It all began one day in 6th grade when my life turned to hell. Most of my classmates didnt like me for some reason and I just didn't know what to do. I became very depressed. In 7th grade I started a new school and quickly found myself even more depressed. Whats worse is that I would always be in trouble over my actions and grades. I knew I needed to change but I didn't know how. It was in January of Febuary of '99 when I heard music for the first time. I had just gotten cable (pathetic yes I know I'm the only one who hasn't had cable their whole life.) I was watching MTV when I saw this group called KoRn. I really liked it but because of peer preasure from my clique I didn't really get into it much.(they were into gangster rap and they influenced me to get into it too unfortunatly) So from then I just sank deeper and deeper into my depression.I would cut myself and take too many pills and even tried to drink poison. Eventually my family took me out of that school,hoping my depression would become better. It didn't.I didn't fit in at my new school.So I began to abuse inhalents and alcohol.Then when Issues came out I decided to buy the KoRn albums because I watched them on MTV and they seemed very nice and down to earth.Thats when things began looking up for me.I would listen to them all the time.Hearing Jon's problems gave me a sense of relief just knowing I'm not alone in my problems.He quickly became my role model (and husband to be i wish).I eventually stopped drinking and sniffing and I haven't felt better sinse.I have started to become friends with a girl named Brooke who likes KoRn also.Jon helped me come to realize who I really am and what's important to me.He also inspired me to lose 35 pounds.(don't ask me how he inspired weight loss)I guess he just overcame all obsticles to reach his goals so that's exactly what I did.I worked hard to get that weight off and I turned to Jon's beautiful voice and thoughts for insparation.If you read this Jon I just want to say thank you for changing my life for the better.I love you.