all of a sudden it feels like winter
and it smells like clean clothes
I remember feeling alone
and I never realized
how fuzzy it felt
how blurred it looked
until today
until life started moving so slowly
none of these idiots are beautiful at all

this winter
I'm watching waiting looking
out the window
at the rain-slicked night and mirrored pavement
it snowed today, a little
I watch for your car.

the cold is death
but it rains like spring

so slow and torturous
while you don't drive by
you never come
but there are still children out there
girls in the rain-light
let out after dark.