Friday August 22, 6:57pm
Well, school has started, and it will be an interesting year. I am one of the twelve people who dropped AP lit. I figured I have more important things to do than worry about one lone class. Things have been pretty crazy, and I have no clue how this will end. I suppose some might sit back and wait for it to blow over, but I would rather face it and get it over with, and hopefully fare better than I had expected. I'm done writing for now, maybe tomorrow. Later!

Sunday August 17, 12:46am
rockpunkchick: so wait, which are you taking? SporkMaster0715: band. SporkMaster0715: are you kidding? SporkMaster0715: i cant quit band. I love Adam. I have a thousand times more respect for him now than I did before, and I never had any ill feelings towards him. It's people like him and Steve that make band fun. The people that make sacrifices because the band would fall apart otherwise are the greatest in the world. Any of us could have just been like "Oh, I'll just do all of the out of school stuff," but NO, these guys kick ass! I'm so glad I took band this year, even if I regretted it a couple of times in the summer when I was lazy and didn't want to get up for school. Seeing the dedication in our juniors and seniors is just inspiring. If it wasn't so late, I'd go practice. I still need to come up with a part for Jump in the Line. Sorry, was in the moment and felt the need to update. Hung out with Zack and Alice today, it was fun. Andy was elsewhere and D was chillin in New York, but we seemed to keep the party going, haha. It seems like I haven't hung out with everyone in a long time and that is sad, but no more sad thoughts for now. Seeing the dedication in Steve and Adam makes me realize we're gonna be awesome this year. Now it's time to go. I don't plan on updating later today, but I also didn't think I'd have anything to add right now, so we'll see what happens. Later!

Friday August 15, 10:41pm
Thanks to everyone who signed the guestbook about the layout, I appreciate it. I can't promise a light-hearted entry today, too many things are frustrating me, and they're probably all insignificant. Recent events (nothing in paticular, but this week in general) have made me wish I kept in contact with certain people more. Maybe one of these days I'll actually have to call him, like I keep telling myself I will. Tomorrow, I'll call him tomorrow- if someone reminds me early enough in the day too. I think part of me is looking forward to school just so I will have an excuse for not calling. Anyways, band camp wasn't too bad, even though I was already accused of senioritis by someone (sorry, I don't remember who.) Yeah well, I think it's time to stop this entry and do something else, like find scholarships or read Two Towers. Later.

Tuesday August 12, 3:30pm
Here it is, version number five! You can read all about it in the behind the scenes section. I'm much prouder of this one than of the last one, and this one means more to me too I think. Band camp was alright today. I'm sore from tubing yesterday with my family. Let's just say I don't have the best balance, haha. I think I'm going to go ahead and unveil this layout for you all to see now. Later.

Sunday August 10, 11:01pm
Is it painful to learn that it's me that is out of control? Don't you hate it when it feels like something should be wrong, but nothing is wrong? Grey area can be so annoying at times. Cause right now I don't feel happy and I don't feel sad. I don't feel like one or the other of those emotions should be in control. Today is one of those bland days. I miss the people I don't get to talk to that often. May I'll call them tomorrow. I figured I've updated other things, so I might as well update here. That is all.

Friday August 8, 7:05pm
U i vethed na i onnad. For those of you who don't speak elvish, it reads "This is not the end, it is the beginning." I am on such of LOTR kick rigtht now. I've been rereading fellowship, and I think I will finish it tonight. I had my senior pics today, they were alright. I wanna go out and do something, be "off with you on one of your adventures." Hehe, I told you it was bad, just wait til I start talking in a Scottish accent. I probably should start working on a layout, but I have no inspiration right now, besides lotr. I'm working on it in my head though. eventually something will come up, well gotta run. And remember, real men wear kilts! Later.

Tuesday August 5, 3:43pm
Something makes me carry on; It's difficult to understand; What I always wanna find. Summer is fading and it makes me sad. I'm having one of those days where I feeling really reflective, but I can't put anything effectively into words. I saw Pirates of the Caribbean yesterday with the Alices and Andy, and now I want to see American Wedding. I think I'm dwelling right now. It's probably because I've been waiting for 2 important letters to come, and they haven't come yet. That and my senoir pictures are Friday, and I don't think I'm ready for them. Oh well, my world is still going on. Just letting you all know I'm not dead. Later.

Wednesday July 30, 11:52am
I know what some of you are thinking. "It's 11:53am, why aren't you at school?" I'll tell you why, cause I'M DONE WITH GOVERNMENT!!! I'm so glad to be done with it, and I'm looking forward to doing more interesting things with my free time, like sleep, hang out with people late, and maybe do a new layout. That's right, I'm considering doing another new layout. My opinion of this one has changed, and I want to do a brand new one. My brain is comparable to a can of pop right now. It was rapidly being put under alot of pressure, then suddenly it was released. I guess guys could compare that to something else, if their mind was in the gutter (hehe). I'm trying to figure out someone's motives, and it's not the person you think! I guess you could consider it weighing my options as well. Tonight's the last week of summer league, and I really want to go crazy during it, I dunno why. I think it maybe because I want to "blow off stress." Sorry, I've been listening to that song by 311 called Creatures (For Awhile) alot. I think I'm gonna start listening to more of 311, cause I find their songs entertaining. I'm gonna have to take a nap so I will be hyper tonight. Or maybe I should take a shower since I had to mow a couple of lawns. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. I hope you enjoyed my long entry, cause I'm going now. I've put this off for far to long. Goodbye! (Sorry, trying to sound like Bilbo.)

Tuesday July 29, 9:28pm
I'm not used to it, you'd think I'd be by now. So yeah.... I should be studying right now, but I don't feel like it. Approximantely twelve hours until I'm done with Government. I am very glad I will be able to sleep in Thursday. I saw Dru and Andy for the first time in a really long time yesterday, it was nice just to be out of the house. Tomorrow is also the last day of bowling, so I may try and do something after that, I hope it's fun and alot of people can go. Now it's time to go study some more. Later.

