On Thursday June 22nd, it is the six month anniversary of Mum's passing.

As I said the other day I feel this insatable need to surround myself with things that were hers or are from her.  Gifts past and present.  I know it is a normal part of grieving but I still feel kinda weird about it.

We planned to go to Mt. Thompson Crematorium on Thursday but it is pouring in Brissy at present and expected to go on until the weekend, so we may have to go next week which is a bit of a shame.

I miss her though, more so this week.  The emotion is rawer somehow... so I busy myself doing little things like making podcast music and my Kuan Yin sites.

I miss the warmth of her embrace, her smile, her loving understanding, her comfort either verbal or physical.

Some days are just worse than others.. but that is grief.. I know it ... we all know it.

So I am sentimental I now treasure things much more than I used to so that is a plus.

I don't know if anyone reads these or what... but learn from this, embrace your family, mend old broken bridges between you and a loved one, tell them you love them on a day that isn't their birthday.  Cos BANG! suddenly they are gone. I have no regrets as I told Mum I loved her minutes before her stroke (she was in TSI so I knew) and I'm glad I did.  Poor Dad didn't have that opportunity. The good people in your life (the real gems) they are gone to soon. Mum helped mould me into what I am today... and I am proud of that person as I know she was...

I had 38 wonderful years with her, and a lifetime and a soul full of beautiful memories my own husband cannot be bothered to fathom.  But I know and Dad knows so that is enough...

Posted above one of my favourite pics of Mum and I when we were young!

Love and Light,

Padmapani Devi