My life was totally fucked. When I was 12 I found out my dad wasn't actually my dad. I was raped twice and my dreams still continue about those things.

As I grew up I didn't get alone with anyone and was always getting picked on, beat up, etc. Every time I turned on my music channel when I was younger, KoRn was on. But everytime a different KoRn video came on I thought it was a different band!! Dumb huh? When "got the life" came out and I got "follow the leader" and realized that all the videos were all the same band! so i've loved KoRn all my life. The first time I heard "my gift to you" I felt so loved. After I listend to that i started having dreams about jon saving me from those dreams. After a while I could actually see jon standing in front of me when i was awake. Talking to me and stuff. You can say i'm crazy but he's actually there. I began to slit my wrists cause things got so bad. I tried many other ways to kill myself but they never worked. I carved jon's sign into my arm which i still have a scar from. When I saw them in concert I knew jon felt i was there. Afterwards I became totally crazy and i would'nt talk to anyone.i stopped eating and everything. I started having dreams about talking to Jon and helping him.

In his dreams I came and comforted him. I finally realized i was obsessed. I have a jon shrine and constantly talk to him. So Jon and KoRn saved my life and many people have the same story so there you go.