Friday July 25, 9:10pm
I'm not sure how to begin this entry. I have 3 days of Gov left, and I will get to leave early on Wednesday, so I'm pretty excited. I think today is one of those days where I need to go crazy and steal a certain hat that resembles the fur of a cheetah. My cape and imatation "cheetah hat" won't suffice. Some things have been doing alot better recently, but others aren't. I'm frustrated with having to make all of the calls to do stuff with certain people, and when I finally get ahold of them, their busy doing stuff with other people and don't want to hang out. It's been around 2 weeks since I've seen any of them. Well, if these people think using the excuse that I have to get up early for school will be acceptable, I'm going to beat them severly. G'dday to you all.

Saturday July 19, 4:06pm
This week has been....disappointing, I think that's the best way to describe it. To summarize, my gov teacher is incompentant, I sucked a bowling, and alot of emotionally demanding stuff. I think I should stop trying to figure out everything for three reasons: One, to know how everything is done makes it lose it's magic, or will make everything seem fake; two, there is no guarantee you will know that the conclusion you come to is the actual correct thing; three, it takes away from the natural improvization that is life, which I really enjoy. I can't wait til people are back here, then I can actually have the problem of trying to balance school and summer. I'm going to the fair, I don't know when, but I'm going. Maybe I'll see you then, later.

Tuesday July 15, 4:26pm
I am so tired. I have this bad habit of not getting enough sleep, probably because I have to get up so early in the mornings. My brain is everywhere right now, least of all places is the classroom. The class is so boring, but midterms are Thursday, so that means I'm almost halfway done. I want to do something this week, I'm not really in the mood to just sit at home. Oh well, I have things to do and no energy to write here. Just letting you know I haven't died yet, haha. Later

Friday July 11, 4:38pm
Today has been crazy. I've come to the conclusion Government is a joke class. Everything gets dumbed down soo much, and he isn't going to limit extra credit. I have a flat out 100% right now, it's insane. My mom made my appointment for senoir pics, so I get to start getting ready for that. I guess you could call this week either intriguing or confusing, take your pick. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSE!!! I think I'm going to go now, cause I'm not really doing a good job of multi-tasking right now. Later.

Tuesday July 8, 8:21pm
I miss summer. I realize why certain people are tired alot. Government is alot of theory, and it sucks. I did the math, and for every one day I will spend in that school, I would have spent 5.1 class peroids with Mrs. Dorris. Sigh, now that I'm done being sad about that, I guess right now things are a mix between good and crazy. Hehe, a normal week in Tiffany's world, but it keeps it interesting. Well, I don't think I have anymore to add, but I do have some studying I should probably do. Later!

Thursday July 3, 8:36pm
We're staying put, last call for quitters. Sorry I didn't update sooner, I was in a really bad mood and I didn't want to have to explain it all. Let's just say this, though I haven't got an answer to the question yet, or even a chance to ask it, "I'm feeling much better now." Ha, anytime someone says that I'm reminded of the Sixth Sense and the girl that threw up. For once a good nights sleep did the job of making my problems easier. Now I guess I get to show leadership and plan the activites for tomorrow. Maybe Andy will call and try to find out what we're doing. Haha, that's wishful thinking if I've ever heard it. I hope you all have a hospital free Forth of July. Later!

Monday June 30, 7:19pm
I have less than a week of summer left. I start summer school next Monday, I have to take Government in Portage. It's insane how horrible it is to be a senoir with this master schedule, let alone want an honors diploma with it. But on a lighter note, I've been talking in my Scottish accent off and on within the past few minutes, it's really interesting. Thank you all for signing, keep it coming! Later.

Sunday June 29, 7:17pm
Time meant nothing, never would again. Yesterday was very hard emotionally. We went to D's dance thingy at VU and it was ok, but I had a short attention span. It was at 9am, so I didn't get a chance to eat breakfast before. I didn't end up trying to eat until sometime around 2:30pm at Nick's open house, so I ended up feeling rather sick. I'm sure some people will try and just pass it off as butterflies though, you can choose for yourself. Well, he knows, I hope things don't change because of it, but "come what may." Then we went to Brenna's and that was alright, but I really didn't know anyone. We ended up chilling at Alice F's for a while, which was alright, but I was kinda antsy to go on, so we left. Erica's open house was fun, we just messed with this jukebox in her basement and watch a little of Spaceballs. Then we had a cook out at D's house. It sucks that we're not gonna see her for a while, but her parents are talking about going to visit her one day. So after very sad goodbyes I went home and found out my cousin is going into basic training in August, and his open house is on the same day as Angela's, but they are at different times. What really sucks is the day we are gonna visit D, I'm gonna be going to open houses that I kinda have to go to, but oh well. I hope I can get this worked out. Later.

Friday June 27, 8:11pm
I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, I'll be alright when my hands get warm. Recently, I have been bouncing around between Dashboard Confessional and Linkin Park. Interesting combination huh? I've decided I'm going to be completely honest with someone, now I just have to worry about seeing him. Robot will probably be mad because I haven't done it already, but now I'm going to do because I want to, not because she is telling me too. I'm gonna miss her while she's gone, tomorrow is the last day I'm gonna see her til August, isn't it gonna suck? I have a question, why don't you goons ever sign the guestbook? HUH?! Haha, sorry I'm in a pretty decent mood. Monday I have to go into the school and get my schedule worked out. I have to find some way where I can take all the classes I need without possibly taking summer school (if that is even possible). Stupid idiots for not getting this figured out before school got out! Oh well, I hope tomorrow goes well. Later!

Wednesday June 25, 12:27am
I'm scared but I'm not coming down and I won't run for my life Why does life has to be so crazy? I feel like everyone's avoiding me. I need to just stop thinking about a certain situation. I tried to not, but it came up again and I'm just so confused by it all. I know certain people are sick of hearing about this situation and I think they have every right to be. I guess I just wish the entire thing would go away. I feel like I'm losing my friends. Besides Andy coming home from Italy, today sucked mentally. I hope it's my imagination and people aren't avoiding me, but I dunno. I hope it's just they way things are falling right now, cause I don't want to lose my friends. I really just need to sit down and figure out what my priorities are in life.

