Jonathan,
to have lived, to have survived, you have been through it all, you are truly someone I can never be...

When my eyes shut out the world, I see your expressions of the emotions you so bravely share with the world... When my ears propel into silence, I hear your voice, screaming out with the memories you and I have had alike... When the tears run down my face, I see your younger figure weeping along with me...

As I sit here in my corner of sorrow I realize how ironic it is, we are so much alike but you are someone I can never be, thats why I feel this way about you Jon, you're more to me than an idol, you are like my best friend, no more than that it is inexplainable I can't express how I feel for you with words because there aren't words strong enough for it...

I dream about how it will all go away and how I can be more like you, but then I step back and look and realize you are someone I can never be... I realize that I feel the same as you about alot of things but its all the same in the end...

Jonathan, to have lived, to have survived, you have been through it all, you are truly someone I can never be...