Title: Ohayougozaimasu, Totchi, kajitsu kanaderu, ne? (Good morning, Totchi, Beautiful day to play (an
instrument) no? Part one...
Author: Mana Crystal
Rating: NC-17 (Though if your mature enough to handle the Yaoi, (Since I’m kinda only 15 and I’m writing
it...x_x) I don’t care if your 13. O_o;;) Also, all the parts of this fic have NC-17 pating on them because i don't feel like putting a different rating on thm.......................
Warnings: Blood, Mild violence (Hitting, slapping) , Lemon content, Lime content, Out Of Character and Context
^_^;;;;, all of it. X_x;;
Disclaimer: all standard crap apply’s.

*’s mean thought
#’s mean song lyric’s not always Dir en grey’s.
*’s in Italic’s mean another voice is arguing with the person.  (Basically a counter voice, like when your doing
something and you think *What’s the worst thing that could happen?* and then you think *I could die...* or
something.   That’s what the voice is.  But when it’s Toshiya’s and underlined it means it is his sub conscious.
Don’t ask me how he can talk to it. O_o;;; ....................... don’t get confused please....^_^;;;)

This particular fic is to make up for making Toshiya so evil in “To Be?”  Sorry Toshiya. ;_; oh and also I claim no
truth to any of this.  If any of it happened it is a -ca wink e dink- okay??  Not to mention the fact that I really think
that it was totally different... and I do mean different, I mean the little thing about Kyo and Toshiya moving in
together and all, I think that they were already living together when Dir en grey was formed.... So if Toshiya or
anyone other Dir en grey member happens to read this (Yeah right why the hell would they want to read fan fics?
And especially one by me. O_o;;) don’t sue me. ^____________________^;;; Also I know the story moves a bit
fast and everyone falls for each other quite soon, but that’s a’right.  Cause it slows down after the first part.  (AND
GET’S BETTER DON’T STOP READING!!! OH AND THIS HAS A LEMON WARNING ON IT!!! er....and if you
like good lemon scene’s don’t read this. X_x I’m not very good at writing the lemon scene’s.  Though when I write
nothing but a full lemon fic, I write them in great detail.  But this isn’t a lemon FIC it only has a few Lemon
SCENE’S so don’t expect me to go all out and use five pages of good typing space for a sex scene.  I only use up
to two pages for a Lemon SCENE. ^_^;;;;)   Um....also the titles to the parts and to the fic may not be totally
correct in their Japanese words.  I am armed only with a online dictionary and it doesn’t always come up with
correct translation of two words.  So....bear with me. ^_^;; I come as close as I can with what I have. I’m sorry to
all you fluent Japanese speaking people.  X_x if you feel like it you can send me the correct translations of the
titles (I have them written in English underneath the Japanese) please feel free to do so. ^_^;;;;