Friday June 20, 5:04pm
Life is really crazy. Yesterday while the Alices and I were hanging out, we were talking about our gradutaing class. It's so sad how divided we are, and how nothing really lasts. Our class is so decietful, it's really depressing. I wish there was no hate. It seems like half of the hate is caused by confusion, but I've decieded I'm going to try and stay out of it, for many people's sake. Life has been crazy recently, but I think I've been enjoying some of the time I've got to spend with people who aren't gonna be here the whole summer. I'm gonna go for now. Later!

Tuesday June 17, 2:06pm
I have such great friends. I miss Andy! Things really seem crazy without him. It seems like he, Alice and I are this triangle that keeps each other sane and levelheaded. I realized how much I respect D yesterday, and the thing I respect about her is what can sometimes get her into trouble. She is able to think on her feet and say what is needed to be said, without being afraid of hurting someone's feelings. Thank you Alice, for saying what I couldn't say yesterday, I think it's gonna be for the best with this whole crazy situation. Later.

Saturday June 14, 11:31pm
It's easier to run. Right now I feel as if a hopeless romantic were in a battle with a hardcore pessimist. Part of me is really hoping something great is gonna happen soon, but the other half (the half alot of you might have seen last night and earlier today) kinda wants to give up. I dunno, I think that pessimist is losing right now, cause I'm in a decent mood about everything, but then again I still don't think that it's not gonna happen. I'll find out soon enough I guess. I wish I could just find the answers I'm looking for. Sorry this entry is so vague. Later.

Tuesday June 10, 3:01pm
Well, thank you to everyone who signed my guestbook! Right now I've waiting for Alice so we can go job hunting (doesn't it suck?) and I'm trying to figure out the lyrics to "Here's to Love." I'm sad cause some of my friends (Andy & Kyle) are on their way to Italy now, I'll miss them! Things are kinda boring right now and I don't know what to say, so I'm just gonna leave for now. Later!

Saturday June 7, 6:20pm
A little shy, and sad of eye. Here is my new layout, I hope you like it. Well, since my last entry I've manage to hear about a concert and be denied the ability to go, but I guess that's life. Sign the guestbook and tell me what you think of this. I'm sorry not all of the changes are done right now, but I'm going to get some food with Ervie. Later!

Thursday June 5, 3:54pm
Well, I was working on a possible new layout, but someone wanted me to update (I hope your happy!). I got my liscence one year ago today, isn't that weird? I wanna celebrate by driving somewhere, maybe on a quest, who knows? Well, I'm just popping in saying my world is still going on and I'm working on a new layout possibly. Later!

Tuesday June 3, 1:30pm
School's out for summer!! Holy crap I'm a senior!! Woo Hoo!! Thanks to exemptions, I'm able to update this before school is even out! Today was pretty good. I got an A on my art final and after I left school, I went to Schoops with Nick. It was really alot of fun. I promise one of these days I'll get a new layout for you guys, but I dunno when. I'm pretty hyper right now, so I may kill some time doing something else before I go pick up Foster! Time to go change that junior to a senoir in that about me section! Later!!

Monday June 2, 8:14pm
Today is one of those days where I love the rain. All I feel like doing is sitting out on a porch with some people, watching the rain, and talking. Today was the last day of band, which was kinda sad. I've just been sitting around thinking about the old times and looking at pictures today. So much has happened this school year. It seems like I've made alot of character changes, I hope they're for the better. Tomorrow is the last day of school, this year went by really fast. Now I have to go looking for a job, doesn't it suck? It's weird how your feelings can change in the middle of an entry. I went from being in almost a philosophical mood to not wanting to think, but I guess that's life. I'm going to do something else now. Later.

Sunday June 1, 12:29am
Maybe someday you will learn to fly. My mind is going crazy I think. Yesterday was fun at the Pro Am, and afterwords the Alices, Andy and I went to the DQ in Hobart to visit Rosey. On the way back to D's house there was some awesome lightning. Today was boring cause I didn't really get to use the computer much, but I have some pics I can play around with now! I haven't got to do that in such a long time, I miss it a little I suppose. The Alices, Dru and I went to Brewski's and that was fun, then we played Euchre at D's house. This weekend seemed kinda pointless to me. I just want to get school overwith already. I'd probably appreciate it if I had finals I had to study for, but since I don't I really don't care. I have stuff on my mind, but I don't know how to react to it. I wish life was more clear cut, with less of these grey areas and less goons everywhere. If you don't understand the goon comment, please don't read into it, because my intention was not to offend anyone. If you would like me to explain, e-mail me or something and I may tell you. Well, I think it's time to finally end this entry. Later!

Tuesday May 27, 7:24pm
...and if you ask us to do anything, we'll just tell you: we don't do anything! Haha, I love Veggie Tales. This made me laugh too! The weekend was overall pretty good! People can be crazy, but it just makes me laugh. I'm in a pretty good mood b/c I just found out I don't have to be at school during the finals I'm exempt from! The other thing on my mind right now is I wish I got to hang out with people more often, but summer is starting next week, so that will all change! Willer!! Sorry, I just kinda felt like saying that. I want to all get together and go crazy once school gets out, either that or go to "Tibet" (you know where that is Alice!) Well, I should start studying now for finals, later!

