My brother is 10 years older than me, so I've always looked up to him and I used to sneak in his room and listen to his CD's. Well one time I got hold of his Life Is Peachy CD and I got hooked on KoRn when I was around 12 or 11. I got into them so much I went out and bought every single I could find of KoRn and I got their 1st CD, too. I heard the song "Daddy" and it changed my life!!!! I had a similar childhood ot Jon's in some ways. My parents fought and I didn't get along with hardly anyone in my family. I didn't have any friends and I was always being picked on. But I think it all started when I was 6 because, sadly like Jon, I was messed with by some old pervert that fucked up my life. I tried to kill myself the 1st time when I was 9. From when I was 9 until I was 11, I had 4 suicide attempts all together. I found out I had Atypical Depression. I'd go through a lot of moods where I hated my life and everything in it, sometimes for NO reason at all. Then when I heard the songs "Daddy" and "Kill You" and it helped me in MANY ways. I figured that if Jon can last 29 years, and have an adorable son (who looks JUST LIKE him) and the greatest, most successful band EVER to show for it, then I can try and last another day...and that always helps me. I still get depressed every now and then -- who doesn't?? -- and I'll cry for no reason, but all I have to do is look at one of my many pictures of Jon but I haven't had a suicide thought OR attempt in 4 years and I owe it ALL to Jonathan Davis, KoRn, and God!!!! So if, by some chance, he EVER reads this, thank you so much Jon because you saved me from being smothered by 6 feet of cold dirt.

By the way, I went to my first KoRn concert Saturday, April 15, in Greensboro, NC and it KICKED SO MUCH ASS IT AIN'T EVEN FUNNY!!!!!!!
And just before the end, they disappeared off the stage and everyone in the crowd was holding up lighters and shouting "KORN! KORN! KORN! KORN!" and the lights had gone down, and the curtains were closed. Then Jon came on stage in another outfit and sang "4U" and he got so into it and EVERYONE was singing with him, I just broke down and started crying...I felt retarded too, but I didn't care. Then they did "Blind" and Jon thanked everyone and said he loved us, and that just sent me over the edge!!! Now I'm gonna stop writing before it becomes a novel on how much I love Jon and KoRn!