Fic
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Standing at the door of the studio Hara Toshimasa (Remember, in japan first names are last and last
names are first.  Therefor it would be Toshimasa Hara in America. ^_^;;-MC) gripped his bass and took a deep
breath. *It’s okay, Toshiya...Okay.  Nothing is going to happen.  Just remember that they are a visual band,
looking for a bassist.  Nothing bad will happen.  What could go wrong?  You’re good.  You know you’re
good...What’s the worst that could happen?**They could send you away.  Say you’re not good enough...* *Are
they going to be wearing their make-up I wonder* Toshimasa sniffed, fixed his shirt and his skirt, then looked
around. *You’re stalling for time,  Toshiya....* *Yeah...Just go in there tell them your name is Hara Toshimasa
that you go by Toshiya on stage.  It’ll be fine.  If they don’t like you, you can go to that other band that called you.*
Toshimasa nodded his head, frowned and looked down at himself. *is this outfit nice enough?* He was wearing a
black skirt that went down to his ankle’s with a belly shirt, same color.  His boots went to his knees and were
platform.  He looked very sexy but still couldn’t decide if they wanted him to come in clothes he wore everyday,
like what he had on, or some costume.*Oh well* Toshimasa tugged once more on his shirt and walked in looking
at the floor.  He walked down a hall and pushed open the door that was to the room he was told to go to. 
“Hey, Kao-chan” a voice purred out a little way away from Toshimasa.  “Who’s this?”
“Huh?  I don’t know.  Why don’t you ask him Shin-chan.”  Another voice said.
“Hey, what’s your name kid?”  A new voice asked. *Look up.  You can’t put names to faces if you don’t
look.  They can’t even see you.  Look up.* “Kid..?”
“Oh...sorry.”  Toshimasa raised his eyes slightly and then his head.  Looking around he saw three, no four
people.  One of the men was laying on the couch asleep, Toshimasa smiled slightly.  The other three were doing
various things around the room.  There was one man with Red hair, who looked surprisingly like David Bowie,
with his puffy hair on the top and the long hair that fell down his back, he was dressed in all black, pant’s, shirt
and shoes.  Black and leather.  Shifting his gaze Toshimasa found himself only about three feet from a man who
was dressed in a dress, with his hair up and make-up on.  He was very pretty, and had an almost innocent air about
him.  Though Toshimasa was more or less positive that the purring voice had come from him.   The last man he
looked at had reddish pink hair that stuck out all over the place.  Toshimasa figured that it was more or less natural
as the only person in the room that seemed to be “Dressed up” was the pretty cross-dresser.  Though Toshimasa
would bet his life that, that was what the man usually wore.  The man with the sticky out hair wore ripped jeans
and a shirt.  Shifting his gaze back to the man on the couch, Toshimasa could tell he was short. His lips were full,
though small.  His’s eye’s, while closed, showed to be a bit small as well.  Everything about the sleeping man was
small and cute.  Toshimasa burst out laughing.  Doubled over he couldn’t have stopped himself if he tried.
“What’s wrong with him??”  The red head asked poking the new arrival.
“Ah.....Kawaii!!”  Toshimasa’s laughed died down to a giggle as he pointed towards the sleeping man.
“NAH!!!!  Don’t let Kyo hear you say that word.  At least not directed towards him...”  The innocent
looking one told Toshimasa, eyeing him a bit suspiciously.
“Okay, come on people....what’s your name kid?” The sticky out haired man asked Toshimasa stepping
forward a little.
“Hara Toshimasa.”
“Ok, Toshimasa-san, you’re the one who our producer said was rather good.” 
“Hai, I guess I’m him.”  Toshimasa nodded slightly.
“Well okay.  Here’s one of our song’s see if you can play it.”  The man handed him the song and
Toshimasa looked down at it in surprise.  This?? This was simple.  What did they think he was?   With a slight
growl Toshimasa scanned over the song then dropped it and played the whole bass part from memory of what he
had read.  Though the music had been simple Toshimasa played it with such beauty that even the sleeping man
woke and stared.
“There.”  Looking up he found everyone was smiling slightly.  Except the pretty boy who had a slight
scowl on his face.
“Welcome to Dir en grey, Toshimasa-san, I’m Niikura Kaoru, that’s Ando Daisuke, but call him Die,”
Kaoru said pointing at the red head, who nodded and smiled at Toshimasa. “This is Terachi Shinya, Call him
Shinya.”  Kaoru moved his hand and touched the scowling cross dresser on the shoulder. “And that back there is
Niimura Tooru.”  Kaoru pointed towards the man on the couch who had since gotten up and moved forward
slowly, as if still sleeping.
“Call me Toshiya.  That’s what everyone else does.” Toshiya shrugged and glanced around again before
deciding that he needed to sit.  Making his way to a chair he plopped down and stared around the room.  Kaoru
was staring at him, though he was trying to make it seem like he wasn’t, Die and teasing Shinya and Kyo was just
walking around with his eyes shut.  Toshiya really didn’t know what to do so he shrugged and picked up his
instrument and fiddles with it, plucking out a tune a bit bored.  Getting up Toshiya wandered over and sat down on
the couch.  Leaning back he closed his eyes.  And not even meaning to, fell asleep.