Saturday May 24, 5:30pm
Overcoming these obstacles, is overcoming my fears. I'm convinced a certain person is a bitch. Don't worry odds are none of you know who it is. I'm so pissed cause she's treating my friend like shit, and he doesn't deserve it, not in the least! Since I don't want to broadcast this persons feelings for the world to read, I'm going to leave. I think I'm going to see Down With Love today, how fitting of a title. Later

Friday May 23, 10:25pm
The banquet was fun. I didn't with the Arion award, but I did win "Most Outstanding Junior," so I'm satisfied. The karaoke afterwords was a blast. I think I'm starting to drive people crazy with my constant mentionings of a certain person. If I am, I'm sorry. Geeze, my eyes won't stop watering. My mind is kinda everywhere right now, it really sucks. Tomorrow is the bowlathon, I hope I do well. I am about 20% done with my honors project that's due on Tuesday, so I have to hurry up and work on that. I dunno what we're doing tomorrow yet, but I hope it's gonna be fun. I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens. Time to get back the the honors project. Later!

Thursday May 22, 8:33pm
I'm excited about this weekend. The band banquet is tomorrow, and I really want to know who got the awards given to juniors (arion, most improved, most outstanding). I hope I win one of them. There's a chance I may get to hang out with Tribby this weekend, so that's gonna be really cool. There are some movies I really want to see this weekend if I have time: Down With Love, and Bruce Almighty! Well, I should be doing my English honors project, so I'd better be going! 3:- ) }~ hehe, long story, don't ask. Later!

Tuesday May 20, 7:33pm
My gift is my song and, this one's for you. I'm in a pretty good mood today, even thought I'm sick. Alice put some prom pics on her site; you should go see them! I'm so glad things are going well again, last week was crazy. It's nice to just relax a little bit, even though finals are coming up. I'm glad I'm don't have to worry about anything major this weekend, I just have to enjoy myself at the band banquet and get some money together for the bowlathon. Anyone care to sponsor me? Haha, couldn't resist sorry. I still am shocked at how good of a weekend I had, even if there were some minor problems with it (power going out right before I was about to wash all of the hairspray out of my hair). I can't stop smiling right now, this is the most genuinely happy I've felt in a long time, I hope it doesn't end! Summer league starts tomorrow, I'm excited! Later!

Sunday May 18, 8:20pm
Prom was awesome!!! I had such a great time with Tribby, he's a really good guy! That's all I can think of with the little brain power I have right now. My hair is in a big poof-ball right now, it looks pretty funny! Everyone looked so pretty, I'm glad I went with the group I did. I think this is the most fun I've had at a dance. I don't want to go back to school tomorrow, but I have to, oh well. I guess I'm going to go for now. Later

Tuesday May 13, 4:29pm
Well, this week has been crazy. I don't remember everything yesterday, except I had to play Pomp and Circumstance in band. I hate that song because it's so boring and so easy!! Today in band we didn't get a chance to play because we did elections for next year's band officers and most outstanding in each grade. I'm pretty excited because next year I will be band president. I guess you could say our group just got a major power boost, because Alice F is going to be NHS president next year. Well, I'm going to be leaving soon for a Band boosters meeting. Tomorrow we start the cadences, I'm excited! Later!

Sunday May 11, 10:00pm
I tried the two new flavors of Jones this weekend, and that was the only really good thing that happened this weekend. The plays went alright, tech was screwed up the first night, but all better by the second. The cast party was....interesting. There was a tornado watch for our area, but all we got was alot of lightning and some rain. However, there was a "storm" in Zack's house, but I'm not going to go into details about that. Prom's coming up soon, I hope it's gonna be fun. Later.

Tuesday May 6, 6:16pm
I'm pretty stressed about the plays. We really aren't ready, and Sgorous may start giving us practices from 6-10; so that's just going to add to it even more. I guess I have alot of stuff on my mind, especially yesterday about prom. I've decided I'm just going to sit back and have fun and not worry about the little things just yet. I think I just had an epiphany about who I am, but I'm not going to go into details. This is just basically letting you know my world is still going crazy, and crazier! I think I'll just have to enjoy the madness! Later!

Saturday May 3, 4:23pm
Yesterday was the concert. It was alight, I wish I we would have done better, but we could have done alot worse. Afterwords, the Alice's, Andy, and I saw X2, it wasn't too bad. There was this guy that was sitting behind us that kept making these funny comments such as "Eat your heart out Yoda" and "It's Pheonix time" and a bunch of other ones that only made sense to people who knew anything about the comics. I guess I have alot of stuff on my mind right now, but I can't put my finger on any of it. I hope we hang out today, because I just want to have fun doing something. I think I'm going to go get stuff ready to give David about prom. Later

Thrusday May 1, 4:54pm
Keep me from drowning again. Well, this is Thrusday of Hell Week #1 and I'm already about to snap. The more and more I think about it, the crazier May appears. Lately I've been freaking out about the plays more than the concert, I think I've already accepted defeat about that. I don't know why, but all of a sudden I've started really getting into the Linkin Park cd Meteora. I'm going to have to burn it off my brother because he too it back from me, again! Well, I have to go pick up my contacts and drop off a paper at Stardust, then I may go visit Jason at work, I haven't decided yet. Wish me luck at the concert tomorrow! Oh, and before I forget, Law Day convos suck and so did the Trig Star test!! Later!

Saturday April 26, @ 9:01pm
Well, today was my dad's b-day, and we went out to dinner with my Busia, but that's about all that happened with that. I worked on my painting, I think it's done (finally) and I updated the madness section. I also washed my car today, so now it's all clean. Lones, Andy, Nick, Amanda, and I went to see Linder's tennis match and then went to Hobart's talent show, where we ran into David. It was nice to see David, but I feel bad for the stress he's under right now. I'm not going to go into detail though. I think I can describe May as a "Hell Month" because this week will be bad for band, next week will be bad for the plays, and the week after will be mini-stress about prom. Yes, now it's prom season, I guess Hebron had theirs today. Well, if I keep thinking about that I'm gonna scream so I'm going to go. Sign the guestbook!! Later!

Tuesday April 22, @ 10:38pm
I seem to be online at night alot. I'm taking a quick break from studying to say hi, and I hope you all had a good half day!! I added a link showing the madness that is going to be the next few weeks for me, but that just makes life interesting. Well, gotta go, later!

