~She that dare not grasp the Thorn should never crave the Rose.-Anne Bronte~

Many of us find out path's here online. Those who find the BDSM lifestyle feel that they have finally found that part of themselves that's been missing, hidden and unexplained for so long. we all start somewhere, maybe online.. found it in the chat room, 
Maybe you met a Dom or a sub that did things to you that turned you on and he or she led you into this.. maybe it happened along time ago.
Maybe your like me.. you've been this way all your life, searching, reaching, never finding until now, embrace it, and welcome to it. 

I started on ICQ and VP Chat over 3 years ago, I chatted with many and became RT friends with a few submissives and one vanilla guy in person and still keep in contact with them. 
For 4 months of reading all i could get my hands on, I found a trusted online mentor, and together he and I began to make aware and build all the things that had kept me from being me. All my fears and doubts, insecurities and misconceptions. 
online i began learning how to tell the difference between a Dominant and a guy looking for someone to satisfy his kinky sex needs. 
But what was most important was i learned about me, the difference between needs and wants and desires.. I also learned with time that needs change.. as well as limits. 
my mentor decided it was time for me to go out into the real world and see what it is like. I sought for weeks trying to find someone that was in the lifestyle or a group in my area. it was very scarce here. and thru a chat room on AOL i found the Chicago community. 

Soon after I found a protector to guide me during my visit and after a 4 hours drive there to the munch I was warmly welcomed. She introduced me to all that she knew while whispering in my ear little hints of what to do and what not to do as we went along. 
She and I went with a Dominant friend of hers down thru the hotel and into an elevator... he pushed a button and off we went.. he told her to pull her skirt up and proceeded to spank her bare butt right in the elevator.. i wasn't shocked to see such actions.. but the adrenalin that was rushing thru my veins from the fear of getting caught was exciting. 
After the munch we went to one of the public dungeons, i really felt out of place in just blue jeans and sweater, everyone was dressed in very sexy and provocative clothing, some wore barely nothing. You cannot imagine how different it is to see so much variety in scenes and how amazing it is to see. It was nothing like i had read online. It was more. 
I traveled up there from spring into fall. 
I got weary from traveling and decided to try and form a group down here.. That was when i met a submissive in the area. she came into the room my mentor and I was chatting in on aol. Soon we were all discussing forming this group.. she knew about an egroups list and formed the central IL BDSM group. I also found the small group in Springfield.. I now belong to this group and are last meeting was 41 and growing strong. 

The reason I wrote this is because i have came back to VP after three years and cannot believe the people who are still here after all these years, and have still not went real time and so many others that have not yet experienced the lifestyle for themselves, and so many that have been here for months and years and have never done this real time. Dominants who have yet to hear the cry of his submissive when she feels the sting of his hand on her naked bottom, and submissive' that have not yet felt the true sacrifice of giving more than she ever felt she could bare, and the strength she gained from it, then seeing the approval and proud look in his eyes when she discovers she can do anything, with his guiding hand. 
There are Groups in your area. Get out there. There is a whole new world out there. if you don't know of any then look at the website below for one in your area or make one. Only you can determine your destiny, if you love it so much but still yearning to experience it. Make it happen.
Insatiable

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