“So....Kao-chan....”  Kaoru felt Shinya’s arms snake around his waist and pinch his inner thighs.  “What
do you think of our new Bassist?   Yummy, isn’t he?”  Shinya whispered into Kaoru’s ear and giggled.
“Yeah he is Shin-chan.  But I got work to do so, flirt with me later.  Okay?”  Kaoru smiled at Shinya and
patted his head. 
“Hai. I will.  You can count on it.”  Shinya pouted and poked Kaoru before wandering off to do something
or other with his drums. (GAH! HENTAI MINDED PEOPLE!!! o_o;;;-MC)  Kaoru looked back down and finished
the song he was working on.  Turning around he came face to face with Die.
“Ah......Die-kun, you scared me.  Don’t sneak up on me like that...”  Kaoru glanced around and shivered
as his heart pounded from the scare.
“Aw, Kaoru-kun scared of little old Die?”  Die teased and snickered slightly.
  Kaoru shruged and smacked Kyo as he bumped into him for the fifth time.  “Go back to sleep Kyo-chan.”
“Can’t, pretty boy took my couch.”  Kyo grumbled and kept walking.  Looking over Kaoru saw Toshiya
asleep on the couch. 
“Eh...okay Leader-sama.” Die smirked and sauntered off to wake “The Kid” and tell him he was
occupying a dead man’s sleeping space.  Kaoru shook his head and walked out of the room to give Yoshiki the
papers.


Toshiya felt someone shaking him.  With a small growl he opened one eye, shifted his weight and bit the
hand that was shaking him.  Drifting back to sleep he faintly heard someone screaming in pain and two other
voices laughing (Kaoru had come back-MC).
“Ah....Die, looks like Toshiya doesn’t want you to wake him up.”  Toshiya heard a voice from a distance
and tried to pull himself up from a pool of sleep to find out what all the commotion about.  Groggily he opened
both eyes and squinted against the harsh glare of the lights.  Kaoru, Kyo, and Shinya were standing in front of
Shinya’s drums.  Kyo and Kaoru were laughing so hard they were doubled over and Shinya, though sending
Toshiya hate glares, was trying unsuccessfully to hold back giggles.  Die was hopping around waving his hand in
the air swearing in English. (Okay, I don’t KNOW if Die knows anything other then Japanese, but for my fic he
does know swear words in English. ~_^-MC)
“Bloody fucking, Jesus on a stick, hell!!!”  Die screamed.  Turning on Toshiya he grabbed the younger
man and shook him roughly.  “You bit me you little shit.  Bit me!! I’m....BLEEDING!!!”  Die pulled his hand up
to his face and stared at the trickle of blood.  Pulling his other hand back he planted a slap against his new band
members face.  Toshiya fell back clutching his face where he could already feel a bruise forming.  Looking at the
blood and then feeling the pain in his face, was to much for Toshiya, who promptly fainted dead away and fell back
sprawling out on the floor.


“Oh, that’s great, Die-kun.  Knock our new bassist out.  Do you even think before you do stuff?”  Kaoru
frowned and walked over to the blackish blue haired beauty.  Picking him up Kaoru lifted him and laid him on the
couch.  Toshiya’s eyes fluttered open and registered Kaoru’s arms leaving him and looked a bit surprised before
realized that he was laying on the couch.
“Ouch...my face...”  Toshiya murmured and stood running over to a mirror and checking his face.
“And you call me vain?”  Shinya muttered and poked Die with a glare.
“Eh...Toshimasa-san, I’m sorry.”  Die went up behind the younger man and smiled into the mirror at him.
Toshiya smiled back and shrugged slightly with tears in his eyes from the pain. 
“It’s okay.  And I told you, call me Toshiya.”  Toshiya turned around and smiled a, bit uncertain, up into
Die’s face.  Die lifted a hand and traced the light bruise on Toshiya’s cheek, caused by him.
“I’ll just call you Totchi.  That can be what we call you.”  Die murmured just loud enough for everyone to
hear.  Toshiya smiled and nodded still looking up into Die’s eyes. *He’s so strong...GAH!  Toshiya!  What are you
thinking?  He’s a MAN, and you’re a MAN, no matter what you wear...stop being a hentai.* Toshiya blushed and
looked away.  Pulling back from Die’s hand and his eyes Toshiya excused himself and almost ran to the bathroom.
Everyone went back to doing what they were doing with a few grumbles from Kyo before being told that his couch
was now free.  Smiling he promptly dived on to the cushions and slept.. 


