“Tribute to Rhea Leinor”

The things left unspoken

For the hearts that are broken

Judge not what you see

But only by what you feel

Memories of a friend

Are kept in my heart till the end

The source of joy and laughter

Now lies there, forever

Trials for a lost classmate

We never knew such fate

Her life is uneasy

But she was such so carefree

The honor she left of me being a friend

Will be remembered till my end

To her I give my thanks and gratitude

Even with her such attitude

But hey! This is her life

We only see her strife

She has a lot of ambitions

But never thought she never finished her mission

Can’t believe this could be happening

To her in such a tragic thing

We too are puzzled with our own fate

Never knew our time and date

We’ll see each other when we get there

But then we should too, here

Till our fate has closed the door

We will meet again Rhea Leinor

Rhea Leinor “Fugee” Japsay Fajutrao

February 26, 1984 – November 2, 1999

CPUDHS SSC-NEWTON BATCH 2000

“ Drain Paranoid “

Life is bliss

When we find things to be sweeter than a kiss

Yet all is filled with bitterness

For we are too ignorant of all of these

Not all may live in a rainbow

Nor be dismayed in the dark

But then things are like that

Even from the start

Smiles of foul corruption

Dwindle all around

Betrayal a perception

Affection not found

Lame, as it seems

Yet it is true

My mind is about to scream

When fate laid out the clue

Stagnant little dope

Crack that pot to me

For we have no hope

Pathetic as we can be

“An Elegy for my Soul’

Silently reserved

to the dusts that blows

Haunted by the echoes

from the pain of my soul

I am wrapped in darkness

entrapped by my own grief

Lost in the reality

of corrupted beliefs

Betrayed in life’s agony

alone I weep

To kiss such bitterness

as I fell to my sleep

I wait in vain

for salvation doomed not come

I stare at the billowing shadows

of the demons that hide my sun

I have heard enough lies

to my heart’s content

In solitude, I want to die

to free me from this everlasting burden

What right do you have to ask

the existence of my pathetic soul?

Overwhelmed by your curses

Slowly memory swallows me whole

I’ll rather choose death

than to join tainted existence

In the reality of hypocrites

I beg to die a victim

“Fifteen Past Three”

Fifteen past three

I stare on an empty room

I wait in vain for company

As the dark sky gloomed

A cup of coffee by my side

My guitar as my guide

I lament by my window

Staring as the days go by

Fifteen past three

I walked the streets alone

An empty street so it seemed

I wandered from dusk till dawn

The night sky seemed to be so cruel

As it engulfs me whole

The demons grinned at me

As my soul turns from white to foul

Fifteen past three

Slowly I lay to rest

I scamper towards my tiny corner

With a black heart beating in my chest

Confined my soul to the coffin

I float my misery to dust

As angels mourn my worthless being

Immaculate grace turns to rust

“Sickness “

Alone and isolated

Contented to my little corner

All that is left is hatred

A life without honor

Dressed to confine my soul

To this endless darkness

No light in this miserable hole

Which drives one on the brink of madness

Tears are like endless smoke

My blood to quench the fire

I have reached the end of my rope

Yet I haven’t figured why

Souls scream in pain

In this twisted dungeon

Hope lies dead and slain

By one among you

The world is a disease

A virus that devours all

Bringer of all these

The sick and weak now fall

“Mindless “

I gasp for air

Can’t stand this stench

That is found everywhere

Savor the taste of civilization

The wicked discrimination

And I’m drench by my own thirst

Ghouls hidden in this mind

Roam the corners of my time

Horror to please thyself

Echo these dying pleas

Save my wretched soul

Yet I know you cannot

Pathetic and mindless

This hell we call world

All are helpless

“Doomed”

When you looked inside me, what did you see?