Sunday April 20, @ 10:58pm
I have to make this a short entry because I have school tomorrow. For those of you who talked to be concerning the last entry, I feel alot better now, thank you; everyone had to be out of the loop Thursday. Saturday was awesome, YABA bowling ended on such a high note. I will miss hanging out with them, but not getting up early on Saturday mornings. Then I went bowling with Rose and Jason and some of his friends that evening, which was alright. I have to get some sleep now, but I hope you all had/will have in a week a good Easter!

Friday April 18, @ 5:10pm
I'm glad I had today off, I needed a day to sleep in. I don't know if I had allergies earlier this week or I was sick, but it really sucked. Play practice was cancelled for yesterday, so I tried to go to the bowling banquet, but the Lowell lady wouldn't let me in, oh well. I hung out with the Alices, and Dru at the mall a little later, then we met up with Andy. I think my moods of earlier this school year and last year are starting to come back. I totally felt out of the loop yesterday, like I my presence wasn't adding anything to the group. Everyone had to have their little conversations yesterday: A needed to talk to B about something, but couldn't for whatever reason. Then there was me just kinda there not doing much of anything, but managing to prevent most of the conversations from happening effectively. I dunno, I guess I just don't feel really close to my friend right now. What I mean is close enough to share a secret with that only I could know. I guess I just wish I felt more important to people. Most likely though, I did something wrong and I have no clue what it is and they are distancing themselves from me for whatever reason. Whatever the case, I'm sorry they feel they can't trust me for whatever reason. I hope I haven't taken up too much of your time.

Sunday April 13, @ 5:44pm
I'm going back to the start. This weekend was pretty interesting. We went to the mall of Friday and "met someone we did not expect." Alice F and I were walking up to the mall, and we ran into David and his friend Ashley, who were waiting for Rose and Jason to park. So when everyone finally showed up, we hung out a little bit. Then Linda called telling me that her and Nick were on the way. So we killed time waiting for them, but the mall closed so we had to leave, but not before David 'fell' into the Gap. When I say 'fell,' I mean Rose threw him in there and he went flying in 10 feet landing at the feet of a manakin. Then Rose and them went to BW3's and the Alices, Andy, and I waited for Nick and Linda. Then we went to Andy's house and had some fun. Yesterday I got my shoes, purse, and jewelry for prom; and saw Anger Management. That was a great movie, one of the funniest I'd seen in a long time, and it worked out because I was kinda frustrated about certain people not hanging out with because he wanted to hang out with his girlfriend. Haha, it could at least two different people I'm talking about. I think Ginger's getting lonely, so I'm going to go. I hope the people from Hobart have a good spring break. I'm going to play practice just about everyday this week, so I doubt I'll update much. Later!

Thursday April 10, @ 5:56pm
I've got a super good feeling about today. Today was pretty good. The eighth graders came today for the introduction thing and it was alot of fun. It was the last time I will probably play those old cadences, sigh. After our half day, I had to take Willer home and on the way we saw Erica so we followed her to her house and made her come with us to see this DBZ video game Willer and Jimmy showed us. The after everyone was dropped off Zack, Dru, Linda, the Alices and I went to Subway. I went looking for more stuff for prom, I can't find any jewelry that I like by myself, I need someone to go with me!! Oh well, I have to finish planning stuff for that so I'm going to go, later! Sign the guestbook!!

Sunday April 6, @ 2:04am
Today was awesome, even if it didn't start out well. The SATs were crazy, I never want to take them again. Our group was one of the last ones done because alot of dumb stuff happened. After that is when the fun began. The Alices, Linda and I went with this guy from Hobart named Nick to the mall, he was really cool. If you don't believe me think about this, would you go hang with a bunch of people you had only met once before, for about five minutes? We had so much fun just hanging out and getting to know him, I think we spent 2 hours at Denny's. Then we went to Alice's house and we just goofed around and stuff. Stupid time change, it should only be 1:14, instead of 2. Since my brain is kind of a puree right now, I am going to go. See you all later!

Tuesday April 1, @ 7:21pm
This week hasn't been to bad so far. I for some strange reason got the bright idea that I should play "Hey Pachucco" for the elementary preview thing, so now I get to spend the next few weeks learning that like crazy. We listened to Celtic Ritual today in band, and I've realized how gastly awful we sound now, and there are people to blame *cough*trumpets*cough.* I hope Alice gets her History maddness worked out soon!! I bowled out today for Saturday, (cause of SATs) and I kicked butt!! Speaking of bowling, I heard've that I may have to fight a couple of people for David. Who you ask? Russell and Kyle. Haha, in case you didn't know, they bowl at Stardust with us, and they think he's really cool, so I'm intrigued on what's going to happen next. Speaking of David, maybe I should call him today, I dunno, what do you think? Since no one is here to respond, I'll just go ahead and get started on the percussion maddness. Later.

Sunday March 30, @ 3:02pm
Spring Break is officially over. I would have to say it was pretty good, but I think I've realized some things. First, I should probably try to stop cussing all the time, especially around people that I don't see very often. Two: I can have a lot of fun with my bowling team, just being kegglers. Three: there are some people I don't think I'll ever understand, but I'll have more fun with them just trying to enjoy their company than figure out what makes a person work. Four: When using a fingertip bowling ball, be sure to firmly hold on to the ball with your thumb or your ball may get some airtime in the middle of the gutter. Five: I should try to expand my music even more and learn the lyrics to some songs. I think that is all for now of the lessons for now. I had a really good time at State Tournament yesterday, even though the team we were bowling against had my bowling enemy and a couple of other kids I don't like. Once our entire team got there, (because David was kinda late eating breakfast) we got our pictures taken. We wanted to put Robert in the middle because he's the shortest on the team and the rest of us are around the same height, but they wouldn't let us. I kicked butt the first game, my 154 beat both Rose (by 4 pins) and David (by 35 pins because he didn't bowl very well). So the second game David's goal was to beat me. In something like the 7th frame he was beating me by maybe 20 pins, but I told him I wouldn't give up without a fight. Sadly, for me, he ended up beating my 172 with more than 12 pins I think. The last game was horrible- I bowled a 114! I would have had a higher game, but I accidentally screwed up on a strike. I was throwing the ball and my thumb slipped out so the ball went right in the gutter and it popped out 3/4 of the way down, almost going into the lane next to me!! Then the next ball I screwed up again and got a gutter ball in the other lane, but oh well. My last Saturday evening of break was interesting as well, I hung out with Dru, the Alices, Andy, and Greg. We went to this coffee place, but D didn't like it b/c it was too quiet. Well, I'm gonna leave for now, maybe Jason will be on later and let me know how Singles and Doubles went today!

