Drowning in the Deep End

by H.

Pairing: DiexKaoru, KyoxToshiya, ShinyaxYoshiki
Rated: NC-17
Genre: Drama, mildly angsty

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Part II

The remainder of practice was fairly uneventful for the five 
members. Kyo screamed and flailed while Toshiya watched his cute 
butt wiggle around in his tight pants. Die continued to tease Shinya 
about his "love bite" until the drummer ended up flinging one
of his 
spare cymbals at the guitarist, nearly missing his head. Kaoru spoke 
infrequently and tersely, giving orders, making suggestions, and 
attempting to be as encouraging as he could manage. 

"Ok, once more." The pink haired man stated as they finished 
rehearsing their latest song for what seemed to the other members 
like the 400th time. 

Toshiya rolled his eyes and pouted. "Kaoru! It's nearly 7
p.m. 
We've been here all day! Can't we call it a night yet?"

"Yeah, Kaoru. I'm tired and hungry." Kyo exclaimed,
flopping 
himself down face first onto the couch and closing his eyes. By the 
time the guitarist turned around to face him he was dozing 
peacefully, and drooling all over the couch.

Kaoru could have continued going for another few hours at the least. 
Quite honestly, he didn't realize they'd been practicing for
nearly 8 
hours already. He'd been so absorbed at forgetting his fellow 
guitarist; he'd not noticed the clock hands rapid succession. 
Sighing, he removed his guitar from his slender frame. "Yeah,
let's 
call it a night."

A collective sigh of relief resonated through the room as the other 
members began pack up their belongings.

"Die…" The blue haired man cooed while he bounced over to
the 
guitarist and laid his head on his shoulder. "Kyo and I are
going to 
go get some dinner. Want to join us for drinks later?
….ppplllleeeaaasseeee!!" He batted his eyelashes prettily.

Die laughed at his friend's antics, "Sure, just call my
mobile when 
you guys are ready, ok?" He patted the bassist's head
affectionately 
before the blue haired man pulled away and bounced back to the 
lethargic vocalist.

"Come on Kyo…food…drinks…time to go. Die is going to
meet up with us 
later." He muttered as he managed to pull his koi off the couch.


The smaller man stood up and rubbed his eyes, "Oh…right. See
you 
later then." He nodded to the red head, "Kaoru…Shinya? 
You two want 
to meet up later as well?" He called to the other members, noting
to 
himself that both looked like they were on different planets at the 
current moment. 

Neither the guitarist nor the drummer even acknowledged his inquiry. 
Kaoru was busying himself with packing up his things, willing his 
emptiness away by focusing solely on the task at hand. Shinya on the 
other hand had packed up his drum set in record time and was now 
quickly throwing items haphazardly into his own small pack, eyes 
sparkling brightly with excitement and anticipation. 

Kyo was thoroughly annoyed. "Erm…HELLO! Planet earth
calling Shinya 
and Kaoru!" He yelled as Toshiya and Die got caught up in
infectious 
giggle fits.

"Huh?" Both distracted men answered simultaneously. 

The vocalist huffed. "I _said_ do you two want to join us for
drinks 
later?"

Shinya stood up hurriedly and threw his backpack over his shoulder 
violently enough to lose his balance and fell smack into the wall. 
Everyone froze as the usually graceful drummer picked himself up and 
shook his head confusedly. 

Then the giggle fits began again. Even Kaoru let his sour 
countenance disappear as he saw the morbid look of horror and 
embarrassment on the youngest member's face. 

"Kyo-kun, Shin-chan doesn't need anything to drink, ne?. I
think 
he's already drunk!" Die wheezed out through his laughter
while 
doing a perfect rendition of the bishonen crashing into the wall. 
This only caused another eruption of laughter from the other members 
and further anger from the pretty drummer.

Shinya stormed out the door. "I have plans this evening, but
even if 
I didn't I would NOT spend it with the likes of you guys." 
He 
slammed the door behind himself, and took a moment to lean into the 
frame, inhaling a few calming breathes. Finally willing away his 
annoyance, he tore off down the hallway, smiling madly like a giddy 
schoolgirl.

The laughter died down and the rest of the red faced and panting 
members smiled widely at each other. Kaoru couldn't help but
notice 
how beautiful Die's face looked when he was flushed and smiling. 
As 
if reading the pink haired man's thoughts, Die turned to him, his 
smile broadening even more. 

Kaoru thought his knees were going to give out.

"Kaoru, you never answered Kyo." Die recalled, still smiling 
brightly at the older man, "So are you gonna come out with us 
later?" Die was silently praying he'd agree to go. He
wanted 
desperately to spend some time with the other man, to find out
what's 
been weighing so heavily on his mind, to help him, to comfort
him…to 
do so many other wonderful things to him. Die's mind wandered 
further…'to taste him, to feel him panting against me, to hear
him 
scream out my name in pleasure, to hold him against my chest…to
love 
him.' Die's eyes darkened with longing and lust as he
continued to 
gaze at his fellow guitarist.

