Writer's Note: Since I got a lot of feed back from the first part of this story I made a part 2... it sux though... ill make a better part 3..... love yall always Amya

Renee and Jonathan’s eyes met. She looked down at the girl who was still sprawled over the couch. They made eye contact but the girl turned away. Jonathan pulled up his pants zipping them quickly. He brought his head up and looked at Renee, he could see the pain in her eyes. He wanted very much to hold her, to explain his actions, but he knew he couldn’t.

"Renee I’m sorr……"

"Fuck you!" Renee said cutting off his apology. She held Nathan closely, turned around and put her hand on the door handle. She turned her head and looked at Jonathan.

"I came home early because I missed you, we missed you." She put her hand on Nathan’s head and stroked him gently. "How could you do this to us?" She opened the door and walked out slamming the door behind her.

Jonathan just stood there unable to move. The feelings of dirtiness and shamefulness shot throughout his body. He looked down at the girl who was surprisingly almost dressed, she looked calm. She felt Jonathan’s gaze burn into her. She looked up at him and gave a smile. He gave a look of bewilderment.

"So that was your wife huh?" She said crossing her legs.

Jonathan couldn’t understand why she was so calm. He just stood there staring at her, watching her expressions change. Her eyebrows tilted up in irritation of waiting for his reply.

"Uhh yeah, that was my wife." He said lowering his head.

"And I guess that was your son too?" She asked feeling a little guilty.

"Yes." He said with his voice cracking. He stared deep into her eyes. She could see the hurt he felt. Jon tried so hard to keep back his tears but the thoughts of losing Nathan clouded his mind. He brought his hands up to his face and cried into them. The girl quickly stood to her feet. She pulled him close and held him tightly. He felt so secure wrapped in her arms. He felt safe. He had never felt this way with Renee. She had never comforted with such endearment before. For the first time he felt like it was okay to express his pain, and he wouldn’t be turned away. He cried louder. They both just stood there holding each other. As Jonathan calmed himself, he started to smell the sweet aroma of her hair. It smelled so enticing. He felt the need to kiss her, but he fought his urge.

"I think you need to leave." He said softly.

"Oh…. Okay." She let go of him slowly, bent down picked her jacket up off the floor. She put her hands in one of the pockets and pulled out a piece of paper and a pen. She began to scribble on it. When she was done she placed the pen back in her pocket and handed Jon the piece of paper.

"This is just in case you need someone to talk to." She leaned in and gently kissed his lips. She then paused and looked deep into his eyes. She ran her fingers slowly through his tangled locks desperately wanting to stay. Jonathan gave a slight smile. She let go of his hair letting every individual strands slip through her fingertips.

"Well I guess I’ll see you around." She said softly. She turned around and left the house. Jonathan stood there alone in the dark livingroom. He tried to block the shameful thoughts coming and going out of his mind but the thoughts of losing Nathan clouded his mind. He started pacing around his coffee table then looked at the piece of paper in his hand. He unfolded it and read it aloud.

"Kalarnia (Lee) 555-4278 call when you need me…"

Jonathan hesitated then quickly walked over to the phone and dialed into it. 4 rings passed, he became inpatient. Finally there was an answer.

"Hello." Said a groggy and sleepy voice.

"Reggie wassup man?" Jon said relieved that Reggie had picked up the phone.

"Jon what the fuck! It’s 1:30 in the fuckin mornin." Reggie said sitting up in his bed.

"I know but I had no one else to call"

Reggie turned on the lamp beside his bed. "Okay what did you do and who did you do it to this time?" he asked jokingly.

Jonathan began to cry.

"Awww dude, what the hell? I was just kidding!" Reggie said feeling a little bad.

"It’s not you man." Jon said softly like a child.

"Well then what happened!" Reggie yelled impatiently still half asleep.

Jonathan sighed and began to tell Reggie what happened.

"I was at the bar drinking."

"Uhh huh." Reggie said falling back asleep.

"I was crying and shit, ya know feeling sorry for myself as usual."

"uhh huh."

"Then a girl came up to me."

"Was she hot?" Reggie asked giggling a bit and sounding more awake now.

"Yeah but that’s not the fucking point!" Jon yelled angrily.

"Okay, okay go on." Reggie said rolling his eyes.

Jon paused.

"I took her home." Jon blurted out. He tried to say it fast hopping that Reggie wouldn’t be able to make out what he had just said. But he was unsuccessful.

"You did what!? You took her home! Who!? What the fuck is wrong with you dude!?" Reggie said to infuriated to get all he was thinking into one sentence.

"Her name is Kalarnia, I had sex with her."

"What!? Oh my god, your in some shit now!" Reggie said rubbing his forehead.

"I know dude." Jon said lowering his head.

"Damn how are you gonna tell Renee?"

"That’s the bad part. I don’t have to tell her."

"What do you mean?" Reggie sat back against his pillows afraid of what Jon was about to tell him.

"She came home early and walked in on us."

"Oh shit! Was Nathan with her?"

"Yes." Jonathan began to cry again.

"Did he see you?"

"No he was asleep." Jonathan said sadly.

"Thank fucking god!"

there was a long pause. Reggie finally broke the silence.

"Why did you do it man?" he asked sounding a little disappointed in Jon.

"I don’t know man. It was like She was giving me something that I had lost back to me. For the first time I felt important. I don’t really know man. I just got wrapped up in the moment I guess." Jon sat down on the couch and rested his head on a pillow. He found his eyes getting heavy. He finally closed them. Reggie just sat there in bed thinking about what Jon had told him.

"Well there’s nothing you can really do right now, you just need to let things blow over then talk to Renee about it. Ya know?"

"Yeah." Jon said yawning. "Reggie please don’t tell the other members okay? I don’t want them to know yet.

"Oh, okay man." Reggie said getting out of bed. "Uhh Jon, I have one question though."

"What man?"

"Was she good."

Part 3