me [the asshole]

everyone on this planet is a godam mother fucking asshole.

aaaaaahhhhhhhhh, i feel soooo much better now. there should be a "including myself" at the end of that statement.... i guess.... coz i too can be one asshole. we all are. none of us really deserve to be happy, coz we're all fuck ups. "everything's fucked"..... as i like to say.

so whats wrong with me? more to the point.... what makes me an asshole? well lemmie see.... im a thought provoking bastard who gets a kick out of pointing out obvious alternatives to people with fixed minds.

im a control freak..... i need domination or i'll shrivel up and die, but often when i dominate for long periods i'll get bored and fuck off. i can never really be satisfied, and any satifaction i can sometimes find usually leads me to a slump of depression. i contradict myself, as you could probably tell by my previous statement.

i have this little crazy bug in me that if set off, i swear i could kill someone. some people think im very anti-violent..... and i am 99.999999999% of the time. its just sometimes i..... i put holes in walls and smash doors.... ya know how it is.

i make people feel uncomfortable.... [surprise surprise]

i'll turn my guitar amp up 10 times louder if you tell me to turn it down.

if i feel strongly about something i'll fight and fight and fight and never give up until i get my way, or at least heard.

i get excited about the idea of cheating on a girlfriend.

i'd go out of my way to prove people wrong

im good at working out how to offend people.

im good at making people feel bad about something they've done thats hurt me.

i perve at women and picture them naked.

i'll do crazy things to try to eliminate shame

i get annoyed and carried away about "the little things"

im often seen as irritating.

i see the bad things before the good

if im angry, i'll take it out on you

i'll hardly ever say sorry, even when i am.

im hardly ever happy with what i've got, and usually only want what i cant get or am incapable of knowing/understanding.

if i do get satisfied i usually feel let down.

im very sarcastic

i talk down to people

im an arrogant bastard

i dont believe in "true love" or "destiny"

i lie

i pretend

i'll tell you some bullshit story coz i'll be bored of you then pretend the story isnt true and deny the whole thing, even though it was true in the first place [or was it?].

im aware that emotional pain can be a hell of a lot worse than physical pain, therefore i'll try to hurt you there.

im a godam FREAK!!! and a CREEP!!! and a WEIRDO!!!

.......... so why people would want to spend time with me? i have no fuckin idea.

[did i just lose my innocence?]

me [a different approach]