Author's Notes: This works in conjunction with a story I posted recently, The Letter. It probably won't make much sense without it. And all of you who asked for a sequel, well, I guess this is it. :-)

Disclaimer: Straight simple and to the point: Mulder and Scully are property of FOX Television, 1013 Productions, Chris Carter, and probably a bunch of other people. If I owned them, I wouldn't need student loans. :-)

Dear Mulder,

When I was looking for a file in your desk this morning, I never imagined I might stumble onto what I did. Fear gripped my heart as I read your words. In an instant beliefs I'd once held as immovable began to crumble and quake.

Damn it, Mulder. After all we've gone through and everything we've seen you're not going to sneak away now. I won't let you. In a way, I don't think I have to. A part of me was relieved to see the date on your letter having passed some time ago.

And the look on your face. I saw the way you looked when you realized that I had stumbled onto your secret. You almost appeared to be relieved. Was that letter a cry for help, a plea for attention? Either way, you caught my attention in a flash. Don't you understand, after so much time, that we don't need to play games with each other?

The confrontation that followed my discovery did little to appease my fears. You gave me your word that you wouldn't do anything. Now here I am, attempting to express my thoughts in a letter you may never even have the opportunity to read.

In your letter I think I may have glimpsed into my soul the way you see me. You are right, I walk along side you willingly. But this isn't a path I'm following, but one I'm helping to create. I would hope that you would look on me as an equal in this quest. Not a porcelain doll that needs to be protected. We continue together, or not at all.

I would hope you would acknowledge just how connected we've become. For a long time, I fought the bond we share, it scared me to not be able to tell where I end and you begin. Now I cherish that relation. To live without it would be almost too hard to imagine.

In the time that you were believed dead out in New Mexico I was forced to continue, for both of us. And I did it without question. I strove to try and right how you and we had been wronged. For you to abandon me voluntarily would be too hard to accept and continue. What would be the purpose in continuing to give my life in a cause you threw away? As much as it might hurt, I would continue with my own life rather than to pursue what had once been ours. I'm sorry, Mulder. I couldn't.

As close as we have grown over the years, I wish you felt that you could come to me when the world seems too big to endure alone. That's what friends are for. You won't smother me Mulder. Trust me as I hoped you would. Come to me when the waters grow too deep. I'll hold your hand and help see you through the long night. For you are the dearest to my heart as well Fox. Don't give up on us yet.

Love,

Dana K. Scully

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