~raison de'tre~

by Missa Yoruku and ShizuOgawa

Part 1

One upon a time, in a far far away land, two brother lived in there.The elder one called Die and the younger one called Kaoru. Both of their parents was dead early so they had to live on their own. Lucky all the folks lived there was nice so the two could carry on their living without any problem.

Time passed by. The two brothers had grown up into two handsome young men. However, slowly, Kaoru-the younger one realized there was something special within the feeling he had toward his brother. Die, who has taken great care of him, protected him and sometime made fun of him...it was a feeling beyond the emotion he should have to a brother, also beyond the emotion he should to his own flesh and blood. To his horror, he found that that kind of feeling should only be name as. Love.

Still, Kaoru had known so well no matter how he feel to Die, it had been sinful anyway. Beside, what Die supposed to think if he discovered how Kaoru feel about him?

~No, it must ruin our peaceful live.~ Kaoru thought to himself . ~and I'll never, ever let anything to ruin our peace!~

So, Kaoru kept all his feeling to himself, but sometime he couldn't help but feel something tugged his heart when he watching Die had fun with many girls (even boys)around him- Surely Die was handsome and popular enough to attract many girls and boys came to him!

On the other hand, Kaoru had no idea, sometime Die was bewitched to gazed at his younger brother quiet face, and so did his beautiful eyes-he found himself for a moment unable to take his eyes off Kaoru...he never tell anyone, especially to Kaoru, about it, about his secret happiness. At the same time, a sinful feeling was build inside Die following by his secret happiness.

~No way in Hell I should thought about something like that! Kaoru's your brother! It's just...too sinful!

Day after day, the two hid their true feeling behind, never told each other about their secret, so day went on peacefully. All the neighborhood around like Die.(Kaoru...he's nice too, but he's so gloomy somewhat^^) Altogether, that couple of brothers were welcomed, still the folks couldn't help but wondered why Die had already 28 years old but he never mention about marry.^^

However, their happiness moment could last for too long(they can't happy together forever...the story must go on u know^^).One day the tow went out to have horse ridding. It was another beautiful, peaceful of them it seemed. But all the sudden Kaoru's horse went out of control. It jumped; crushed wildly and tried everything it could to thrown Kaoru off from it's back.

After hearing Kaoru's yelling, Die rush to his brother and tried to stop the horse. It was so mad it kicked on Die's horse, causing Die fall off and hit the ground with his head.(GOMEN~I'm not sure how to descried an accident like this!)

Kaoru, who've also been thrown off but lucky wasn't injured badly, rushed his beloved Die to the hospital (I supposed they have a hospital in that far far away land ne^^). After all it was too late, die had already seriously injured. He went into a coma and didn't wake up again.

You could imagine how miserable Kaoru was by now. It took 2 years for Die to recover. Within that long 2 years, Kaoru had taken great care of Die, talk to him just as Die had once done to Kaoru himself. During those countless silence lonely evening in the hospital, all Kaoru could do was sat beside Die. Gazed at his sleeping face, hoped he'll wake up again. Soon it became the only happy moment in Kaoru's life.

Perhaps even the God in heaven had heard Kaoru soundless preying ...2 tears later...after his long big sleep, amazingly Die opened his eyes again...

"...Mummm...where am I?"

"B-Brother!?" Kaoru almost couldn't trust his own ears, he thought he must be dreaming, just as he had dreamed about this thousand and thousand times before...he heard Die's voice again! He turned around and saw that...yes! That's true! Die finally woke!

"Humm...Kaoru? Is that you? Why I can't see your face clearly?"

"It's okay, Brother! You had been in coma for a long time."

"Coma? WHAT?"

"You don't remember?" Kaoru felt nervous now. "You had fallen from the horse's back when you tried to save me! It happened 2 tears ago! "

"What? I... saved you?" Die couldn't recall it. He did remember Kaoru was his younger brother...but what else? Die tried to recall it again. But it was all-blank.

"No!...you can't get up!" Kaoru pushed Die back to his bed again when Die tried to rise himself.

"I can't remember..." Die frowned. Damn! Why he just couldn't? Somehow he felt it was something in the part he should never forget...something important to him...

Kaoru replaced Die's blanket and confess him. "Don't worry. Brother Everything will be fine."Yes, Kaoru was so happy to worry about any thing after he had heard Die called his name again...

~I love you... but you'll never know...

Kaoru thought to himself while Die went back to sleep. As he used to do in the part 2 years, Kaoru began to stare at Die's sleeping figure again, lost in his own thought...

~You saved my life and I will pay you for this for the rest of my life....my Brother...

Can the couple of brothers share their peaceful live again after all? Sadly the answer's no...we can't turned back the head of time anyway. In the nearly future, both of them will never be the same again, so do their relationship.

And that's the beginning of our story.

To be continue....

What do u think?tell me!