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| Song I'm Listening To: Busta Rhymes - Pass The Courvoisier Part II |
| Book I'm Reading: Phantoms - Dean Koontz |
| April 21st, 2002 Still no house yet......went looking pretty much all weekend. I'm getting bummed but my boyfriend is keeping his head up and being positive for both of us. Thank god for him, I think I would of jumped off the Golden Gate by now. We put a bid in on a house, we find out Tuesday night. Cross your fingers for us......please! :) LOL On happier news, i'm still very much in love. My boyfriend is just a wonderful man and I adore him. Today I bought him a BBQ (so he can cook for me ha ha ha) because he's wanted one for SO long. If anyone I know deserves one, it's him! When he gets back from riding he'll see it. I hope he loves it!I went to my support meeting on Saturday. I like them and I hate them. I like them for the purpose of it happening, I hate them because everyone lies in them. It becomes a contest of who can be the best bypass patient. You know, I admit i'm not perfect. I eat "bad" things and whatnot, but i'm losing quickly and living. I do try my best to walk and exercise, protein etc etc. On the same hand I eat a "bad" thing often which is a big red flag in so many peoples eyes. What happened to living? Why did we have this surgery? To diet the rest of our lives? Haven't we done that already? It just fustrates me and I no longer have the biggest desire to please EVERYONE about everything, including my post op habits. I just want to live and be happy, is that too much to ask? *shrug* Check out a great journal entry from Megan (go to links page to get to her site). I cried.......it's a pain that I have yet to experience but I can feel only too well. TTFN! |
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| Song I'm Listening To: Bloodflowers - The Cure |
| Book I'm Reading: Phantoms - Dean Koontz |
| April 22st, 2002 Today has been pretty uneventful so far. I'm not losing anymore weight....i'm pretty stable there. I have my first reiki class tonight and i'm totally excited. The weather outside is just beautiful, it's starting to get warm. I like warm but HATE hot......so I always dreaded the summer. Hopefully it won't be too bad cause i've lost 70lbs. I died last summer....sweating all over the place. When you have a natural hot suit, it's just always unbearable. Or as I like to say it, i'm naturally insulated. LOVELY! Isn't it funny how we find adjectives to describe how fat we are without saying fat? Better yet......i'm overweight, i'm not obese. GOD I used to HATE that word, obese. Now, it's just a word. It doesn't define who I am. It feels good. Now, i'm Kimberly......and today that's not such a bad thing. :) |
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| Song I'm Listening To: It's a TV day..... |
| Book I'm Reading: Phantoms - Dean Koontz |
| April 25th, 2002 Today hasn't been too hot. The last few days haven't been in fact. Sorry I haven't updated......i've been in a funk since Tuesday night. My reiki class was unbelieveable and I love it. I really believe i've made some great life choices in regards to that. In other news, yesterday was my 3 month check up and my blood pressure has increased. I was very bummed about that. This surgery was supposed to help get it down......and it's gone up. UGH!!! Then after that bit of good news, I found out we didn't get the house. UGH!!! The good news (i'm still trying to be positive) is that they used the regular cuff on me, i'm now too small for the large BP cuff. WOW. They used to use a thigh cuff on my arm.......so that felt nice. I got really sick last night and was throwing up til 1am. I ate and then laid down......did give myself enough time to disgest. I'll never make that mistake again. My poor boyfriend woke up at midnight to clean up my puke. He's my angel. My dog also has a weird rash and has been throwing up. I swear, such life crap drama. Just the little stuff can getcha down. I need a really nice day off.......a romantic little vacation. God I wish!!! Oh well.....til next time folks! Much love! |
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| Song I'm Listening To: It's a TV day..... |
| Book I'm Reading: Phantoms - Dean Koontz |
| April 29th, 2002 Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've just been really busy. So much is going on......it's amazing. We are getting close to buying a house, just working on loan stuff. This weekend I had tons of fun. Went to a Beltane ritual in the city which was great. I have reiki class tonight. We've been BBQ'ing a lot lately. My honey made some JAMMIN chicken last night - OMG soooo good! I've lost some more poundage, which brings me to a 74lbs loss as of this morning. I weigh 241. CRAP! I'm getting closer to shopping at Old Navy. I'm just pretty much happy with life right now. I'm very lucky and greatful for all the wonderful things surrounding me. Here are some other new found things about losing weight that WLS has given me. I can see gaps between my toes! :) I had to scoot the carseat forwards cause my ass has shrunk! I can sit in almost any chair comfortably! Other people's opinions are starting to matter less and less! :) My butt is starting to have lift and shape, not just fat and mass! I can almost cross my legs in a lady like fashion (me ladylike?)! I can snuggle against my honey in any position, my body will contort! Well all........have a wonderful day! :) Mui love me hombres! ;) |
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