Friday March 28, @ 2:06pm
Where are you going? Can you take me with you? State Tournament is tomorrow, and I'm nervous. I have to bowl really good, or atleast the best I possibly can. I guess things are starting to come together- not just for prom. Spring Break is just about over, and I have to say it was pretty good. I spent probably two hours in front of a fire yesterday trying to get it started, it was really fun, even if I burned a little of my fingers (don't worry, they've stopped hurting by now, thanks to Alice's cold fingers!). I haven't made a fire in a long time and it gave me a chance to reflect and get my mind off of crazythings. I'm suddenly excited about prom, probably because all of us got our dresses, so now I'm gonna plan for us to go (with our dates of course) tie shopping, so we can get that over with, eventually, lol. I just found out today what that crazy flash was Wednesday night, A METEOR!!! I was driving on 2 when I saw it, that scared the shit out of me!! I supposed I'm gonna get yelled at or something for not finding out til now, but I've been out having fun with my friends, sorweee!!!! Well, I think now it's time to finish this entry, later!!

Tuesday March 25, @ 3:10pm
Today is a cool day, but only Alice D knows why. There are a list of things/people I need to kick in the shins: prom, Baby Tinkel, SATs, department stores with all the same prom dresses, prom, and I think that it. Yesterday the Alice's and I went prom dress shopping (dun, dun, dun!!). Then we went for a walk at Andy's that was pretty fun. I'm wondering if we are doing anything today, I'm not really sure if we will, but I hope so. Now that I'm done creating the illusion of frustration or anger, I'm going to go do something else. Oh, and I updated the shoutouts. Later.

Friday March 21, @ 5:06pm
SPRING BREAK!!!!! I'm soo glad that we are on break because there are a bunch of things I have to do! There wasn't much point to going to school today. I found out my "approximate" grade in Buck-- a B-!!!!! I've turned in all of my homework and gotten decent grades on every test! My guess is that she still hasn't got those stupid journals from Turn of the Screw (the first book we read in the class) graded, and she just has it as a 0 for everybody!!! Band sectionals were ok for me, but I still have to work on a couple of parts in Celtic Ritual (the c in celtic has a K sound!!!) so that's also on the list. I may be ok for Cisco, I pulled an 89.5% on the last test!! I think Alice-lones wants to make plan-es for today, so I must be going, later!!

Wednesday March 19, @ 6:22pm
I think I'm losing my mind, either that or freaking out people because of some of the stuff that's on my mind. I'm blaming part of it on the madness that is school. I swear it seemed like no one knew what day it was today. I am so ready for spring break, even though there is a bunch of stuff I want to get done in that time span. I either have a Cisco test tomorrow or Friday, I'm not sure which, so I'm gonna have to be studying for that sometime soon. I have to leave for play practice in about twenty five minutes, so maybe I should work on my lines a little bit, even though we are just gonna watch the Mouse that Roared. Let’s hope I can make it through the rest of the week without being recommended for an insane asylum.

Sunday March 16, @ 9:12pm
This weekend was awesome!!!!! I haven't had a weekend that good in a long time!! I'm soo excited about prom right now and it's not for almost two months!! I'm waiting to see if my date is gonna e-mail or call me, I hope so, but I can patiently wait. Ok, I lied, I'm sorry. I know I said I was going to change the layout of my site to reflect more on the plays and new activities, but now I just don't want to change it. This week is gonna be crazy, but I really don't care b/c I'm going to prom!!!!! Later!!!

Friday March 14, @ 9:33pm
There must be something more. Oh, I wish there was something more that was on my mind, but there is nothing else. My brain is going in a thousand directions, and I really need to focus it. Fate determined twice in two days, what are the odds of that? I found out my part for the plays, it's alot bigger that last springs, so I'm satisified. Well, I've updated alot of the countdowns, because life is gonna be chaotic, but that's ok. I must go now, later.

Saturday March 8, @ 11:41pm
Since I'm removing the counter about sectionals, I figured I'd better update. I don't have the will power to do much today, I just want to crawl into a dark hole and pretend today didn't happen. I sucked at bowling today a 391 series. I'd been bowling soo good all week!!! I feel so worthless and like a failure today, I hope it's temporary. Alice's new layout kicks but, which depresses me because I'll never be able to pull of that quailty of a layout, but the thing that's making me the most depressed today that hasn't yet been mentioned is prom. There, I updated.