My soul of sin, black as can be

Now in the grounds filled of tears

My soul weeps in pain and fear

It was once filled with anger

Once filled with my rage

And once I always hunger

And death is what I craved

Then out of hell came my master

Out of the fiery fields

Sold my soul to him

But never knew if the deal was clear

Alas! my poor soul

And what have I done with it

Now, not worth any gold

Into the gruesome hell it lit

Now I screamed for pain

As hell’s fire eat me whole

But this is what I gained

For selling my mortal soul

The blazing eyes of my foul master

From distance I see

Echoes of his sick laughter

Silenced my every plea

And now everything became clear

That I shall suffer eternally

And I can never leave here

This is my prison for eternity

“ Seraph “

What I am, I know not

For I’m a mere dust

A speck in this reality

Who will notice me?

Life has been meaningless

Don’t care for no other soul

All things are useless

And I can’t stand it no more

Then a sweet voice came calling

Calling out my name

To an angel my heart was falling,

Who pulled me out of shame

Her hair was long and black

As dark as the twilight

Her eyes were as bright as sapphires

Her beauty was beyond your sight

She wrapped her arms around me

And I lay on her lap

Then life was a sight to see

And there was no turning back

But yet life has betrayed me

For I have lost my angel

She is now a mere specter

A forgotten memory

I cursed the sun

Hid myself in this darkness

Confined me into this misery

For I know that my angel is no more

” Eyeless ”

What shall I beg of thee,

For tears worth not one grain?

Bloody as I am

I lay in endless pain

Am I blest to curse

Such bitter grief?

Lifeless as I lay

I mourn for nothing

“Empty”

Alas, this is all that I have

Poetry without poems

Music without songs

A body without soul

Imprisoned in the chasm of death

My soul weeps eternally

For glory never to be found

Amidst all this mindless bliss

I shudder in fear of reality

Innocence lost forever

In  pillars of corrupted grace

Stagnant as my black heart

Pain and hate circles the thunderstorms of my head

As if my body is decapitated one at a time

Blinded by my hypocrisy

Morality is unheard of

A pathway leading to nowhere

Vulgar as the tainted sun

Bloody hands of eternal slumber

Embrace the living and the dead

Come share the festivities

Honor a life of apathy

Emptiness of the soul

A feast to behold

“ Memoir of a Friend “

Farewell to a fallen comrade

Life’s too brief for us

Knowing you has made me glad

And all the fun that was

Have known you for a short time

Shared with you all my sorrows

Our laughter is worth more than dime

Wished that it would last for tomorrow

I’m glad that I’ve stumbled on you

God knows it was worth it

But now that I have lost you

I wish you should have stayed a little bit

Memories are all I have

A teardrop for each one

Well, not all of it is sad

Because we had so much fun

Having a friend like you

Is what I won’t regret

A sweet voice for every blue

A smile for the fires we lit

Losing you is so unfair

But then life is so cruel

Now, to the stars I stare

Your memory as my fuel

Now when the sky is clear

With the sun’s bright glare

I’ll face life with no fear

Because I know you are there

Ezykiel “Ezy Bone” Yba

28 February 1983 - 25 November 2001

CPUDHS BATCH 2000

“Criminal”

I was born on the dirt

I grew with mud in my shirt

I was never a god

This life is the only thing I’ve had

I lived a life filled with pain

I shed tears like the rain

Nothing is what I gain

When everybody pushed me down the drain

I think I’m better off dead

Cause I don’t even know where I’m headed

I spent my whole life in the gutter

The best thing I could do is to suffer

I never knew anyone

The parents that gave life to me are now gone

I grew up taught to fool people

I was young when I became a criminal

They all placed me in a cage

because of my pain and my rage

These now are all my will

It is my thrill to kill

All these because of them

They never held a reaching hand

No one will know who I am

And no one will understand

“Drain “

Drain the blood out of my body

Drain my soul filled of misery

Drain the essence of this worthless life

Drain the meaning of human strife

Drain the energy of this mortal soul

Drain everything in me, swallow me whole

“Vampire”

