SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

My self-control is rapidly deteriorating Fading from background to foreground They say I have no drive That I'm so apathetic I have more than they know But they keep pissing me off So I just piss it away

I don't want to hear your bullshit anymore I've been beaten so badly by your words These scars may never heal in time For me to accomplish one little fucking thing

They blame me for everything When part of the blame lies in them But they're too stuck to see it for themselves They don't help me one bit And now they want to ship me away Drop my helpless life on someone else Throw away their problems with me

I don't want to hear your bullshit anymore I've been beaten so bady by your words The scars may never heal in time For me to accomplish one little fucking thing

Broken in half by your assumptions One half hates beyond belief The other just despises And they both want to destroy you Because you think I'm not worth the time That you think you've put in to waste me The time you put in

I don't want to hear your bullshit anymore I've been beaten so badly by your words These scars may never heal in time For me to accomplish one little fucking thing

Stress fracture of my mind Nothing keeps me in control You have to trust I have a grip Yet you don't know I've almost lost it So unaware of what's happening with me Would you be surprised if tomorrow I was gone Because tomorrow I wish I was gone

I don't want to hear your bullshit anymore I've been beaten so badly by your words These scars may never heal in time For me to accomplish one little fucking thing

Suicidal thoughts I can't carry through You don't see it I almost did it The only thing That keeps me here Isn't you Isn't anyone It's the book I write this down in But you don't know it exists I'm not balanced enough To let it go These suicidal thoughts Will go away But I still have them Don't push me Over the edge With your shit Or the thought Will become the deed