the first time i ever met jonathan davis was on August 17/18(it was 1:51am) at the Follow the leader signing in los angeles, california. I had been waiting in line outside of the Tower Records on the infamous Sunset Strip, for almost 8 hours. Me and my bud had arrived ther about 7. I had so much fun mingling with the coolest Korn people i have ever met(of course because everyone there was not a trendy). it was funny how when the MTV and Kroq vans pulled up, every single person in the crowd of over about 2500 people(the line stretched for about 2 blocks) started booing them. MTV and Kroq had always ignored Korn's exsistence....and our requests.

Korn arrived in a black car...not a limo(i don't know what type of car) at 11:53pm. the guards there were sooo mean. they had told us no cameras no this no that. and we weren't allowed to talk to them for more than 20 seconds. it pissed us off but it was ok.

when I finally went in....it was almost two and my friend and i were greeted with the loud blasting of B.B.K. while on all the tv monitors CLOWN was playing. Let me just tell you that being in there felt greater than any kind of drug i had ever taken. It was sooo amazing. when i was about to go to their table, I stared crying from the utter disbelief that i was only a few feet away from THEM. them who saved me from my personal hell. them who i had adored for 3 years before....them who save me from myself.

the first person that signed my cd was the oh-so-incredible MUNKY. he greeted me with a huge genuine smile and asked me where i wanted him to sign.

I told him to sign where ever he wanted. he did...on my cover. he said thanx and i moved along to FIELDY who was drunk and stoned beyond belief. (he gave my bud his beer bottle). he signed and then....I saw him. My saviour. My secret best friend. My Jonathan Davis. I didn't know what to say. i was overwhelmed by his beauty and i just stared at him. he said something to me and his spittle flew in my face and he apologized(of course it was ok!) he signed my cover right on top of the place in the cd booklet where he had spray-painted his name on the wall of their studio. he found that incredibly funny and i enjoyed hearing his beautiful laughter. he was very sweet. they all were. david didn't really say much except when he asked me where he wanted me to sign and head actually thanked ME for coming out to see THEM!!! imagine that.....i found that cool and i thanked all of them for making the music that saved me from self destruction. they all smiled and waved to me as i left. i walked through the doors that led me to that cruel world i had abandoned for a few minutes to be in heaven. i was overwhelmed by a huge wave of emotion. I cried, let me tell you, because never in my life had i ever felt so...... satisfied. It was the best feeling that i had never felt before.... It was happiness.