Thursday March 6, @ 9:05pm
Speaking words of wisdom "let it be." I know I should let stuff be, but I don't want to, I'm in the mood to dwell on things. Asking day came and went for my group of friends, but not for me. Part of me is hopeful, but the other part keeps yelling at the hopeful part to not keep its hopes up, stupid realistic half... Alice F said something about maybe trying to help me find a date outside of the school, which I think would be awesome!! There aren't many guys from this school that I would want to go with anyways. Now to continue with this weeks obsession... the bowling coach from Hebron made me sooo mad to day!! I drift when I bowl, I've know that forever, and this guy decides that the best way for me to fix this is to move over to the right, line up with my left foot instead of my right, and find a new mark. Before you agree or disagree with him, here's the point I'm trying to make: Last Saturday for YABA I bowled a 408 series with a high game of 157; Tuesday I bowled a 140 and 139; bowling out yesterday I bowled a 155, 159, and 124 for a 438 series; today before he decided to help me I bowled a 155 (with 6 marks being either a strike or spare out of a possible 12) and another 155 (with 7 marks). After he "helped" me I bowled a 108. A 108!!! I only had about 3 marks in the entire game!! I bowled a few balls from his mark, and couldn't hit the head pin, so I decieded to just bowl a spare from my normal spot, and I almost picked it up! So I saved my game by bowling at my normal spot. I understand that the coaches want to help me bowl better, but why two days before sectionals?! They're basically saying "Here, this will make you walk straighter, but it's gonna take a while to find your mark," and killing my chance at going to regionals!! Now I am going to try and calm myself down. Maybe I should take a bath..... no, I'll just listen to some relaxing music and think about a certain foolish hobbit that is my hero.... Later.

Tuesday March 4, @ 9:23pm
In contrast to the "Viggo Mortensen message" below, I'm going to try and keep this one short. I was pretty consistent in the games today at practice, 140 139, and 109 in the 8^th frame of the last game. I think I may have a chance!! Today on Smallville, the Clark went to a bowling alley, I had to laugh at the timing. Now that I have addressed the subject of the week, I must address a new one, prom. The Alice's and I really want to go, and we all want to get the ball rolling in the right direction, but it's the process of doing it. The possible snow day tomorrow doesn't help things, but that's life. Changing gears again, I got a new cell phone number. If you had the old one, please get this one from me. I must go now, later!!

Saturday March 1, @ 10:54pm
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone, save me from the nothing I've become. Sorry I haven't updated in a while, life's been a little crazy. Progress reports came out, and I'm doing horrible in Cisco, it's ruining my gpa, which really pisses me off. Congrats to the guy bowling team for placing first in our conference. Today was the Baker Tournament, and it was alright. I had my normal Saturday bowling where I bowled a 408 series with a high game of 157; then David, Jason, Rose, and I went to the food court between the events. After the tournament, the four of us bowled against Shannon, her boyfriend Adam, Jessica B, and Adam's friend Kyle. The day was really weird b/c I guess yesterday before the pep band game I'd had too much caffiene and I never burned it off, so it sat in my stomach all night and I was really edgy today. I kept getting the feeling that my hands should be twitching, but they weren't. Then when I got home (after bowling about 7 games) my arms felt like I'd been working out, and I was weak. I think it's because I'm starting to get sick, but oh well. I may bowl about 7 games next Saturday again. If I don't bowl out for Saturday morning, I'll bowl about 4 games (3 normal games and something like 8 baker games). I don't know why I'm even considering it. I should bowl out, but for some reason I really want to be there, maybe b/c I want to find out stuff about the musical from David. I'm sure this seems weird and annoying pointless babble to you b/c you don't know these people, but I do and they are a big part of my bowling life. I think I'm gonna start working on a new layout after high school bowling is over, because that's probably gonna show that I have a change in stuff I'm doing -the plays!! I think some of that energy is finally burning itself, cause I really can't concentrate, but I seem to have a very long entry for being sidetracked, that happens alot though. I guess this entry has been a long enough one to make up for all of this time I've missed. Thank you if you're still reading this. Later!!

Monday February 17, @ 10:14am
I figured since I had time I should do a better update than I did yesterday. I watched the cast commentary for Fellowship of the Ring, it was soo funny!! I hung out at Alice's house yesterday, that was fun. I have a bowling match today that I don't really want to go to, but I have to go otherwise we'll lose indefinelty. I got my SAT scores, but I'm not going to post them and I'm not going to tell people them until I find out how good/bad I did. On a different note, Pat thinks I blame him for my negative journal entry. Well, in Alice F's guestbook, he said something about leaving his name, and I believe him. The language used (not necessarily profanity) isn't what makes sense coming from him. To summarize, I never thought it was Pat, and I'm sorry you have been dragged into this as a suspect.

Sunday February 16, @ 5:04pm
Well, this week has been interesting. I didn't bowl well this week and Alice and I both were addressed in a negative way in our guestbooks. I'm pretty sure of who it is, but I don't care because this person is entitled to their opinion and can think what they want. I saw Daredevil on Friday, and that was good. I must go for food now, later!

Monday February 10, @ 7:05pm
Sinking into sweet uncertanty I hate school, I hate winter, so the two are my perfect adversaries. Tomorrow is the multi-conference tournament, I'm getting excited!! My weekend was pretty good, I got to hang out with my friends. Asking day is 10 days away, and I ironically don't want it to come, partly because I don't want to be the only one who won't have a date then and partly because I'm not sure who I want to go with!! Stupid Billy Boyd!! Why do you have to live in London, you make me sad!!! Oh well, I'll go heal my heart over a pint. I have to teach for Pre-Calc tomorrow, and I don't want to. Oh well, what can I do about it now, let's just hope I can effectively teach it. Now it is time for me to press save and reread it in a Irish accent, mind yerselves!! (hehe, the world elves it in it!!)

Wednesday February 5, @ 8:34pm
They're theives, they stole it, my precious, and we wants it! I was sick all weekend, it really sucked, I had to miss Saturday morning bowling. I am in a minor rut right now, I can't do anything right. I'm doing ok in my classes, and I'm really gonna start struggling in Pre Calc. Now I wish I'd taken Stats instead of Cisco, but that somes up alot of my high school career, regrets. I've been rather bitchy lately, and I think it's because I find out my SAT scores on Friday; that or I could blame it on the upcoming Valentines Day. If any of my single friends want to go see Daredevil on that day, let me know. Oh, and sign the guestbook, it feels lonely. I must go try to understand the Pre Calc I have to teach now, later.

Friday January 31, @ 9:27pm
Cough cough. I hate being sick, it ruins everything. For some reason I kept hearing from people how awesome of a drummer I am. That's cool that they think that of me and all, but part of me wonders if I'm only considered this good b/c I'm a girl. Oh well. This week has been pretty stressful, and next will be just as bad. I have a new mission, I have to try the 2 new jones flavours, lemon drop and fruit punch. I'd better go to bed soon, so I can start to re-cooperate, later!

