Jamey's Blog
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Entry for January 4, 2007

Mood ... strange thing, a mood is ... today I "feel" better than the past three.  However, I still don't "feel" like talking to anyone.  I have made a choice to stop taking any pills for depression ... but today (after reading some very good info on the net) I have made a different choice to take them.

I become a "ill butt" as my wife so lovingly calls it ... and she is right.  Weight gain is the side effect that is really geting "down" about taking a "pill" for depression.  But is a "damned if you do and damned if you don't" type thing.  I mean, you take a pill to help ... it makes you gain weight and you see your self in pictures and don't reconize yourself.  Then you get more depressed that your a hog ...

People start looking at you when you eat anything, like you are some strange Star Trek alien from some unkown world; its really crappy.  I hate that ... just because your not the football star or the cheerleading captain ... your classed as some sub-par human that just needs to be humored.  Why is the world like that?

Anyway, with all that said, its a better day.

Lord, thank you for the blessings of life ... the overlooked things that I take for granted.  Forgive me for failing you and not seeking your way out ... Bless my family with health, and for all of those in the world that need your grace and mercy ... even if they don't think they need it.  In Jesus' name - Amen

2007-01-04 18:42:56 GMT