Two month’s later


(there might be some points in the fic that state that Toshiya has only been in the band for a short time, like two or
three days, For the sake of the Fic I went back after the fic was done and changed it so that it was Two Month’s
after Toshiya joined the band.  I’m sorry for these spot’s, but I went through and changed as many as I could, but
I’m not sure I got them all. ;_; Gomen, minna-san.-MC

Kyo leaned against the wall and smirked at his band mates. *So that’s how it is it...* Kyo though to
himself and looked his friends over.  Shinya was sitting at his drums twisting his hands in his lap glancing over at
Die every other minute and the minutes between those, glaring murderously at Toshiya. *How much you wanna bet
he’s gonna go cry tonight?* Kyo frowned and turned his gaze to Die who every minute alternated his gaze from
Shinya to Toshiya.  To bad that every time he looked at Shinya, Shinya looked away, and every time Shinya looked
at Die, Die looked away. *Well with two pretty men, now Die’s gonna really be in trouble.* Kyo smirked bigger
and turned his gaze to Kaoru. *Silently suffering.* Kyo thought.  Kaoru kept shooting Die evil looks and then
looking at Toshiya when he caught Die’s eye.  Die got the message.  But didn’t seem to care.  Toshiya just sat on
the couch staring down at the floor. *Pour Toshiya.  In two month’s he’s managed to push Dir en grey into a storm
of jealousy.  And he doesn’t even realize it.  Doesn’t even realize the storm that’s going to hit the fan....* Kyo
shook his head and walked over to Toshiya, ignoring the looks he got for all the other members, and sat beside him
touching his shoulder.
“Totchi?”  Kyo smiled as the younger man raised his eyes to look at Kyo. *Well I can certainly see WHY
Die and Kaoru have fallen for him...*
“Hai...”  Toshiya looked at Kyo a bit strangely.
“You wanna go get a drink with me, Die, Shinya and the Leader-sama after practice, which ends right
about...”  Kyo looked at the clock. “Now.”
“Oh...Hai....I would enjoy that...”  Toshiya smiled slightly and nodded vigorously, seeing as no one in the
group had EVER asked him to do anything in these last month’s. 
“Kick ass.” (Okay so I can’t actually SEE anyone from Dir en grey saying this....well besides Die, but...oh
well. ^_______^-MC) Kyo stood up and ran over to Kaoru almost tripping in his platforms.  “Kao-chan....you
wanna come for a drink with me and the others????”  Kyo leaned into Kaoru and whispered in his ear.  Kaoru
shrugged and nodded
“Sure Kyo.  Go get Die and Shinya.”  Kaoru stood and pushed a piece of hair away.  Kyo skipped over to
Die and Shinya asking each of them.  They agreed and everyone piled into Die’s car.  Kyo smiled to himself as he
sat smashed against Toshiya and the window. *This is gonna be fun.  Not to mention speed up the explosion.*
With a evil little glance around Kyo began to try and figure out how to play matchmaker.


With a small giggle Toshiya put his head down on the table.  “This is fun...”  He giggled again and looked
around.  Kyo was dancing with some guy on the dance floor, Die was sitting next to him drinking his...sixth or
seventh beer, Shinya was sleeping with his head on Die’s shoulder and Kaoru was on the other side of Toshiya
drunk off his ass and loving every minute of it.  Giggling Toshiya leaned over on Kaoru and poked him.
“Totchi-kun....don’t poke me!!”  Kaoru yelled and laughed poking Toshiya back.  Snuggling up against
Kaoru, Toshiya glared at the dancers on the dance floor.
“Kao-kun....I wanna dance....dance with me!!” Toshiya grabbed Kaoru’s hand and waved it around
laughing.
“Okay Totchi, let’s dance.”  Kaoru chuckled and stood up pulling Toshiya towards the dance floor.  They
got there right as a slow song came on.  Toshiya glanced around and shrugged.  Threading his arms around
Kaoru’s neck Toshiya leaned against the other man, who wrapped his arms around Toshiya’s waist and held him
close.  Toshiya smiled and hiccuped slightly.  He noticed Die watching them with a sad look on his face.  Shinya
had woken up and Toshiya could see he was staring at them happily.
“Hehehehe Kao-kun, Shinya thinks I’m gonna take Die away from him...are they together??”  Toshiya
looked up at Kaoru.
“Ah....no.  But Shin-kun likes Die. I’m surprised you haven’t noticed...”  Kaoru told Toshiya leaning
down to whisper in his ear.  “And Die likes you.  But I do too...”
“Hai, Kao-kun.  I know...”  Toshiya giggles and poked Kaoru’s stomach.  “But I don’t like him.  He
should be with Shinya....”
“Hai.  They should...who do you like Totchi?”  Kaoru pulled away and looked down into the younger
man’s face. 
“Ah....I’m not telling!”  Toshiya giggled and pushed himself up on the tip of his toes and drunkenly
pulled Kaoru in for a kiss.  Their lips were only a half inch from each other when Kyo fell into them.  The short
man laughed and slapped away people’s hands when they attempted to help him.
“Totchi-chan....come home with me....I don’t wanna be alone.  I’m SCARED!!!  AND MY TEDDY
BEAR, PEI PEI, (Hehehehe anyone know who Pei Pei (Pronounced Pay Pay I think) is??  YES THAT’S RIGHT!!!
It’s the Panda Express bear. **Grin** I got one for my birthday.  The manager at the Panda Express told me they
used to sell them, but not anymore, and that the one he gave me is the last one they have. He’s so cute!!!-MC) IS
AT THE CLEANER!!!!”  Kyo clung to Toshiya and wailed.  Toshiya laughed and kissed Kaoru’s cheek then
pulled Kyo towards the door drunkenly. 
“Okay...hai, I’ll come home with you!”  Toshiya laughed and yelled pulling Kyo outside.



