Why the hell did no-one tell me?”

“Tell you what?”

“That Adams has my daughter!”

“Oh God!”

“Great, just great, I got another fucking cop stuffing up my life.”

“Chris, Chris were are you going?” Kate cried “Chris, Chris you can’t approach him.”

“No-one’s gonna stop me from talking to her Kate.  No-one.”

 

      Kate looked frantic, her worse fear was that Christian would end up back in jail, and this time he would be guilty.  “Chris, listen to me.  I know this sucks but you got to be patient, don’t blow it on a whim.” Roxi advised, stepping in front of him.  He stood there just staring across to where his daughter stood watching the parade.  “I just want her back.” He said finally.  Kate slipped her arm around him, “I know.” She said quietly. “Let’s go home?” she added, he took one last look at Jessie then agreed, allowing Kate to lead the way.  “D’you need a ride Rox?” asked Kate, the pretty woman shook her head and so the couple walked away.

 

 

     

     As the last float passed Ben squeezed Jessica’s hand, telling her it was time to go.  “I had a swell time Dad.” She suddenly announced looking lovingly up at him.  He crouched down; “I’m glad, so what you say we go have dinner in Luigi’s?” she beamed then nodded, taking his hand as they walked.

 

      They rounded the corner and bumped into Britney and her parents.  “Hi Jess.” Britney said guiltily.

“Hello Britney.”

“I, err.” The dark haired Britney stammered as she looked at their other friend Bailey Wade.

Jessica smiled warmly at them both, “Hi Bailey, you come down with your folks to?” she inquired.

“No, Brit invited me.”

“Oh!  I see.”

“What did you think of the parade?  Cool or what?” he went on.

“Yeah, it were okay.”

Ben looked from Jessica to where Britney and her parents stood.

“We err, em, forgot Brit had invited Bailey.” Mrs Woods cut in awkwardly.

“Sure you did.” Ben retorted, he knew when people were trying to cover up, “Come on Jess.” He added as he walked away.

 

      Luigi made a big fuss of Jessica as soon as she stepped inside.  He was the kind of man who always make a fuss of the kids who came to his restaurant which doubled up as a deli during the day, but he always gave Jessica extra special attention. 

“You go get a table hon; I’ll be over in a minute.”

“Ok”

“What can I get you?” Luigi inquired.

“The usual and make Jess up something extra special, she’s having a bad day.”

“Ok something extra special coming up.”

 

      Ben hurried over to where Jessica sat and slipped in opposite her, she was looking thoughtful as she removed her gloves, scarf, and coat but left the pink little hat on.  Ben sat staring at her, those greeny/blue eyes filled with pain.

“Daddy, d’you think I ain’t Brit’s special friend anymore?”

“No.  I think she’d just forgotten she invited Bailey along that’s all.”

“But…”

A waitress brought their drinks, a large chocolate milk shake for Jessica and coffee for Ben.

“Thanks.” He said.

“But daddy, Bailey’s…”

Their food was then served.

“Bailey’s what hon?”

“Well he’s a boy.”

Ben lifted his coffee.

“Err, yeah.”

“Well boys are different to girls aren’t they daddy.”

Ben chocked on his coffee, wandering just where the hell this conversation was going to lead. 

“Yeah Jess. They are.  Eat your pizza.”

She looked down at her plate.

“Daddy you don’t think Bailey and Brit are, well you know?”

He certainly didn’t know.

“Know what?”

“Friends.”

He relaxed a little.  Friends, yeah friends was good, he could talk about friendships.

“They might be.”

“But Brit said she hated him.  He smelt”

“Oh.”

“So you see daddy, that’s what’s confusing me.  We don’t like Bailey.”

“Oh, okay.  Well looks as if Brit’s changed her mind.”

He took another sip of coffee.

“But she can’t, we made a packed that we wouldn’t be friends with boys.  Like ever.”

“Oh.”

“Why d’you think she changed her mind?”

“I don’t know hon, now eat your meal.”

He was feeling mighty uncomfortable now.  She lifted a huge piece of pizza and bit into it but he could see more questions working over in her little mind.

“Daddy, d’you think that Brit and Bailey might get together?”

“Get together, what d’you mean by together?”

He wasn’t sure he wanted to know.

She rolled her eyes.  “You know, like together, kiss and stuff?”

Ben looked her in the eye.  “JESSICA.  You’re eight years old, way to young to be even thinking of that stuff, you should be thinking of dolls and prams, you know.  Kids stuff.”

She went back to her thoughts.

“But daddy.”

“Enough already come back in eight years time when you’re sixteen.  We can talk then ok.”

“Ok”

She looked annoyed and Ben looked relieved.