Thursday, June 7, 2001

Ahhh. I'm depressed, angry, in shock, and so many more things. This is not a good day. It's one of those days that you want to shut yourself away, so all of the bad things will pass you by. It's weird, I mean, for a few minutes, I'll be really depressed and sad, and then after those minutes are up, I go straight to being really mad and angry. The thing is, I want to talk about it, but then I don't want to talk about it. I guess I'm going to have to get it all out sometime. Let's just hope that I get it out when I should be getting it out. Although I have been known before to take it out on someone that has nothing to do with the problem. (I was mad just then, and now I'm all depressed. See what I mean?) I wish I could just type everything right here and maybe get some counseling from friends, but for some reason, it's not that easy. I wish it was, I really do. (Getting mad...) I better just stop talking about that. What did I do all day? I worked on the graphic for the new layout for a very long time, only to find out that it looked really bad. So I have to scratch that, and start all over again. (Another bad thing... *Forces smile*) I'm planning on going to Warsaw tomorrow, although I'll probably help my sister and then cut myself off from everyone. The bulk, well actually, the whole problem has to do with that. That's supposed to be general, because I don't want to name names. (OK, getting very mad!) I hate when people assume things. If I ever get mad, now that I think about it, it's usually because someone assumed something about me or my views. Assumptions suck, especially when they aren't true. I'll have to write an essay on that. Hmmm... maybe I will. Driver's Ed still sucks. The chapter tonight is pretty long, but I'm planning on reading it later. Well, my mood continues to twist and turn as I get very depressed. Kind of like "The long and winding road." That's a good song. I love that song. Well, I really should stop myself from typing, this is getting insanely pointless.
posted at 4:59 PM

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