The eldest member was still staring straight into Die's eyes when
the 
red haired man finished speaking, waiting for his response. Lost in 
the chestnut pools, he registered a slight change in them, something 
barely perceptible, but definitely something…almost…erotic? 
His 
rational mind pushed these thoughts aside, "Um, sorry Die. 
I'm 
really out of it. I need to get some rest." Kaoru sighed and
placed 
his slender hand behind his head, massaging gently; the action 
successfully blocking him from seeing Die's visage fall at his 
words. "Maybe next time, ok?" He commented and picked up
his 
guitar; forcing a smile on his face before bidding good evening to 
his fellow band mates and heading out the door. 

****
"Your rather late." The older man smirked as the flustered
young man 
stepped into the hallway and removed his shoes.

"Gomen. Kaoru kept us there until 7." He bowed his head in
shame 
and blushed slightly. Shinya felt a loving palm gently pull up his 
chin so he could see the gorgeous man's lips begin to descend
towards 
his own. He parted his lips and sighed as he felt the soft mouth 
upon his own, kissing him tenderly. The older man licked across the 
bishonen's lips once before being granted entrance to the sweet 
cavern, his tongue delving in to taste the delicate drummer. 

They kissed feverishly for several minutes until they both parted, 
panting and staring at each other through lust-laden eyes. Shinya 
moaned as he was pushed up against the wall and covered by the older 
man's body, feeling his own arousal rise as his partner's
pressed 
firmly into his thigh. 

"Shinya…I need you…"

The slender man gasped as his lover's hand found its way to the
front 
of his slacks, massaging his aching length through the rough material.

"Mmm…. Yoshiki…yes…"

****
Die exited the steamy bathroom, bare feet padding across the floor of 
the living room as he toweled off his drenched locks. Small rivulets 
of water snaked down his bare chest and defined abdomen, coming to 
rest upon the fabric of his jeans. (H. passes out at this point -.-) 
He heard the phone ring in the bedroom and wandered in there. 
Flopping himself down upon the huge comforter, he picked up the 
phone. 

"Moshi, Moshi" Die flipped up the top of his mobile and
heard a 
familiar voice on the other end.

"Hiya Die! Ermf…Oi, get OFF of me! I'm TRYING to talk
to him. 
AAACCCKK!! You can talk in a second. LEGGO!!" He heard Kyo
batting 
Toshiya's hands away from the receiver and then a large crash. 
The 
red head could barely make out the muffled voices in the background 
until another familiar voice came on the line, still arguing. 

"IIE!! You'll drop it again. Anyways it's my turn. Oh,
hi Die!" 
The blue haired bassist chirped. 

The guitarist smirked and rubbed his temples, "Hiya Totchi. 
What's 
up?" 

"Just wondering if you're still up for some drinks
tonight." 

"Hai. Usual place?"

He heard muffled voices and assumed the two lovebirds were conferring 
with each other over the meeting spot. Toshiya soon got back on the 
line, "Yep. The usual. Meet you there at 10?"

"Sounds good. See ya then." The red head sighed and clicked
off the 
phone, but didn't put it down…instead he stared at it for a
few 
moments, running his index finger over the familiar number on speed 
dial. Biting down on his lower lip he debated whether or not to 
press the two simple buttons that would connect him to the man he 
most wanted to spend the evening with…and _not_ in a bar. Die
wanted 
the beautiful, pink haired guitarist to be the last thing he kissed 
at night and the first gentle touch he would wake to every 
morning. `Heh…Die no baka…. day dreaming again…' he
mused as 
unconsciously one button was pressed, then the second. Die 
considered canceling the call immediately, then thought better of 
it. `The worst thing he could say is no' he thought as the
phone rang 
on the other end. 

****

The dim streetlights threw a hushed light into the small living room 
as Kaoru sat alone, alternating bringing a glass of wine and a 
cigarette to his mouth with his trembling hands. Silent tears flowed 
freely down his sullen face, but he barely registered their presence 
any longer; they'd been there for so many years they seemed
almost…
comforting. But now, Kaoru was slowly being ripped apart, torn 
between his deep friendship and his undying and unspoken love for his 
best friend. Torn between desiring complete happiness and staying in 
his reassuring and familiar sorrow. The pain had taken over; it 
was now so ingrained in him he felt he knew no other way of life. He 
knew the pain, he felt safe in it, it reminded him that he could 
feel; and he had felt it, lived it, and had been bound to it for so 
long if it left…. would he even know who he was anymore? He
picked 
up the emerald glass bottle and began pouring himself another glass 
of the dry liquor when he suddenly stopped, placed the glass upon the 
table and stared at the bottle in his hand. His hand slid up the 
neck, catching a few droplets of the sanguine liquid on the pads of 
his fingertips. Gazing idly at he drops, his mind wandered back to 
the band's last live…

//Kaoru felt the red head move in behind him. Die's arms went
around 
his slender waist, one hand pressing skillfully to the frets, the 
other looping through his own to strum the strings of the elder
man's 
guitar. Die's breath hit his neck as he laughed over Kaoru's 
shoulder. Kaoru bit back a gasp as the solid back of the vibrating 
guitar was pushed against his now rock hard arousal. His slender 
hand moved upwards of its own will to caress the redhead's cheek.

