COMPLEX

I knew what you were up to And I knew that there was nothing I could do But sit and let you do it I'm sick of all that teasing shit You make me feel so big and yet so small You make my emotions rise and fall The complexity of it all drives me insane You've caused so much excruciating pain Only yesterday I felt so special because of you Now I have lost the feeling and I think you too I never really had you for myself But I know I should have you to myself I don't know if I can handle you Doing all the crazy things you do There must be something that I can do To help myself to have you I try to be nice, I try to be funny But you will never be my honey I don't know why I try When all you do is pass me by I think about you all the time But you treat me with the respect of a dime You've got a beautiful smile But you elude me with such guile I want to hold you in my arms Instead you set off all alarms Doing all the things you do When I don't have you I worry about you More than I ought to Injuries and flirtation worry me But it's something that you never see You all point and laugh at me At least that's what I see When I turn away I hear all the things you say I fear what your lifestyle will do to you With this life, you may never make it through I'd live and die all over again And you'd still be a perfect ten In my eyes Through all the lies I still care about you deeply But you still deny me the key To your ways and your feelings I'm unaware of all the things You do outside of this place But I'd like to be with you, see your face You're so proud, so sure But at times so unpure It's all for fun But it's just like pointing a gun At yourself and pulling the trigger But not all blame lies on your finger You planned it out and ignored the results Over the edge it catapults No return to the glory of younger days Those times that you happen to amaze Everything I feel for you My dream will probably never come true Because I'm not your type Just what is your type I wish I was, but know I'm not But I wish I was, so much, a lot