“Totchi-kun, it’s dark!!!”  Kyo clung to Toshiya and whimpered.
“Ah, Kyo-kun it’s just the lights.” Flipping in the lights Toshiya and Kyo stumbled through the apartment
and fell into a laughing heap on the floor.  Toshiya looked over at Kyo and smiled slightly.  Kyo touched Toshiya’s
cheek and they both fell silent.  Staring at Kyo, Toshiya blushed slightly and rolled over to lay on his side facing
Kyo.  Poking him he smiled slightly.
“Totchi?  Will you stay tonight?”  Kyo stared at Toshiya.
“Hai Kyo...I’ll stay.”  Toshiya and Kyo stared at each other before Kyo leaned in closer to Toshiya and
kissed him.  The kiss was sweet and tender, but at the same time, void of emotion, and hungry for physical contact.
Toshiya kissed back eagerly and wrapped his arms around the smaller man.  Parting his lips to allow Kyo’s tongue
enter and explore he smiled doing did the same and explored Kyo’s mouth, un abound.
“Mmmmm, Totchi.”  Kyo purred as they broke the kiss.  Standing up he pulled Toshiya towards the
bedroom stripping off his clothes as they went.  Toshiya stumbled and laughed, as he was still quite drunk.
Ripping his clothes off as well he fell onto the bed.  Kyo fell on top of him kissing his face all over.  Toshiya bit
down on Kyo’s lower lip and ran a hand through his hair resting his hand on the back of Kyo’s neck, and
smashing their faces together.  Kyo moaned into Toshiya’s mouth and moved his hand down to finger Toshiya’s
nipples, tracing circle around them, causing Toshiya to shiver. 
“Kyo...Kyo, oh...”  Toshiya arched his back as Kyo’s mouth left his and dropped kisses down to one
nipple, biting down on the sensitive flesh.  Toshiya moaned and griped onto Kyo’s hair causing the small Vocalist
to wince and shake his head slightly getting Toshiya to loosen his grip.  Kyo let his hand drift slowly,
painstakingly slow, down Toshiya’s stomach, leaving it to rest right above the spot his pubic hair began.  With a
moan Toshiya pulled Kyo down on top of him smashing their lips together once again. 
“Ah...Totchi-kun, so impatient.”  Kyo said once they had broken apart, gasping from breath he pushed to
young bassist down on the bed and kissed his way down the beautiful body.  Stopping at Toshiya’s chest he once
again took a nipple into his mouth and swirled his tongue around it slowly feeling it harden in his mouth.  Nipping
it gently he moved to the other nipple and bit it, causing Toshiya to whimper and thrust his hips upward against
Kyo’s stomach.  With a smirk Kyo felt himself harden fully and shuttered at the feel of Toshiya’s length pressed
against his stomach.  Kyo kept sucking on Toshiya’s nipples and moved his hand to trace a pattern into the inside
of Toshiya’s thigh, right below the ball sac enticing a moan from the bassist. 
“Kyo...please....”  Toshiya whimpered pressing his hips against Kyo hand.
“Totchi....*hic*” Kyo moaned and pulled his mouth away from Toshiya’s chest.  Sliding down he moved
between Toshiya’s legs and ran a finger up the other man’s length.  Moving his fingers along the soft flesh Toshiya
moaned loudly and thrust his hips upward.  Kyo giggled, still drunk and wrapped his hand round Toshiya’s length,
moving it up and down slowly.  With a gasp Toshiya thrust into Kyo’s hand searching for release.  Taking his
hand away Kyo planted a kiss on Toshiya’s thigh.  Moaning because of the disappearance of Kyo’s hand Toshiya