Monday January 28, @ 9:20pm
We are lost, we can never go home. . . I am kinda lost right now, thanks to Buck!! I hate that class!!! She always picks the worst books to read. This week hasn't been too bad, I guess. I went to Camelot (Lanes) yesterday and watched Rose, Robert, Jason, and David bowl for City Tournament. The Superbowl was boring, I didn't really like many of the commericals. The Sierra Mist commericials were ok, but I like the Osburne Pepsi Twist commercial the best. Tomorrow is a half day, woo!! I think I'm going to go get some grub with some friends tomorrow, that should be fun, and bowling again =D!! I went from bowling 6 days straight to having 3 days off, so I really was missing it by the time today came around. I must go now. Later!!

Friday January 24, @ 5:32pm
Well, I was gonna make this longer, but I have to be at the concert in a half hour. I was learning an Irish accent, but now I think I've lost it. Oh well, wish me luck at this concert. Mind yerself!!

Tuesday January 21, @ 6:53pm
I figured I should update since it's been awhile. I've bowled everyday for the past 4 days, and I'm bowling tomorrow and Wednesday. Sunday was a tournament at City Lanes, which was fun. School is being crazy, we have to make up schedules already for next year, and I have no clue what I want to take, oh well. Just thought I'd let you all in on what's going on in my life. Oh, and Happy Birthday Amanda!!

Friday January 17, @ 11:09am
Ha, Alice and I could have the same song playing when we updated, but that song is over now. Today was a snow day! Since all of the hobbits made food for their fiesta's (most likely at least), maybe we should have our own fiesta, lol. I guess I'm gonna have to get used to my schedule, yesterday wasn't that bad, but luck wasn't on my side and I sit in the middle of the Spanish room and Lela sits on a different side. It isn't gonna make the class horridly boring though, because I sit by Dan Denormandie, Toth and Zopler, so that class will be fun. Unfortunately, I don't understand the Pre Calc b/c I didn't take Stats, oh well, I'll get Alice or someone to help me. Bowling was interesting. Yesterday was Tiffany Howell's last day and we found out earlier in the day that it was Heather's last day to go to BG- she's trasferring to Hebron. Considering Hebron is in something like 4th place and we were in 6th, but thanks to her, we may be back to 7th, or maybe last. Our entire team is convinced she threw her game yesterday. She had maybe 2 marked frames (frames with either a strike or spare) and a game of 113. It looked like she was peeved when she threw a spare. So I told her bye at the end of the first game. Here's the reason I was really pissed at her, we lost series by 80 pins, there was no reason we should've lost by that much, we should've beat them. The second game, when she was gone, we were alot closer to beating them. On a different note, I finished Return of the King today, and I cried inside. I have to read the appendices but that's all. I'm so sad b/c it was such a good book, and now it's gone! All of you should go and read it!!

Wednesday January 15, @ 5:15pm
The world has plans for my demise. I hate my new schedule, I have no friends in my classes, save maybe luck will slide my way and I'll sit by Alice D in Spanish. It would've been managable if I stil had lunch with all of my posse. I guess I'm just gonna have to deal with it, because it would be too hard, if not impossible to change my classes. Wish me luck in this torturous semester. Later.

Sunday January 12, @ 12:20am
Geeze, I'm in a weird mood today, I guess I'm kinda depressed because I feel like I'm never gonna find love. Maybe I should stop listening to love songs. Either that or take a nap until after Valentine's Day. Today was fun at bowling, I bowled a 133, 185, and 117 for a 435 series!! that's only the 4th time I've even done that well! But now I've begun to realize how screwed I am for finals. Cisco is down right now and I forgot all of my art papers in a different book. I doubt I'm gonna remember everything I need to for History, but I don't care. I'm just hanging out here in my mental funk and hoping something will come along that changes everything, but part of me is saying "it's not gonna happen, just go on and make the best out of the time I have." So I am leaving now to study some more, I guess. Later.

Friday January 10, @ 5:34pm
Have you ever sat there and thought about people in your class that you thought you want to get to know better, because you think they're really funny and you could get a good friendship out of, but you don't for whatever reason? I guess I'm in one of those moods today. I dunno, I can't really explain it, maybe I'll try after dinner when I finish this update. Chicken and chips were the meal. I guess I just want to get more friends and be more of a people person, to be brief. As for now, I must venture to Frodo's house. Later!

Thursday January 9, @ 8:52pm
I'm in a pretty good mood today, considering there are finals tomorrow. I've been devouring Return of the King recently, I read five chapters today just to stop when the answer I wanted was probably right ahead of me, but that's just how it is. I get my Jones hoodie tomorrow, I'm so excited!! My only final tomorrow is Spanish, so I'm not really worried about it. Well, since I'm trying to have some History aid from Ron, I must go. Thank you Mary for reminding me to update!!! Later!

Friday January 3, @ 12:42am
Never part of any crowd, 'cause her head's up on some cloud. I just realized today is supposed to be a depressing day. My grandmother died 3 years ago. So much has happened since then, it's kinda odd, but I don't want to dwell on the bad, if I did, I would be reading more of "Angry Fruit" (Grapes of Wrath). I'd better update this today before break ends b/c once prison starts again, I'll have no time, lo pasa. I have alot of stuff on my mind, and I want to talk about it to people, but at the same time, I don't. Doesn't it suck? I guess if you wanted me to be vague I could say it's guys in general, but that doesn't help you much now does it? Oh well, I really want to do something tomorrow, since I didn't get to do anything today 'cept read. I dunno, I guess I also want to get more people in the group, b/c it seems like it's always the same people, which isn't a problem if I didn't have a strange desire to expand my circle of friends. WEll, I'd best go before this flashing message box gives me a seizure. Later!