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Tara Elizabeth Jaworsky
May 29, 1994 - May 24, 1999

Tara passed away on May 24, 1999 from acute lymphotic leukemia, only 5 days before her fifth birthday.
She got diagnosed with this disease in the late summer/early fall of 1998.

Tara fought for her
life, and even though she didn't necessarily win
in my eyes, I hope she is somewhere that is better.
We weren't raised religious, but with every breath in
my body, I hope Tara's spirit lives on.

Tara outshined us all. She was beautiful and had an
outstanding charisma to match. She had this sweet little heart, she only cared about others.

With 14 children, it was hard for all of us to get attention.
So in part, the oldest of us had to lend a hand in
to help raise the younger. Tammie, being as she is the oldest, had the biggest part in raising us.
But after she left it continued on with my sister Tracey and me.
Then Tracey left, and the boys were already gone.
Tina was just a teenager, so I filled the position.
I know that Tara wasn't my child, but she was the closest thing I had to one.

Once, when I was home sick from school when Tara
was about 3, I was laying on the couch. I felt
just awful. Tara came up and sat on the couch next
to me. She looked at me and her little eyes filled with
tears. She asked if I was dying. I couldn't calm
her down for anything. I kept reassuring her that I was ok,
it was just a cold. But Tara was frightened beyond belief.

I have been remembering that time with her a lot since
I've been working on this page. Of how she took care
of all of her brothers and sisters when they didn't feel
good. Everytime one of us was sick, we would wake
up to her curled up on a blanket on the floor next to
our beds. In the middle of the night Tara would come in
to check on us. The poor child was so worried she couldn't
sleep! It always amazed me at how kind she was. It still
does. If only the world knew what they were missing. Tara
was a rare diamond in the rough. She was an angel before
she ever left us.

And with these last words, I just have to say,
please don't ever take anything for granted.

I knew how special Tara was when she was alive,
but I wish I told her. I wish I could hold her once more.
I wish I could smell her sweet scent when I hugged her.
I wish these things so much I ache. I guess this
is what grieving is.
All My Love, Tara's Sister

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This is the letter my mom wrote for Tara.
My mother was looking at the
page (October 25, 1999) and wanted
me to put this up for Tara

Dearest Tara,

Hi baby, it's mommy.
Oh how I miss you.
It has only been a matter of days, I think,
since you left us.
But it seems like eternity.
The triplets are downstairs.
I can hear them laughing.

I wonder if they know what has happened.
Your daddy just scolded them for being so loud.
He misses you too baby.
I haven't slept since you left.
I don't think he knows that though.
He doesn't think I can hear him when he cries.
It is late at night, but I can
hear him in the bathroom.
Your sisters have been walking around in a daze.

Everyone has.
Our little sunshine is gone.
Tammie keeps looking at her children with fear.
It is one thing to lose a sister, but when
it is your own child, well you are losing your heart.

I have to be strong for all of your brothers and sisters,
but for the life of me I don't know how.
All I can think of, is that you are gone.
That my baby, my angel, my joy, is gone.
I wonder if the baby I am carrying now will look like you.
I wonder if you can see this.
I hope you know how
much I love you.

When I was holding you in my arms for
the last time, I swear I could hear the earth shattering.
Tara, I love you and I hope I see you again.

Love always and forever,
Mommy

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