Suddenly, he shuddered as he felt a soft tongue running up and down 
each delicious digit, as Die sucked gently on the callused tips. The 
younger man continued playing and suckling, pulling the guitar and 
the other guitarist closer into him, pressing Kaoru's lithe form
up 
against himself. The pink haired man moaned audibly as bolts of 
electricity tore through his stomach. Die must have slung his own 
guitar behind himself, because Kaoru could feel him; Die's own
hard 
length pressed deliciously on his own vinyl-clad ass. He struggled 
to bite back a whimper as he felt Die move his hips in a sensual 
circle, allowing his straining erection to push even harder into the 
pink haired guitarist.//

Kaoru slowly brought his dripping fingertips to his lips, lavishing 
attention upon them as Die had done mere weeks ago. His tumultuous 
thoughts raged against him as he sighed, raking his tongue up and 
down the slender appendages, `It was fan service…nothing more
you 
fool! Who doesn't have a hard on looking at so many beautiful, 
screaming women…some of them stripping off their shirts! He
wasn't 
looking at your scrawny, bony figure! You're so disgusting!'
But 
still…Die's cock had pressed against him, his hot tongue had
teased 
his fingers…. leaving a clue of what was to come. Obeying a
deeper, 
and far more pressing desire, Kaoru began unbuttoning his shirt, 
allowing his moist fingers to gently play upon his carmel nipples. 
He teased them and provoked them until they jutted out sharply from 
his pale skin. Licking his fingers again, he trailed them down his 
taught stomach, teasing lightly at the hem of his pants before 
running the palm of his hand roughly over the front of his jeans. 
Kaoru moaned, his breath coming in shallow pants as he continued to 
massage his aching length through the rough fabric, creating the most 
delicious friction as his other hand pinched and circled around his 
sensitized and pert nipples. Slowly, he pulled down the zipper of 
the confining jeans, sliding them past his narrow hips. 
"Mmm…Die…" 
he sighed, bringing his hand back to his mouth and repeating his 
earlier treatment, suckling on each one, imitating Die's tongue, 
imagining the red head was giving his cock the exact same glorious 
treatment. Trembling slightly, Kaoru brought his hand downward and 
slid his silk boxers off until his erection was fully freed from its 
confines before he seized it in his trembling hands. 

"God……DIE!!!!" He screamed out loud as his slender hand
took hold of 
his hard flesh, stroking it roughly as he threw his head back in 
passionate reprieve. He continued up and down the length of his 
engorged manhood, teasing the tip with his thumb, spreading his first 
drops of silken liquid over the sensitive tip. His hips moved 
rapidly, thrusting with abandon into his warm hand, as it glided over 
and over his shaft. 

"Mmm…..God…DIE……HARDER!!" He screamed again as
he grasped his own 
member more vehemently, thrusting his hips upwards, creating the most 
glorious friction he'd ever imagined.

"YES!!!!….Die…..oh yes…….Ohhh…FUCK
ME!!!!…..aahhhhhhh!!!" He cried 
bringing himself closer and closer to his climax. Kaoru's eyes 
blurred, his stomach fluttered as he then imagined Die deep throating 
him, sucking on his hot cock, ramming a finger into his tight ass 
before his huge length fucked him again… roughly, thoroughly, 
completely. All he could think about was the red headed man…his
rock 
hard desire pushing slowly into him, hitting his perfect spot with 
ease…crying out his name in passion. 

His pace quickened, his senses failed, his cock trembled…all he
knew 
was that he needed Die…more than air, more then the pain, more
than 
anything….


"YEAH…MMM…….DIE!!!!!!! GOD…YESSSSSS!!!!!!!!"
Kaoru cried out as the 
sticky fluid flowed forth from him. He arched back while still 
stroking his length…his heart beating wildly in his chest, his 
breath coming in shallow pants as he attempted to return to reality. 

Suddenly his mobile (which he'd managed to leave in his pants
pocket) 
began to ring. `Damnit!!!!!! What the hell…I can't even
have a 
single moment of peace and contentment!!' He groaned through his 
shallow breaths and reached into the pocket that now hung at his 
knee. `It's just not meant to be…It's all in my god
damn head!' He 
screamed as he violently pressed the button on his 
phone. `FUCK!!!!!! Who the fuck wants to bother me now! `
He cursed 
as he held the phone to his chin.

"WHAT!!" He screamed in anger and forlorn helplessness.

"Kaoru?" The timid voice on the other line ventured.

`Oh God…' The pink haired man swallowed hard, "Die?"

~~~~~~~~~~

**eeps** more soon!! Gomen for making Totchi and Kyo so silly!! I 
just think they would be such a kawaii and funny couple and their 
bedroom antics……hehehe….maybe next chapter *winks* C&Cs
welcome as 
always!!! And thank you thank you to all those who commented 
before!!!!!

~H.

to be continued

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