Part 4’s here! Dedicated to VM, Mana Caumi, Darkness Lone and those 
who enjoy the story. This part really moved me when I was writing it!Q_Q

Part 4

~Shit! It must be the strangest day I’ve ever have!~ Die thought to 
himself while making his way to return home, and it was already after mid 
night.

As the matter of fact, Die had a pretty strange day today.

Later in that morning, Die tried to find his brother, but Kaoru was 
missing after he stormed out of their place. Where have he been? However, 
he didn’t have time to figure it all out. Because at noon, he had been 
tell that Kei was missing, too. (Tochi kidnapped her before he went up 
to the mountain to meet Kaoru, so he can make sure that Kei won’t give 
in Kaoru’s way^^) What’s the matter with them? Die really didn’t 
give a hint!

During the whole day, Die was running out of way to find both Kei and 
Kaoru, but end up finding nothing at all. It seemed that the two had 
just simply vanished in the mid-air.

Until now he still can’t help but wondered Kaoru’s strange and 
overexciting reaction in the morning. His heart tugged while he thinking of 
his beloved younger brother. In addition, an indescribable empty feeling 
stroked him. The same emptiness always strikes him when…when what? Oh 
yes, he could feel the same emptiness every time Kaoru vanished out of 
his view. To Die surprise, he found himself worrying about his younger 
brother so badly…worse than he worrying about his girlfriend.

Now he came back, entered to the house, and saw Kaoru lay on the floor, 
unconscious, almost no sense of life could be fond upon his ghastly 
pale face.

“Hey! Kaoru wake up!” He hurried to his brother side and enfolded 
him.While he was trying to wake Kaoru. Something even stranger happened, 
even Die himself couldn’t understand why, but incredibly a lot of 
images flashed back to him again, those images and pieces of memories about 
his missing past. Slowly but unmistakably those memories went all the 
way back into his mind, like a whole box of puzzles finally went back to 
their place, and they had never been so vivid before.

***

Kaoru heard a familiar voice was calling to him, and a pair of strong 
arms wrapped around him. He opened his eyes, and saw Die, embraced the 
purple haired in his arms tightly, a worried look on his face. Where was 
he now? What time’s it? Kaoru couldn’t tell. All he knew was that 
amazingly; he was in their house again.

“Hey. Brother.” Kaoru said calmly(he still half awake…O.O;;;).

“What’re you talking about? O_O;;; You’ve gone all day and no where 
to be seen in the town, when I returned home, you’re there, laying on 
the floor. What happened to you today?”

~What happened to me today?~ Kaoru questioned himself, then all the 
strange incidents he had had today slipped into his mind. He himself could 
hardly believe what he had today…Did he really go out to visit the 
Witch in his cave? Did he really see the SD size Devil in the moonlight? 
Those memories seemed so surreal, impossible to be true, but it was also 
too vivid to be a dream. Kaoru looked at his right hand, the mark was 
still there, reminded him that everything, which had just happened were 
true.

“What’s that?” Die narrowed his eyes when he saw a 
strange-looking’s mark upon Kaoru’s right head.

“Nothing.” Kaoru murmured and hid his right hand from Die. Also he 
finally noticed their embarrass position, so he hurried to rise himself 
with his feet.

Afterward Kaoru looked up and found Die gazing at him in the way he had 
never done before, causing his heart beat faster.
~Why he stared at me as if he had never seen me in his whole life? 
Why?~ A large [?] floated upon Kaoru’s mind. The sight of Die made him 
became more and more uneasy to stand. So he began to walked out and 
said.” I think I should leave now.”

“Don’t go. I have something important to say.”

“About what?” Kaoru froze, then turned himself to Die again. 

“About us.”

“Okay. Go ahead, please.” Kaoru replied, and held his breath waited 
for Die to begin his talk.

“I remember everything in the past.”

“Re…Really?” Kaoru’s eyes widened with joy and surprise.

“Yes.” Die nodded.” Strangely enough, the most vivid memory is our 
childhood. I remember it again. I recalled how the two of us once used 
to be together, and how happy we used to be. Do you still remember?”

“Of course I do.” Kaoru lowed his eyebrows, he did remember they 
childhood well. Those were the days fell with joy and happiness.

“I’m glad that you still remember.” Die grinned. ”But something 
changed, something changed within a second. I remember it happened shortly 
after we went into high school. All the sudden you became unwilling to 
come to me, every time I try to invite you join the company, you always 
said ‘No.’ and said you want to be alone. You became so cold that you 
finally made me believe you hate me.” 

“That’s not true!!!”What the Hell can that baka thought I hate him?

“ Still you was with me but I don’t know you anymore…why?” Die 
looked up into Kaoru’s eyes and went on. “Why you kept so distance to me 
all these time? Did I do something that upset you?”

“You hadn’t.” Kaoru sighed slightly, You’re wrong, Brother, no 
matter what happened, it wasn’t your fault.

