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GLASS finds himself increasingly torn between his new love
and his true calling as a messenger...he doesn't realize that
he really doesn't have to make a choice between the light and her
darkness...he tries to find balance between his humanity and
his spiritual pursuits...unknown to GLASS, the hedonism and
electric energy of GLASS' accelerated world fuel JUNE's ever
increasing secret drug problems...GLASS comes home one night
to find JUNE in a drugged haze, a vinyl record hissing
endlessly on the out groove...JUNE is so out of it that
she doesn't recognize GLASS at all, as he calls to her to come
back to him...the truth revealed, GLASS sits next to her and,
in a rare moment of candor, reveals that god has been
speaking to him thru the radio, knowing full well that JUNE
probably won't remember the conversation...despite that,
GLASS reveals that he has doubts about the validity of the messages
and wonders if he is going insane...GLASS decides because
he loves her so, he will try to save her as he is trying to
save everyone else, with the power of his healing...GLASS is
now on a crusade to save everyone in his life; his band, his
girl, his audience, and consequently the world...the only
problem is that he has forgotten to save himself...
GLASS begins to lose his balance on both ends when he
becomes over righteous and indignant in his beliefs,
alienating those who already believe in him and turning off
potential new converts...GLASS sees himself as some sort of cosmic
preacher, and if he just shouts loud enough the message will
somehow get thru the din...JUNE, finding the solace
and power in GLASS that she couldn't muster on her own,
begins to believe that she does not need him anymore...she has
taken her fill from his light, and like so many others that
have taken from GLASS, question whether they ever needed
him at all...GLASS begins to bitter at the prospect that he
is being toyed with and used by god and JUNE...
slowly, GLASS begins to lose faith in his seemingly
unshakeable beliefs...he becomes paranoid, believing that
everyone is out to get him...the new album is released and is
not well received by the fans or the general public...for
the first time since the band began, GLASS is publicly
humiliated...he begins to question the validity of the
messages, thinking perhaps they are from a false god or that
his filters of perception are misaligned...
he begins to descend into madness, accusing JUNE of disloyalty...in one
final argument, she admits she never loved him at all, and that she did
hear him tell her about being spoken to by god, and that she believes he
is insane...she tells him goodbye for the last time and storms off into
the rainy night...she loses control of her car, and is killed when it
skids off the road...GLASS blames god for the loss of JUNE, idealizing his
time with her because he can not let go of what her vision means to his
faith...he blames the fans for their betrayal at not supporting and
following the bands new direction...inconsolable, and without informing
the MACHINES, GLASS impulsively tells an audience one night that the band
is going to break up and will only play one more final, and sadly tragic
show...
the night before the final concert, GLASS has a prophetic
dream that he is a soldier in a war...he wears a uniform, but
does not know who the enemy is or even what side he is fighting
for...he wanders the empty streets, gun in hand, looking for
anyone at all...in a dark starewell he meets a faceless soldier
who takes him by the hand into a dusky basement...the soldier
does not speak, and together they sit underneath a single
hanging bulb...he is just an animal, seeking shelter, warmth,
food, and love...this dream, and the MACHINES final concert
send GLASS into a disturbing tailspin...he feels truly and utterly
alone...
after the final concert GLASS is quickly forgotten by the public, and
he takes to living in an empty warehouse away from anyone at all...he has
always felt alone, but now all of the things that gave him
strength, focus, and identity are gone...he faces his own
doubt and mortality for the first time...he begins to walk
by himself at dawn thru the waking streets, and slowly finds
an inner peace with his spirit...he begins to forgive and accept
the things that have happened to him, and understand that his
desire to find perfection above his own humanity led him to
things that he did not really want or need...he begins to love
and empathize with others without fear of consequence, and so
in his aloneness realizes that he was never really alone at all...
GOD has always been with him, and always will be...and so in
this moment he fulfills his destiny, both for himself and for GOD...