Our lives are in chaos

Friends are what make us

Think of things so far

That it may make you wish on a star

Consequences of fame

Life’s energy is what was drained

Sometimes thought of it

Considered everything already shit

Fucked up like everybody

Felt like nobody

If you would want to look at the sky

It may make you feel that you could fly

Bored of things done day by day

Felt like you’d wish to fade away

To a world of nothing

Where nobody sings

Until this smoke in my head

Will be gone till I’m dead

Judgments of a freak

Answers are what we seek

Stuck in this world as a dead duck

Don’t even know if my life sucks

Hell knows what will happen someday

My words cannot express what am I trying to say

Felt like I’m really confused

Felt like I’m being used

My heart is cold and dry

Cannot even make myself cry

Cannot even interpret my senses

My body is always been so restless

Nobody could say how to live my life

Nobody could even hear my strife

What’s the use of my brain?

If things on this world would drive you insane

Tried to hide it to things like drugs

Lived a life as an outlaw and a thug

Death is what’s in my mind

But I cannot even predict my time

I already considered myself stupid

Cause my brain is so very rigid

Everybody thinks things are cool

But you’ll never know till you know that you’re a fool

Nobody understood what I said and what have I done

They always considered everything for fun

You are always welcome to my reality

We are no immortals to live eternally

I am considered with the living dead

I’m dead to the world and in my head

“Darkside”

Take this grin away from my face

For it shall swallow me whole

It will render me lifeless

And imprison my very soul

Keep this demon away

For it craved for my spirit

It shall take my humanity

And what was left of it

Control me from my self

For I shall have no clue

Chain me if you can

For I don’t want to hurt you

For once this thing comes out of me

Of it I have no control

It will leave a trail of pain and destruction

And I shall vanquish every soul

“Psycho“

Fuck this world

Cause I don’t give a shit

Fuck em’ all

Die you sons of bitches

Come to my dark twisted world

And suffer the dignity of my sanity

Burn my pathetic soul

And destroy my reality

Look for me in this pit of darkness

And take this grin away from me

Share with me this my twisted madness

Take part in this foul deed

Echoes of my screams

Surrounds this old deserted room

Metal bars in those windows

Cannot hide this insanity

Your blood spills on the floor

As your world turned to black

This knife in my hand

A witness to this unholy act

I laugh to all of you

But my mind is filled with lamentations

Anger clouds my judgments

But sense cannot tell me what to do

Now all alone

In this creepy corner

Chains rattle my pathetic soul

I’m a prisoner of my own self

“Mindripper”

Screams fill my mind

Echoes stir my soul

Stuck in the portals of time

Everything seems to swallow me whole

Now you ask me of my vanity

I guess this is my insanity

Seeing things in my mind

Everything just drives me insane

My mind is in the brink of explosion

As pain fills my head

My blood boils like water

For none can calm my rage

Keep on hearing things on my mind

And I have no clue

Visions distract me from reality

Can’t figure out which is true

All I feel is this pain

Are like nails in my head

Feeling like it would crack

And leaving me dead

Help me I beg you

Don’t leave me like this

I’ll die in this worthless world

I shall cease to exist

Don’t you dare follow me

Don’t try to be like this

I don’t want you to suffer like me

Feel the consequences of what I did

“ Outcast “

Why do you stare at me?

Like cause I’m different from the rest

Your eyes seemed to eat me

And leave me into nothingness

Please keep away from me

My company is not worth this

I’m not worthy to be with thee

The reason I am doing this

I’m a reject of this reality

An outcast of this world

I’m alone in my reality

My emotions are pale and cold

All alone I wander in my own world

Caring for no other soul

Confined myself to my own hole

A reject, on my own

“ Darkness ”

I am the dark

A creature of the night

I exist in shadows

I despise the light

Blood is my life

My body, my soul

A curse given to me

And this, my immortal role

Sweet little tears

Drenched by your own blood

The cradle of fear

I beg to kill no more

I beg to die again

That I may curse no more

To end it all completely

The source of my lamentations

Yet it has betrayed me

Cause I can’t end it all

I shall for eternity

Vanquish every mortal soul