Are you able to forget this?

by Toyo

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"Hey Heath, make yourself a little more light!" Pata said as he reached the last staircase in front of Heath's appato. 

"Do you want to claim that I'm fat?" Heath groaned and rested all his weight on Pata's shoulders. Without his will he nuzzled his face against neck, inhaling the smell of Pata's after-shave.

"No, you're not fat, but I'm not that strong. And you could help me a little bit!" Pata was able to get Heath up the last staircase, not noticing Heath's nuzzle. 

"Oh Pata-sama, I thought you were a strong guitarist…" Heath giggled.

"Don't call me that! Where are your keys??"

"In the left pocket of my pants!!" Heath declared, trying to keep his balance without Pata's help. "Or was it the right, or the jacket… I don't know!" he burst out in giggles. After some tries he got Heath to rest his weight on the wall, so he was able to search the keys. He found them in Heath's jacket. Suddenly Heath wrapped his arms around Pata's, embracing the older man tight. 

"Hhm… Pata! You smell really good!!" Heath rested his head on Pata's shoulder.

"Yeah whatever… I give you the same after-shave to your next birthday. Now help me to get this damn door open!" 

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After some minutes Pata laid Heath down on his bed. He looked at the bassist, who was nearly asleep. As he noticed that he began to undress Heath with his eyes, Pata blushed light and looked away. He took Heath's shoes and socks off.

"I'm really interested what you drank the hour before I came to the Pub. I never saw you that drunk." He looked at Heath's face. "And I drank a lot too!" he had to laugh. 
Suddenly Heath's arms came up and wrapped around Pata, pulling him down.

"Do it again!! I like it when you laugh." Heath whispered into Pata's ear.

"Heath…" Pata said surprised, trying to get free from Heath's embrace. "Oh, come on man. Let me go … I must go home!"

"NO!" was the answer Pata got from Heath. Before he could react Heath pulled him down completely, pinning him to his bed with his weight. "No, you stay with me tonight. Your wife won't miss you, but would do it immense." He looked deep into Pata's confused eyes and smiled. He lowered his head and brushed his lips against Pata's. The kiss was light and gentle, but demanded. After some seconds Pata pushed Heath away, breaking the kiss roughly, but he was not able to got completely free.

"What are you doing… you're drunk… go and sleep!" the guitarists voice was shocked. Heath began to giggle. He made a sexy pose, sitting on Pata's lap.

"Oh, come on Pata. Did you never think that we two could have sex?" Heath smiled seductively. Pata blushed. It was strange, but he really had thought about it a lot. After Yoshiki's numerous relationships with guys and Sugizo's and J's relationship, that he had seen grow up, he had thought some time, what would it be to have a male lover… but now he was marriage!!

"You see! But why only think if you have now the possibility to act!" Heath kissed Pata again soft, not wanting to force him to something he not wanted. But to his relief Pata wrapped his arms around him and pulled Heath down to him. Heath gently parted Pata's lips with his tongue, meeting Pata's between their mouths.
* God, could this man kiss… *

After some seconds Pata began to dominate the kiss, pressing Heath down to the bed. Heath mouth tasted so god, like honey… no like heaven, better than anything else he had ever tasted in his whole life. But one side in Pata's mind was still unsure about this situation, a doubt about if he really wanted this. But he noticed that it was to late for thinking, his desire for Heath had become to big.

Heath was in pure heaven. Finally he was with Pata, only for this night, but it was enough. How long had Heath been in love with Pata? He didn't know, but it had been a long time. Heath could not count the dreams he had about being with Pata, as his koibito. The numerous times he had wished to wake up with Pata on his side. HE knew this was only sexual, but the desire was endless, and he wanted so bad to have some precious and intimate moments to remember when he was lonely in his appato again. 

Pata found himself kissing down Heath's face. He covered every centimetre of his neck and collarbone with gentle kisses, his long hair fell down on Heath's face, tickling his cheeks.
Pata linked his fingers with Heath's, bringing his hands up to his lips kissing them. He saw down to Heath after his lovely action, his cheeks were dove in a sweet and soft red of an innocent blush. Pata had to smile, kissing first the blush on Heath cheeks and then his lips with passion. Slowly he began to remove the bassist's shirt. The skin of his slim waist was soft, inviting to cover it with kisses and touches. Heath moaned softly as Pata began to suck at his nipples, sending wonderful waves of pleasure to his brain. Heath let out a little scream as Pata cupped the groin in his pants. He pulled Pata down on his long hair kissing him deeply, their tongues tangled between their mouths.

Pata moaned in the kiss. Heath's fingers began to remove Pata's blouse quickly, opened button after button. Heath's fingers felt so incredible good on his skin, making it hotter with every touch. The two broke the kiss nearly at the same time, breathless. They looked into each others eyes, Heath blushed and turned his look away from Pata's eyes. Pata cupped his face with his hand gently forcing Heath to look back at him. Heath blush deepened by looking back at Pata. Pata stroke some of Heath black hair away from his eyes, then he kissed him again. Heath sucked at Pata's lower lip, his hands stroked Pata's back.

Pata turned his attention back to Heath's nipples, licking over it enjoying the salty taste of Heath sweaty skin. He slowly opened the button of the pants, pulling the zipper down second later his mouth never left Heath's skin. Heath made a surprised sound between his moans as Pata pulled down his pant and his shorts at the same time, leaving him naked. Pata went down, placing some kisses on Heath's belly and navel. Now he was face to face with Heath's erection. For a second he was not sure what to do. A doubt passed his mind, leaving him insecure. But all his doubts disappeared as Heath moaned his name.

