Just when I think nobody cares
Just when I start to cry
Something tells me to look up
and I begin to ask myself why.

Why do I feel so unhappy?
Why do I feel so alone?
Why can't I love myself?
Why isn't love ever shown?

At times I feel invisible
Just when nobody can see
I sit alone at home and cry
and hide my misery.

Why can't I be 'normal'?
Why do I hurt so bad?
I can't explain it-this anger I have
I can't tell you why I'm sad.

I feel like nobody sees me
I feel like nobody knows
that I can't open my heart and life
to a world so hard and cold.

Why can't I be free to love
I really wish I knew
I wish I had someone to tell me
that I AM somebody too.

Alone in my world nobody sees
the pain I feel inside
I try to smile and look happy
but I really want to hide.

See, Mom and Dad work all day
So after school nobody's home.
I microwave my dinner
and sit down to eat alone.

I then turn on the TV
or cruise chats online a while
but it's still the same-nobody cares
although they sit and smile.

Mom and Dad could care less
They're too busy with careers
and I wonder if they even see me
when I sneak in weed or beer.

I have been alone most my life
but I know I'm not alone.
Friends tell me this is "Life"
so get used to what's at home.

I just wished someone would see me
I wish Mom and Dad had a clue
to the fact I'm close to suicide
I now wonder what they'd do.

For now I'll fade into oblivion
and curl up on the bed 
You see it's hard to stay awake
I had a joint and popped Moms' meds.

If you've read all of my story
I hope you learn a thing or two.
I'm just a teenager who's hurting
and my parents just may be you.

I hope you'll start to listen
and spend time with teens like me
for I know that I am not alone
in my world of agony.

I  hope you start to look up
and remember what I said.
I may be your teen or child
who sits writing on this bed.

I hope my friends remember me
when I'm not around to chat today
I just hope they don't forget me
when they see I've gone away.

Well I guess I can stop writing now
I think I'll go to sleep
I see an angel standing on a stairway..
as I close my eyes and weep.

Poem by Irishgrrl
Copyrighted - Octeber of 2000
All Rights Reserved.
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Dedicated to all the teens in this world
who feel alone and that nobody cares.

If you're a teen who hurts- READ THE LINKS BELOW!!
If you are a Parent - READ THIS AGAIN AND PASS IT ON!

Whatever you do - please pass this page on to anyone who
has a teenager or loves one.  THAT is reason enough!

Thank YOU!

Irishgrrl

If YOU are a teen who feels alone-or tempted to commit suicide
DON'T!! 
There are people who will 'listen' and they care about you!
Sometimes it is hard to be a teenager in todays' world.
But know one thing - YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
If you feel that way - please get help.
Your life isn't worth throwing away.
Keep looking UP and believe in yourself!!
If if you can't talk to your parents-know you can call someone
at the links below.  Parents - if this poem hit HOME with YOU;
find TIME to talk to your son or daughter. 
Their life may depend on it.
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FOR TEENS WITH PARENTS:

http://www.planettherapy.com/circle/teenagers/depression.html

http://www.sxetc.org/

http://education.indiana.edu/cas/adol/teen.html

http://www.teenadvice.org/

http://www.hypervigilance.com/Trevor/depression.html

http://www.yourteen.com/

http://www.selfgrowth.com/teenage.html

http://childdevelopmentinfo.com/parenting/teens.shtml

For HELPLINES on ALL TOPICS - SEE LISTINGS UNDER 
THE GUESTBOOK.  I HOPE YOU FIND THESE HELPFUL!!

Thank you for your visit!! Please be sure to sign the Guestbook 
before you leave my site!  All emails are welcomed!!
TO RETURN TO THE INDEX OF POEMS - CLICK HOME BELOW!
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HOTLINES FOR ANY TOPIC TO CALL TOLLFREE:
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Youth Crisis Hotline: 1-800-Hit-Home 

Counseling: 
Rapha's hotline:   1-800-383-Hope (4673) 

1-800-DONT-CUT  (800-366-8288) ~ SAFE 
(Self-Abuse Finally Ends) 
Information Help Line

1-800-333-4444 ~ Suicide and Rape 24-Hour Emergency Services

1-800-233-4357 ~ United Way Crisis Help Line 

1-800-231-6946 ~ National Runaway Hotline
Operates 24 hours. Provides information, referral,
and  transportation back home for runaways. 

1-800-621-4003 ~ National Runaway Switchboard 

1-800-ALCOHOL ~ The Alcohol Hotline 

1-800-766-6779 ~ Marijuana Anonymous 

1-800-843-5678 ~ National Center for Missing and Exploited Children 

1-800-NCA-CALL ~ National Council on Alcoholism Information Line
The National Council on Alcoholism, Inc. is a national nonprofit  organization that combats alcoholism, other drug addictions, and  related problems. The Council 
also provides referral services to  families and individuals seeking help with alcoholism and other 
drug problems. 

1-800-799-SAFE (800-799-7233) ~ National Domestic Violence Hotline

1-800-269-4237 ~ National Inhalant Prevention Coalition 

1-800-969-6642 ~ National Mental Health Association Help Line

1-800-345-5044 ~ Parents Anonymous Help Line

1-800-622-HELP ~ NIDA Hotline
NIDA Hotline is a confidential information and referral line that directs callers to cocaine abuse treatment centers in the local community.  Free materials on 
drug abuse are also distributed in response to inquiries. 

1-800-241-7946 ~ PRIDE Drug Information Hotline
A national resource and information center, Parent's Resource Institute for Drug Education (PRIDE) provides telephone consultation and referrals to emergency health centers, and maintains a series of drug information tapes that callers can listen to, free 
of charge, by calling after 5:00 p.m. 

 1-800-656-HOPE ~ Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network (RAINN)

Free, confidential counseling and support 24 hours a day, from anywhere in the country.

1-800-422-4453 ~ Child Help USA
For victims, offenders, and parents. 

1-800-COCAINE ~ A Cocaine Helpline
24-hour information and referral service. 
Recovering cocaine-addict counselors answer the phones,  offer guidance and referrals to treatment centers and family learning centers. 

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