“So what wrong with you? Why you don’t just tell me the reason? I’m 
your brother! ”

“…”Kaoru didn’t said anything in reply. Although the answer had 
already in his mind, but he couldn’t speak it out. He just simply 
couldn’t, no matter how hard he try. Finally, he only could say. “I’m 
leaving.”

However, before the younger man could make his way out. Die took him by 
his wrist unexpectedly, so tight it causing Kaoru to cried in pain. 
“Hey! Let go! I said I’m leaving!”

“Listen to me. Please stay, will you?”

“…”The purple haired gazed at the older man in surprised, Die had 
never been that serious before. He realized it must be something serious. 
So he stopped and turned to face his brother, then Die let go of his 
wrist.

“I-ehh-I myself wasn’t sure how to put it right, but I think I should 
try my best to explain it to you. It’s something I had never tell 
anyone this before,”

Kaoru kept staring at Die, didn’t said anything. A strange silence 
fell totally upon them before Die spoke again.

“ Sometime I’d have nightmare…a nightmare about I was in the middle 
of no where, tried to find someone, but I didn’t know who that person 
are, but I know that person was needing me, calling out to me 
somewhere. So I reached out my arms as far as I could but I touch nothing in the 
middle of darkness, I tried so hard but still I found nothing, it 
really drive me crazy.” Kaoru noticed the pain expression within his 
brother’s eyes; it was painful for Kaoru to see his beloved Brother upset, 
as if Die’s sorrow could also eat into himself.

“It’s such a strange dream but…God! I’m so stupid…why I hadn’t 
never realized it…until now…”Die reached out his fingers to caress 
Kaoru’s face, and Kaoru didn’t resist him~…don’t stop, please…it feel 
so good…~ it’s all Kaoru had in mind. Fuzzily he heard Die went on.” 
It really took me long time to work it out. I remember now…the one 
I’m looking for is you.”

The red haired took a deep breath before he continued. “I love you. 
Kaoru”

He said that…eventually he said that…could it be real? The purple 
head was no longer sure himself was sober or not. He felt helplessly lost. 
Until Die’s voice pulled him back to reality again.


“Ehh! I don’t mean as a brother, I mean-” Die added one more 
sentence and blushed after a long, long moment of embarrass silence. 

“It’s okay! I understand!” Kaoru replied quietly, he went redden, 
too. 

“But what about Kei? I’m sure you don’t want to hurt her.” Kaoru 
asked bitterly.

“Of course I don’t want to hurt her. She’s a nice girl, and both of 
us know each other quite well, you can said we’re happy to be 
together. However, I’ve realized it doesn’t work. Something’s missing. 
Something’s lacking in me. It’s a terrible hunger that neither Kei nor 
another girls can fill, there’s only one who can fill it. You.” Unsure 
what the purple head might reply, he looked up to Kaoru again 
nervously.

Slightly Kaoru sighed, and wrapped both his arms around the red haired, 
then buried his face into Die chests.” I love you, too. Brother. 
You’re the only one I’ve ever loved. I’ve loved you since…I forget when 
it started. I don’t think you really understood how very much I love 
you. But I feared that I might scare you away from me if you figure out 
my true feeling. No, I knew I *must* scare you away. That’s why I 
didn’t dare to come near you. If I did try once. I knew for sure I 
wouldn’t stand it anymore. ” Kaoru could felt warm tear drops running down 
his cheeks. ”I had been waiting for heard it for so long. It hurts a 
lot.” 

“Don’t cry Kaoru…It’s all my fault.”

It’s hurt to see Kaoru crying. Die gently wiped the purple head’s 
tear away. He cured himself. Why he had been so blind to see how much 
Kaoru’ve suffered though out so many years? “It’s all my fault.”

“Brother…”

“Don’t call me brother any more. Call me Die from now on, please.”

“Okay, Die.” Kaoru smiled slightly, again tears fell within his eyes, 
but that time they were tears for joy. Maybe all he will die in 
tomorrow or lost his soul…but it really didn’t matter…at least at that 
moment, Die *did* love him, so what else could he ask?

Die embraced the younger old ever tightly, and tenderly kissed along 
Kaoru’s cheeks to dry the younger man’s tears, then their lips met and 
locked into a passion kiss before they collapsed down to the bed. The 
two had waited for that moment for so long…(Please imagine what happen 
next by yourself, I can’t write more, gomen.)


*
At the same time, inside Toshiya’s cave…

Kei: Let me kiss you, honey…*force herself on poor Tochi*

Toshiya: I’m not your HONEY!*runs away and hides*HOLY SHIT!!! Somebody 
help me to get rib of that weird woman!!!><

To be continue…

What do u thinks about this? Wah! I want to be kidnap by Tochi, too! I 
feel so bad for my poor eng…I really feel sorry for my eng 
teacher*sigh* It’s quite a long night which I have to use two charters to write 
all the incidents down…strange…ne, see u later
To be continue...

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