He cracked open his eyes; his sight blurred with red, when he moved dizziness hit his head causing a soft almost heard groan. A flash a pain surged though him and he could still hear his friends crying out for him. Someone was not hitting the door hard with something. His vision cleared into white blaring around him. There was a crack as the door gave way, someone was screaming in horror at the sight of him. I knew you would scream when you saw me. I am that disgusting to you. I never wanted to be. I can see you.. all of you. Looking so shocked.

There was a gasp from the red headed man as the one with blue hair turned to his lover’s harms sobbing as he called out his name and asked why? His eyes closed again, and he felt darkness wrap around him again. There was a soft numbness that made him relaxed, then nothing but dark. Though piercing the dark was a sweet giggle soft and light. It sounded far away. Who’s there? Where am I? The giggle almost sounded closer, He could see someone, it was very faint. Then came a voice, it sounded though it was echoing around him. “Who I am? You should know.” Who are you? Why can I not see you? Stop hiding from me! I don't find this funny! In response he was given laughter, soft and sweet as a boy about the same size as him came in to view. The boy was childish looking, dressing a what looked like a schoolboys uniform. I’ll ask again who are you? He looked over the boy in his darkness. Now sharing it with him. Dressed in black shorts, jacket and tie with a white shirt under it. The only thing off about he boy was he wore a black top hat and knee high blacks leather platform boots. (hehe can anyone guess who?! ^_^ ) His skin was pale framed in neatly cropped black hair. In the see of that soft luring pale flesh set too dark eyes that stared at him with interest.

“I am here to help you” He gave a soft snort refusing the help offered to him. I don't want your help. Why would I? The boy just grinned and gave a soft reply. “Because you need my help, your lonely and think no one cares. But that's not true, I am going to help you find what your looking for.” Oh that was real. Like the boy could help him. He felt he wasn't even worth the boy’s efforts. Don't make me laugh and don't waist your time. I just want to be left a lone. That's why I am here because this is the only place for me. The boy sighed softly looking at the other shaking his head. “No its not. Please you don't have time to argue anymore. Your being given another chance. If you fail this time you will be here forever. Don't you want to know what's out there? What you have in the future?” He shook his head slowly. No, because there's nothing out there for me. There was never anything there. Why should I try again? It will only lead to the same. Please just leave me alone. The boy sighed softly sacking his head. “Sorry I cant do that, and you don't have a choice right now.” The boy looked up at something far away, he could see it too. It was like a tiny stare and it was slowly growing. The boy looked at him and smiled. “Btw the way my name is Ryutaro.” the boy smiled again as the stare started turning to a blaze of painful light. “I am like your imaginary friend if you ever need me just think of me!” The boy was starting to fade with the light growing as he was running back to the darkness. Wait! Don't go.. how will I know you will come! The boy giggled and smiled waving. “Don't worry, your the only one that can see me right now. And say your name in your mind and I will come for you!” He sighed wincing at the light. Please don't go, not yet. The boy was now all but an out line smiling . “I said don't worry.. its time for you to wake up now. Please keep faith....” With that he was gone and all there was blazing painful light around him. He whined wanting the dark back, then he hear Ryutaro’s voice echo in his mind. “Wake up.... Kyo.”

“Ryutaro....” He gave a little moan wincing to the brightness that was holding him there. Everything was white and he could here a frantic sound of a cry. “He’s awake!!” He tried to moved slowly groaning, his head felt light and everything around him hurt. Everything was a blur right now as he saw someone in a large white coat come in. “Please Kyo-sama just lay back and relaxed you have had a very trying time. Its good your awake. Can you hear me and talk?” Kyo just groaned coking out a yes, then laid back his throat was so dry and his arms hurt. “What happened?” His vision cleared and he saw the worried faces of his band mates standing around. Toshiya looked like he had been crying allot, Totchi sniffled a bit and looked around seeing no one answer Kyo’s question. “Y.. you tried to kill your self by slitting your wrists Kyo.” Totchi nibbled his lip and curled up into the side of their leader Kaoru who now just looked angry. “Why in the hell did you do something like that Kyo!” Kyo jumped at the sound of Kaoru’s voice looking blankly at the leader. “You would of been dead if Totchi and Die hadn't of found you! I want an explanation to this?! Are you some kind of moron to ruin everything we did over so stupid slut?!” Kyo looked down at his hands, Kaoru had no idea why he had done it but yet he was sitting here trying to make an explanation. “Are you listening to me Kyo!? You could of ruined the band! Hell you ARE ruining the band!” Kyo just nodded wanting to shrink away and hide from this. Yes all the bands troubles where his fault, he already knew that. He didn't need Kaoru to remind him of this, he just looked blankly at his hands and the white bandages over his wrists that traveled almost all the way up to his elbows. “That's enough sir, I don't think that you should be even talking to him like that at all. If your going to keep that tone of voice and than anger directed at him I am going to not even ask you to leave but tell you.” The doctor was really nice Kyo was already kind of liking him. “Matter of fact all of you leave right now. Waking up to this kind of hostility is the last thing he needs.” The Doctor made the rest of the band leave, Kyo couldn't even look at them. Shinya looked at Kyo very worried, then glared at Kaoru as soon as they where out the door. The all stood in the waiting room Kaoru still complaining about this was wrecking the band. Toshiya sighed trying to get Kaoru to clam down, Shinya just plain had enough.

“How dare you Kaoru!” His voice was angry and demanding as they all looked at him, his face was red with anger. Kaoru just looked at him dumbfounded. “What you mean Shinya?” Shinay growled watching their leader. “How dare you do that to Kyo. He wakes up after a day from his attempted to kill him self and what do you do? Get angry at him for doing it! We're all upset and worried but what you did could of caused it!” Shinay crossed his arms not giving Kauro much of a chance to speak yet. “Everything is about the band to you isn't it? It doesn't even matter that Kyo tried to kill him self in the first place, and we don't even know why yet. Do you really think he will tell anyone of us why now? For all we know our everything is about the band is the thing that drove him to this! Cause apparently all you care about is the stupid band and Toshiya!” Toshiya gave a soft squeak and blushed hair, Die moved up to Shinya and wrapped him in a warm hug. Shinya was already starting to shake as Die gently ran his fingers through his hair. “Its okay Koi.. we’ll find out what happened and why. Then we’ll do our best to keep it from happening again. Maybe Kyo is just so lonely? I mean we all have a koi but him. Or am I the only one that noticed that?” Shinya looked up at die rubbing his eyes. “no I noticed too..” Then he glanced at Toshiya who nodded as well, Kaoru shook his head cause he didn't notice anything anymore. Shinya sighed softly. “I wish I could help him.” Die smiled, his heart busting at the sight. He loved the way Shinya was so kind and nice. “Its okay love.. we’ll find away.” Shinya sighed softly looking towards the room Kyo was in, he hoped they would find away for Kyo’s sake. He didn't want to lose a good friend and band mate, none of them did. Looking up to Die again he gave a tiny but week smile. “I hope so koi.. I hope so.”