Title: You Lied
Author: Atarashii (kitsune_atarashii@hotmail.com)
Rating: PG; Angst, Tragic, POV
Pairing: 3+4 (implied)

Disclaimer: Gundamwing Characters aren't mine.

Warning: ...

Rambling: This is written in the POV of Trowa. Um...I really needed to get this out of my system, as a little break from all my other fics. Enjoy, anyways?


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You Lied (One-Shot)

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The blade of the knife reflects the wan, artificial light of the room as I hold it up. A spark of excitement runs through my veins as what I'm about to do connects fully. Yes, I admit that I've never really considered suicide as an option to end one's troubles.

That is, until I met you. Until you told me that fateful day that you loved me. It was then that I realise that perhaps the times I've heard ones in love sacrificing their lives when they've lost their 'other half' not so ridiculous after all.

I told you one day, a few months later that I couldn't live without you. That if you were to die, that I would take my own life to join you once more. You just laughed, that smile of yours lighting up your face as you replied:

'Don't worry; I'll never leave you alone.'

Ironic, isn't it? How, just a few days later the shuttle you chanced to be on crashed. There were no survivors. At first I tried to deny it, telling myself that you would never break a promise you made to me.

It's been three months and a fortnight since I finally accepted the truth. You're gone, and there's nothing I can do to change that grim fact.

I remember that same day you made that promise, you made me make a promise as well. That even if you were to die, I would keep living. I honestly tried to keep going even after your death. Tried to continue on with my life.

Yet I can't keep on trying anymore. It's true that without you here, I have no will to live.

Bitter tears slip down my cheeks, and roughly I brush them aside. I will continue on with this whim. It's high time I did. There's nothing here for me, although I tried to search for a reason to live.

Soon it'll be all over, and I'll be with you again.

Shakenly, I bring the knife down, not even flinching as the cool blade slices through the skin on my wrist, through the arteries.

Crimson spills to the tiled floor.

I watch, transfixed, even as I feel the strength ebbing from my being. Everything spiraling downward towards darkness, I remember everything about you.

Eyes the color of the sky.

Hair as golden as sunshine.

Undying love and trust.

Even as I finally fall to the ground, I whisper the words I wanted so desperately to say to you; even after you were gone.

A finality.

"You lied."


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O_O; Eheheheh...^_~ Told you there was angst!! Er....*ducks behind safety of a stone wall* If it was a little strange, I'm sorry! I hope you still liked. Just...er...nevermind. -_-;; Um...any death threats or commentary can be sent on over to kitsune_atarashii@hotmail.com.

And...I'm in no way promoting suicide...just so you know. o_o