snaked a hand down to finish what Kyo had left.  Kyo, seeing this promptly bit Toshiya’s hand and licked up the
younger man’s length.  Toshiya dropped his hand to his side.  Opening his mouth Kyo enveloped Toshiya’s length
and waited for a moment to allow himself to adjust to the hard flesh the was Toshiya.  After a moment Kyo began
moving his head up and down, slowly, Taking Toshiya down his throat.  Toshiya bucked his hips into the wetness
as he felt Kyo’s tongue swirling around his length.  In a desperate measure to get farther into Kyo’s mouth Toshiya
began pumping his hips.  Kyo let him for a minute then pushed Toshiya’s hips down, pinning them with his hands.
Toshiya moaned and shook as he came closer to release.  Sensing this Kyo removed his mouth from Toshiya and
grabbed a bottle of lotion from the beside table.  (HEHEHEHE-MC) Toshiya moaned at the loss and shuttered
laying on the bed moaning and throwing his head from side to side.  Suddenly something wet and cold dripped
onto Toshiya’s ass.  He shuddered and reached down running his finger against the wetness and bringing it to his
face. *Lotion? Uh-oh...* Toshiya giggled and looked up at Kyo. 
“Kyo-kun...”  Toshiya was practically begging.  Kyo slid on finger into Toshiya’s opening and then
another.  Hissing at the intrusion and at the stinging pain. Toshiya shut his eyes and tried to pull away from Kyo’s
finger.
“Ah....Totchi-luv....it’ll hurt at first but it’ll feel real good after a few seconds...please?”  Kyo begged
laying on top of Toshiya
“Okay...”  Toshiya was still to drunk to remember that he was a virgin.  With both sex’s.  Kyo smiled and
moved his finger in and out of Toshiya’s opening.  Toshiya bucked and moaned when Kyo’s finger brushed against
his spot, and Kyo moved his fingers over the spot again, massaging it and causing the man under him to moan
louder.  Removing his finger Kyo arranged himself against Toshiya and slowly entered him trying to ignore the ear
piercing scream that Toshiya emitted. *Oh, my god, he’s killing me* Toshiya screamed as Kyo finally got his full
length inside him and gave him a moment to adjust.  When Toshiya’s screams died away Kyo began to move
slowly gripping Toshiya and kissing his face and neck trying to ease the pain.  After a few moment’s, just like Kyo
said, Toshiya began to forget the pain and feel the pleasure.  And after a few more moments began meeting Kyo’s
thrust’s with his own, with his legs wrapped around his hips.  Smiling and moaning Kyo dropped his hand down
and wrapped it around Toshiya’s length.  Pumping his hand in time with his thrust’s Kyo gripped Toshiya and
slammed into him, filling the young Bassist with his seed.  The warmth inside him, and the speed of Kyo’s hand
send Toshiya over the edge and he came spilling his seed onto Kyo and himself.  Kyo pulled out of his young lover
and collapsed on the bed pulling Toshiya to him.
“Kyo....oh god....”  Toshiya mumbled and cuddled up against Kyo, falling asleep in the smaller man’s
arms.  Kyo kissed Toshiya’s forehead gently and fell asleep as well.





Hahahahahaha You KNOW that is not where it ends.  Not with Die and Kaoru drooling over the new Bassist of Dir
en grey.  But what will happen?? Will Die get with Toshiya??  Will Shinya kill the new recruit??  Hehehehe just
read the next part and find out. ~_^;;

~Mana Crystal.

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