"Pata…" the soft voice stroked Pata's heart, making him feel warm inside. 

Pata took Heath into his mouth, sucking hungrily at him. Heath moaned loud, his hands on Pata's head, pulling him deeper into Pata's mouth. Pata enjoyed the new sensation of this experience, taking Heath as deep as possible into his mouth. As Heath was near his peak his hips bugged up, trying to get as much contact with Pata's mouth as possible. Pata forced his hips down with his hands, his mouth left Heath for some teasing moments. Heath nearly screamed in frustration as Pata's mouth left him. Tears came out of his eyes, but a angry motion of Heath's hand wiped them away.

"Please…" Heath hissed, his voice full of need and begging. His hands pulled at Pata's long hair. He heard him laugh for a second before he felt Pata kissing the top of his erection.

"Pata, please don't tease me!!" To his relief he felt Pata's tongue on him again, then Pata closed his mouth slowly around him. This feeling brought Heath over the edge, coming deep in Pata's mouth, loudly moaning his lovers name. Pata swallowed, taste was strange but pleasant.

For some moments Pata staid there, licking Heath clean in a slow and lovely process of licks and touches. Pata pulled himself up into Heath arms, embracing the younger man. 

Heath calmed down his breath. He could feel a single tear running down his cheek. He never expected that things could be like that. He had thought that Pata would join his little game, that he would fuck him senseless and then leave without saying a word. But this was so beautiful … so like love!!

Pata got free from Heath's embrace, letting him confused for a moment. He looked down at Heath naked body. Heath blushed again. He wanted to turn his look away, but his eyes looked over Pata's body, fixing the groin in his pants. Pata laid down, kissing Heath's forehead, his cheeks and then his lips.

Suddenly Pata felt Heath fingers on his pants, working it away. After some moments Pata was in the same state bareness as Heath. The two pressed their bodies together, if they wanted to melt into each other. Their erections rubbed together, creating anticipation, pleasure and need. Pata parted Heath's legs, his hand stroked over the soft skin of Heath's inner thighs. Suddenly Heath felt something wet at his opening, no second later Pata entered him, pushing a finger in, quickly followed by a second. Heath moaned and tightened around the fingers, that were exploring his inside.

"Please, fuck me…" Heath whispered, but his mind screamed 'Make love to me'.

Pata replaced his fingers with his erection and guided himself slowly into Heath's body. He stopped his motion first when he was completely inside. Heath was so hot, so tight, it made Pata's vision blurry. Pata began to thrust into that hot sexy body, with every thrust the pleasure doubled.

Quickly Pata lost al his control over his motions, thrusting faster and harder. He opened his eyes, looking down at Heath. He wanted to see if he was hurting him. He saw Heath's face in pleasure looking at him. Pata blushed. Heath reached up his face, cupping it with his hand. The bassist pulled him down to a passionate kiss, their bodies motion in perfect harmony. 

Heath wrapped his legs around Pata's waist, making the thrusts more deeply, meeting every thrust with his hips. Heath felt that the orgasm began to hit him. Stars exploded before his eyes and love dove his mind. As Heath came he moaned loud:

"Pata… mhm… I love you!" 

Pata heart made a jump in his chest and with a last deep thrust he came too. 

Had he really heard 'Pata, I love you' from Heath mouth?

The two collapsed on the bed . Pata wrapped his arms around the younger man, pulling him into a deep embrace. Heath nuzzled against him.

Pata felt happy, like never before in his life. This was the most wonderful moment and the best sex in his whole life, and he had shared it with someone else than his wife. For a moment he felt guilty, but then he looked at Heath in his arms and his heart beat faster, like this was the place he really belonged.

Tiered by sex and the alcohol, Pata and Heath fell asleep.

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When Pata woke up it was early in the morning. The sun sent his first light through the window. Pata felt a small pain in his shoulder. He looked down and saw Heath body beside him, his head on his shoulder. Heath's lips were parted, his arm was around Pata's waist and his fingers played with some of his long hair. This sigh made Pata's heart melt with happiness. Without his notice his heart began to sing love- declares to Heath. In the sleep, Heath nuzzled his face against Pata's shoulder and whispered:

"Pata …. I love you… Pata …" Pata smiled. He lowered his head, kissing Heath's parted lips.

"Thank you!!" he whispered.

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Pata stand in front of his house. He lid a cigarette on and took a deep puff. HE looked up to the window of his appato, knowing that his wife was in there, probably cooking or making some other home- stuff. 

He thought back to Heath, this beautiful and lovely man he had left without waking him up.

Would Heath remember the last night? 

His mind went back to his wife and numerous question came up in his mind.

Would he be able to forget this? 

This night?

The feeling it caused in him?

Would he be able to touch his wife without thinking at Heath?

Would he be able to see Heath without wanting to touch him, kiss him, be on his side? 

Was he began to fall in love with Heath?

What could he do against this?

Pata took a second cigarette after finished the first. He took a deep puff and smiled. The real question was:

'Does he really want to forget all this; questions, feelings, doubts, hopes????' 

Pata chucked the cigarette away and entered his house. He called the elevator, his mind still circled around this single question. He entered the elevator and pushed the button of his floor. As the elevators- door closed he smiled and said low:

"NO!"

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+OWARI+

authors note: I wrote this because I couldn't find something with Pata as acting character in a lemon or a love-story. And I love Pata in such an act!!!!!!!!!!!! xsmilex ^-^

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