Ms. Not-So-SingleSomeone once told me that when you love someone you should give as much as you can and never ever expect anything in return. I guess whoever wrote this, must have been in the clouds because when you give your all, your everything... you really long for that certain person to actually respond to your little act of bravery.
Friday Night was pretty much normal to me. I was at home and I was watching The Count of Monte Cristo with my Mom... When I get a message. I figured it was my friend, Tawny or someone, asking about the Geometry Project, when I see his name. Martin Baron. Not only was his name flashing before my eyes, but he actually sent me a message first! Ha, Maybe I'm not as agressive as I thought I was. Martin Writes: Hey, Can I tell you something?. I sent him back a message assuring him that he can tell me anything. Five Minutes, One Bar of Twix and a glass of Coke Light later, He tells me something. Something that was about to change me, something that was going to make my head spin, something that would give me a good enough reason to call up my friends and scream in their ears. Something was coming and I wasn't expecting it.
I think you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen!
At that moment, I smiled like crazy, butterflies suddenly attacked my stomach and my hands started to shake. I have never, ever been told that. Sure, I get the occassional You're tall and the very rare You're cute but, Most Beautiful? Wow, that sure was different. Not that I agree or anything, It was just so flattering, I had to smile like crazy even when The Count of Monte Cristo, Edmond Dantes, was wrongly accused and put into jail in the movie. My Mom notices my sudden change of mood too.
Now, the question was... What do I say back? I called out to God asking him for help but somehow, He was getting me even more confused. I said the safest, Most Stupid thing ever... really?
He Sends in: Yes, I really mean it. Wow, this time he really made me teary eyed. Not only that, but now... I missed him more than ever. We talk awhile and I had to call my friend, Abigail and I had to tell her about the great thing that has just happened to me. So, that's what I did.
I tell her what happened and she gets as excited for me than I am for myself. She tells me that I am really lucky and that if he has an older brother, give him to her! Abigail never fails to make me laugh. Then she asks me something, something that made my mind go... Oh My God
So Now, as I sit here in my computer chair, typing up whatever comes into my mind... I have to wonder:Does this mean we were more than friends?
Sunday came and that same question still haunted me. It felt like my existence here on earth was to find out the answer to this dreaded question. I had a choice: I could let that same question bother me forever or I could be a little bit braver than usual and ask him staright. For some reason, I wasn't too crazy of both Ideas. Although I realized that love is all about taking risks, I had this voice clinging to me inside my head which was telling me to be less agressive. Since when did my love life get complicated? Wait... Did I just say Love Life? Huh? Since when did I have a Love Life?
Just before my mind was about to explode, my niece, Ysabel, enters my room. She tells me in her usual calm voice, Auntie Nez, I want to watch a movie. I sigh in relief and thanked God for letting me get my mind off the subject for awhile. We both chose to watch the Moulin Rouge starring Nicole Kidman and Ewan Mcgregor. For once, she didn't want to watch Shrek or Treasure Planet for the ninety seventh time! The Movie Starts and somehow, Satine makes me not think of Martin for awhile. Ah, and The Love Scene begins. Christian and Satine on top of the Five Foot Elephant House singing the Elephant Love Medley
Love Lifts us up where we belong... Where Eagles rise on a mountain high.
Love makes us act like we were fools... We'll throw our lives away for one happy day
But We could be heroes just for one day.
I suddenly realized that this was something I really needed to know right now. Looking at Christian and Satine, made me want to know the answer even more! So, I did it. A safe-behind-the-counter approach and said: Hey, I know this might come out stupid but... I have to know, What are we? I mean, are we friends or more than that? With less hesitation than before, I sent him the message. My Heart starts to race, My Toes were curling and my head was spinning. I tried to stay focused on the movie by singing along to the songs but all I could think about was what I thought Martin was going to say.
I pictured him saying... What are you thinking?? You think I would want to go out with you? That's Crazy!! or Okay, but just letting you know I have 5 girlfriends all over the world. or worse... He might not reply at all. Before I could come up with any more weird conclusions... My Phone rings telling me Martin Baron actually replied. Before I read it, I had to be concious of that moment. I had to promise myself not to be sad if he didn't want what I wanted. I made a solemn vow not to cry and not to let my mood bring down my studying in school. If worse comes to worst, I could be depressed the whole day but, just for today. Okay, no more hold-ups. I read the message.
I would want to be more than friends, if that's what you want too
My Mind went blank and I do not know exactly what to write even as I am speaking right now. I did manage to say six words which came out clearly in the form of a simple sentence Martin Baron is officially my boyfriend! And I had to add on: And I am now officially not-single Woohoo!!!
Besides my learning to be a braver person, I dropped down on my purple couch with matching flower smiley pillows and hug Ysabel. When I woke up this Morning, I was plain-jane Maria Inez Moro... A few hours later, I finally was, Maria Inez Moro, Girlfriend of London's sweetest guy. And Betcha-by-golly, was I proud of it.