Chapter 57
Whats up with Mark then?
Mel took a large heap of spaghetti from the plate
they were sharing and wrapped it round her fork.
Hes fine, she confirmed, her mind completely
focused on the long strand of spaghetti.
He looked a bit upset, Chris commented, putting
down his cutlery and turning his full attention towards her.
Come on, eat your dinner, she urged, pointing to the plate that was balanced on her lap.
Youre not going to tell me anything are you?
It doesnt matter Chris.
He picked his fork back up and began to dig at the spaghetti,
stabbing it, twisting it round his fork and then letting it drop back on the
plate.
You sulking? she asked, slightly amused, she had
never seen Christian in a sulk before.
Its just that youre so close to him. He replied
quietly.
Were mates
You talk to him about everything dont you? Chris
asked.
Not everything, Mel commented carefully, just a
lot of things.
You find him easy to talk to?
Yeah
Hes easier to talk to than me?
Chris! Mel exclaimed, putting the plate down on
the table, are you telling me youre jealous?
I dont know, he said quietly, maybe
You dont need to be, hes my friend.
I know, he grumbled in response, Im sorry.
Dont be sorry, Mel said grinning, this is
good.
Im glad my discomfort causes you pleasure.
Dont be daft sweetie, she replied, moving closer
to him on the sofa, Im just glad you are starting to feel something for me.
He grunted a response and just scowled at her.
You really are jealous arent you?
Yes, he replied, I felt so weird when you left
to go after him today.
So you really do want to be with me?
Of course I do, Ive already told you that, he
replied.
Yeah, but Ive never been sure, because I know you
dont love me and that makes me think that one day you could just get up and
leave me.
It wont happen, he replied softly, picking up
her hand and holding it in his.
You sure?
Yeah, and I think ... he paused for a moment and bent
down to give her a quick kiss, things are about to change.
They are?
Im feeling more and more for you every day, he
smiled at her, and today the thought of you being with someone else made me
feel so sick.
Her insides filled with joy as she looked right
into his eyes and saw all of the warmth spilling out of them.
I love you Christian, she said softly, looking
right at him and waiting for a response.
It never came but instead he bent his head and put
his lips back onto hers, and then gently ran them all over her face.
Tonight could be the night, he commented
grinning.
The night for what? she asked in confusion.
Come upstairs and find out, he replied, picking
up his glass of wine and making his way out of the room.
She timidly made her way upstairs after him, not
entirely sure what he was getting at. By
the time she got in his room he was already lying on the bed taking little sips
from his glass.
Whats this all about?
Just come and sit down, he replied, patting the
bed next to him.
She did as he asked and shuffled her way to the bed
and propped herself up next to him.
We never do things that we should. he said,
looking straight at her.
Like?
This
You mean talking?
We do that the whole time, she replied in confusion.
But were not close are we?
What do you mean?
I want to be close in the way that you are close
with Mark, he said.
Im sorry I cant talk to you the way that I talk
to him, its just that when it comes to you Im so confused, she admitted, I
never know how you feel for me.
Thats why I want to start doing things properly,
he commented.
What things?
The things boyfriends and girlfriends do, he
said.
Oh, she replied, not really sure what else she
could say.
I want us to have sex, he said quietly.
What happened to taking this slowly? Mel asked cautiously,
suspicious of his sudden change of heart.
Things changed.
They did?
Mel wrinkled up her nose in confusion, men were
confusing enough at the best of times, but she was beginning to think that she
would need a full size manual to work out what was going on in Christians
head.
I want to be with you, he said, kissing her forcefully
on the lips.
OK, she said slowly once he had let her breathe
once more, but I dont want to have sex with you.
His whole body dropped immediately, his shoulders
slugging down and his eyes full of hurt.
I want you to make love to me, she explained
quietly, I want it to be special, and for it to feel like you really mean it.
I want to make love to you, he said quickly.
She blushed, the red rising quickly right up her
face and settling in a glowing mass.
You do? she gulped, suddenly nervous by the
determination in his voice.
Yes, this time itll be right, itll be like the
first time, how it should be.
She smiled at his enthusiasm, he had jumped off the
bed, turned out the light and was now running around lighting every available
candle he could lay his hands on, then just before he returned to her he moved
over to the stereo and put on some music.
You are so lucky you werent listening to some
heavy metal group before I came in here, she joked as the soft romantic music filled
the room, that would have killed the mood.
I dont listen to metal, he replied softly,
gazing right into her eyes.
Mel shivered slightly, all of this was so
surreal. This was the moment she had
dreamt of for years, she was lying in the arms of the man she loved with all
her heart, and he was about to love her back, she was so happy, her head was
spinning from the natural high of life.
I love you, she said softly to him, unable to
help herself.
He leant right in towards her and kissed her carefully
and gently on the lips and then running his hands softly all over her began to
remove all of her clothing until she was lying on the bed completely naked.
Youre beautiful he whispered, sitting up to
admire her.
Im not, she breathed back, folding her arms over
her naked stomach, youve been with so many women, how can I be beautiful?
You are, he insisted, taking her arms away and
kissing her stomach, and youre carrying my baby
Yeah, she replied thoughtfully, watching the way
he gazed at her stomach.
I dont want to hurt the baby, he said suddenly,
dragging his eyes away and fixing them up towards her.
Its fine, she replied.
Its OK if we do this then? he asked, suddenly
worried, Im not going to hurt you.
Im fine, she repeated, reaching out for him and
taking all of his clothes off to join hers on the floor.
When she had finished she lay there for a few
seconds, just looking at him, almost nervous by what was going to happen
next. This was going to be the third
time she had done it with him, and this time it had to be perfect, this was
going to be the real turning point. Did
he really feel anything for her or was it all just meaningless words?
He started to kiss her, almost as if he could sense
her worry, and then shifted his body so he was gently resting on top of
her.
She closed her eyes as he began to kiss her lips
over and over again, it felt so wonderful and for the first time in months she
was completely at peace. Any doubt or
worry she had been carrying seemed to slip out of her body as she fell into
each of his kisses, losing herself in the feeling that was welling up inside
her. As he gently shifted her legs and moved
inside her she hardly noticed, it just felt like the most natural and beautiful
thing in the world. He rocked her gently
against him, his arms tightly around her in a warm hug, kissing her face as he
moved. He didnt speed up or apply any
pressure at all, just kept going at a steady gentle pace, kissing her and
looking right into her eyes as he broke for breath. On the moments when she opened her eyes to
look at him she was amazed by the way they twinkled back at her, and when she
began to quietly gasp for breath he smiled at her. Only then did he speed up slightly, moving
against her quicker yet still keeping her tight against him, it was then that
it happened. He leant his head back
slightly and let in a huge breath before letting it out again in a mixture of
air and gasps.
As he calmed down and got his breath back, he stayed
tight against her, slowing himself down.
He leant in towards her, youre amazing, he
whispered in her ear, his breath still coming out in short gasps, she grunted a
response and then his mouth kissed her gently on the ear before following with,
I love you.
She blinked up at him, confused by what she had
just heard, were her ears going mad, or had Christian just said he loved her,
he was looking at her and smiling yet hadnt repeated what he said.
He pulled away from her and rolled to the other
side of the bed, breathing heavily and pulling some clothing back on.
She looked over at him in confusion, unable to
speak. So much emotion was building up
inside her, that had been the most amazing moment of her life, she had never
had sex like that before, and then he said that he loved her.
That was beautiful, he finally said turning to
her.
She opened her mouth to reply, but nothing would
come out, he smiled at her, gave her a kiss and then turned the light out and
dropped off to sleep.
Left alone in the dark Mel could only wonder.