| Pencils A dark smudge is the only remain Of words spelling hate and scorn. On paper, Pencils have erasers. But in the mind, Words are eternal. Take care in what is written, For eyes are unprotected Windows to the barren world. It is only a fortress in the mind, That stands to protect innocence, And it is only words That pierces a weak barricade. | quotes |
| In my mind I close my eyes to the rustling water, To hear the pounding surf Thousands of miles away. To feel the warm summer sun, In the midst of a cold winter night. Mud between my toes, Brings frustration, yet laughter. And washing memories through my mind Of hiking tall mountains, And swimming in the deep blue sea. What does it feel like to fly? I hold my breath and let the wind carry me Down cliffs and through trees To see what the birds see, The freedom and high of pure life. Turn, turn! Here it comes! I paddle as my board rises with the wave. Feeling the wind blow and the water spit in my face. The wave drops and I shoot out of the barrel. Standing truly in God's Hands. Nature is everything, From the sunlight to the ocean And means something different to everyone. But my nature is in my mind's eye, So that wherever I am, I can close my eyes to my own nature. | Without you Laughter fades Into the echoing halls That were once our childhood. It took giggles and secrets To break into tears and lies To make me. Your words puncture my heart As my youth drips on the floor. Red with life You spit vile thoughts And evil actions Into the innocent river. Walls around me Show rainbows and birds. No clouds block the sunlight. But inside is me, Standing in a puddle of red, Holding walls up with fake smiles. No bulldozers smash the fort. Only gentle words and kind thoughts Abolish a hardened façade. My heart weighs heavy with hate, But time lightens the load To let my eyes open again. Years have passed, And I still haven't forgiven you. I don't miss you now, But I miss who you use to be. That person made me who I am, But that person never learned to let me go. As your eyes peer into my heart, Realize that I never left you behind. A slap in the face and a dirty word Was all it took To show me that I don't need you And to turn me against you. The deepest wells of my heart Couldn't hold our friendship. Neither could they help me find What I needed to set my walls Between us, And to make my best friend an enemy. Hateful words and avoiding eyes Are the debris from the war. But I stand on the hill With my healing heart Because it has learned, That I'm better off without you. |
| Innocence of roses A young bud Roots from the fertilizer Of maledictions and ignominy, To be a silk rose Bright red and vibrant. A bud of twelve years, Too young to shed tears For the pathetic state of life. Too young to experience the sins of the world, Of sex and backstabbing friends. But innocence is no thorn To protect a sweet rose. Curses ring along with laughter, And hemp along with the summer sun To murder the essence of youth. To repeat the cycle is a part of life. Each grows from the scorn of generations, Only to return in scorn. But the bud of youth is no longer safe For sin poisons its rain. | quotes |
| quotes | Dream Friend Sometimes I can still hear Our innocent laughter. I can still see All those sweet smiles. I can still feel the ground move under me As we played our childish games. But it wasn't always this way, Stepping into a new world As I stepped on the bus that morning. In a new school, I needed new friends. I thought I was so lucky to find one On my first day of school. Our eyes met across the isle on the bus. I was afraid and nervous, But you weren't. When I caught a glimpse of your smile that morning, I knew I had found the perfect friend. We've spent every free moment together, You and I. I thought it was too good to be true, You were everything I've ever wanted. You were my dream friend, My perfect companion. Why do dark clouds Cast over your eyes now? Could it be open wounds That you never let heal? Some things in life you just need to let go. If only you had told me What was bothering you. Maybe I could help you. But you prefer to keep pain locked away. Don't you trust me anymore? Now your scorn Hurts me too much. You and me, Me and you. Best friends forever, Or at least I thought so. Today I'm your best friend, But tomorrow it'll be Someone else. Then they'll make you mad, And it's someone new. Who's next? After spending four years together, Why don't I know you anymore? Where's that girl I met, On that lonely day in seventh grade? She had such a big smile, And kind words to match. Or maybe I'm the mistaken one, The friend I've had since seventh grade, My kind hearted friend, Was just a dream. Now I'm taking my own advice And I'm letting you go. It's so painful to have to do this, But I'll always remember The days of my dream friend. |