I have alway had a big problem with depression and part of my way of dealing, was cutting on myself. eventualy this got me in to the mental hospital. and i gave up all hope. but one night, listening to a korn song on the issues CD. i started to realize... i can totaly relate to the lyrics. so i sat up all night, in teh bathroom, writing down lyrics that i related to. here are a list of some..

"i can always say, its gunna be better tomorrow"
for me: i try to tell myself the pain will go away if i...

"i tell my lies and i despise every second im with you"
for me: i keep telling myself...give them one more chance(friends) but i keep getting hurt, the use me and make me thier scapegoat.

"who gives a fuck if my life sucks"
for me: no one cares

"i feel the reason, no not again"
for me: i need to cut, but god, im so scared

"my heart inside is constantly hateing"
for me: i hate everything about me, i cant stop hateing myself

"i wont give up"
for me: i cant giveup, i have things to live for

"im about to break, is this my fate? am i still damned to a life of missery and hate?"
for me: i cant handle this anymore, is this what my life will be like? full of pain?

"what does it mean to you? for me its someting i just do"
for me: why is cutting so bad? its my life, my body, my choice.

there is so much more. like 20 pages of things. it was a incredible night. i learned alot that night, alot about what i was feeling that i just couldnt put into words. its been 4 months now sincei have cut, and when i get the craveing to, i just pop in a korn cd and listen to what the lyrics say to me.