I grew up in a neighboorhood and went to a Jr. High where you were either a size one or you were considered a blimp. Me being of course not exactly fat, but deffinatly not a size one was ridaculed every day called fat, dirty, stupid, anything that people thought could hurt me. I was always trying to fit in, I would do whatever it took, wear the trendy clothes, i tried being bulimic, anerexic, started wearing make up because everybuddy else was. I listened to all the trendy music, like Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, even Hanson but was was never really happy. One day i was flipping through chanels when i arrived at Much Music. The video "Got the Life" was on and i decided to watch it all. From the second i saw Jonathans beautiful face and life altering voice i became hooked. I was part of a cd club and saw a KoRn cd and ordered it of course knowing absolutly nothing about the band. It was their first cd. I saw "Got the Life" wasn't on it and was hessitant to listen, but i did and i was instantly in love. I then got Life is Peachy, and Follow the Leader and covered my room in KoRn posters. I started dressing how i wanted to, and listening to the music i wanted to. People began to make fun of me more because since I liked KoRn i was ultimatly a "satan worshiper", but i didn't care. I developed a new sence of self esstem and although still 2 years after i first discovered KoRn its still not completly back but tis getting there. Jonathan changed my life for the better, because him and his wonderfull truthfull music i began thinking for myself. I also became rather obsessed with Jonathan. I pictured my life with him, marrying him, helping him raise baby Nathan. I would get violent around anyone who insulted him whether they were joking or not. I carved KoRn and HIV into my wrist. i would do anything for Jon. One of my friends began calling me KoRn FreaK, but i really didn't care kuz it was KoRn and i would do anything. Jonathan saved my life, i was so suicidal because i had no real friends, they were all fake phonies, but when i started listening to KoRn i started making real friends who cared about me and liked me for who i was. I am no longer suicidal and i am currently enjoying life and living it to the fullest. I in fact have never been happier in my life, and less then a year ago so KoRn for the first time live. It was wonderfull. I became invincible for the hour and a half they were on stage. I got kicked in the head many times stepped on pushed around plus had been on my feet for 8 hours and jumping on them for 2 hours before that but i felt no pain at all!! I can't help but think if it wasn't for KoRn i would not be alive. plus i know there are many others who wouldn't be either... Thank You KoRn. Thank You Jonatahn!!! I love you all! And if any depressed KoRn fans are reading this... Don't give up Life will get better and people do love you!!