It was one,simple question should I end my life today,it was the perfect day,my birthday!,no one had noticed it was ,no one understood me,not even my boyfriend,I couldn't stand him anymore and his expectations. It had to go to bed before my Mom would be home from work. I walked in the bathroom remembering that lucky blue razor!, I removed all my bracelets and lifted up my sleeve,I couldn't watch,I shut my eyes and dug the razor in my wrist harder and harder in tears. I stopped suddenly remembering all the words Jon sang in every song,they were all running through my mind like a drug through your vein!,that had so much meaning it was indescribable,I though of everything he had said on Television or whatever. Why the hell was I doing this?,I did have hope.,I relized I shouldn't do this,its wrong!,im not ending now!. I wrapped out my wrist and went to bed dreaming of happiness and hope all thanks to Jon,nobody else could give me hope like that! He is god in my eyes ,he saved my life and gave me courage to deal with tough times my boyfriend or anyone could never do. I thank him for everything now and then!