I watched and counted the
few who went before me

after a while
I was just so fucking tired
of trying to keep my head above the water
and I
breathed
but it got harder

gasping for breath I
try to see
flood my vision
I reach the wall
the end
and turn around to go back

eyes stare
I hate them

I can't breathe
I fight
and my strength leaves me
I give up my spirit
you never understood.