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| December 3rd, 2002 *Vulgar, proceed with caution* So I used to have this roommate. We were very open with each other and when it came to most things we were so comfortable around each other we did things very openly. So every now and then I used to see her trim her vaginal hair by standing over the toliet and trimming over it. No fuss no muss. I used to think at first it was bizzare. I never even thought of trimming my bush hair. Hell, I hadn't seen my bush in years. Then I was like, well maybe one day i'll be able to care about trimming my vaginal hair. I'm just lucky if I can wipe my own ass in that day. So the other day while my man was downtown, we noticed that my coo could use a quick trim. Reflecting back to yesteryear, I grabbed some scissors and stood over the toliet. Now, it's very hard to trim yourself and hold your panni in place, but hell............I did a little trimmin! As I thought fondly of my old roommate and the wonderful times we shared, I flushed the toliet. No fuss.......no muss. So I jiffied on down to Victoria's Secret yesterday. I thought a little cute bra and sexy undies would be the start of a great night for me. I brought this little pink/black bra and pink lace panties (size large I might add........WOOHOO). I finally know what Vicky's secret is. The bitch is a millionaire. I used to think it was that you had to be a size 2 to fit into her stuff, but no more. I just bought a $30 pair of undies. And I used to complain about Lane Bryant?!?!?!? HOLY SHIT! The secret is: look at the price tag and don't assume anything. Granted, when rung out I could of not bought them.......but the dork factor was too high at that point for me to back out. Just another reason to support the chonieless movement! ;) Have a good night everyone! |
| December 11th, 2002 Hey all! I forgot to link the main page to this page so my update wasn't showing. *opps* Sometimes I can be rather blond. I got my hair done yesterday. I love it! It's cute and sassy yet professional! I'll have to get pics and put them up. We got a new baby this weekend because Molly went to live with my uncle (long story but I'd do anything for my cousins). Her name is Andi and she's a rescue. She's a 4 year old basenji, just beautiful and wonderful. Soon i'll get pics up too! Other than that just dealing with life. Lots of relationship and money stress. I have my dr's appt next week to do more labs and discuss plans to improve my labs. We have the Peter Gabriel concert this Sunday which I'm so damn excited about. I heard it's just amazing! We have awesome seats and it's gonna be rad! That's right, rad. I used the word. Somethings are just timeless ;) LOL Peace and be good all! xoxo |
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| December 17th, 2002 Been busy with new doggie lately. I'm also in quite a icky space. Lots of relationship work (this weekend was awesome tho) and work has sucked in a major way. Eck. Sometimes I feel like a clogged chimney waiting to blow! So tonight I was rearranging the bedroom. Halo was chewing on this "thing". We pulled it out of his mouth and the man says - oh, that's one of my earplugs! I was like huh??? He said yea, when you used to snore I couldn't sleep. I had never saw him put in earplugs the year we've been living together. I was floored and a little hurt. I know I was loud, I had sleep ap/major snoring for god sakes. It was one of my comorbs. For some reason it was just a deep reminder of everything my weight used to represent. Not only to myself, but also to my partner. His sleep was impacted by my weight. Now maybe that piece of candy or chip will look different to me tomorrow. Woof! So the relationship stuff has been hard. The money stress is driving a huge wedge between us. We've lost our spirituality which is a huge connection point for us. This weekend we really worked on us and it's carried into the week. We just have to remain focused on the important stuff in life. The man's mom comes into town on Sunday for the holidays. It should be fun. I am taking most of next week off to decompress. I can't believe it's Xmas next week and Yule on Sunday. My stepmom and sister in law were talking about coming down on Sunday too but they never called me back. I feel pretty forgotten about lately. People not calling me back when they say they are, or forgetting that we have plans. I used to always call call call to confirm but now I feel stupid for always chasing people. I realize people get busy and all, because I'm a fairly busy person. It just hurts tho to be flaked on or forgotten about. That's all about childhood stuff and weight issues. I was always last picked, back of the line, laughed at, or just ignored. That's all really carried into adulthood. Cept now, I just have become apathetic to it in a way. I don't even call people anymore because I feel i'm always put on the backburner. Most of the time it's true. The sad thing now is that before I could hide it, but now the man sees it and I feel like a total loser in front of him. Ugh. I think it's cuddle time with my doggies. I hope everyone has a good week and good evening! :) |
| December 22nd, 2002 So my mother in law is down here now for the next week. I think the man acts annoyed but really loves it. I made some of my beef stew for us for dinner tonight. It was pretty jammin. Best stew yet. I thought my stepmom would be coming today as well so I made a ton of stew. She wasn't able to come down so now I have stew for days. *giggle* So last Sunday was the Peter Gabriel concert. It was totally awesome. I had such a good time. We were so close to him I could of spit on him! He played my favorite song (Here comes the flood) as the first song along with The Secret World which is one of my favorites. It was a great night. Things at work still kinda suck right now. I'm so burnt out I just need my vacation. I go into the office for a little bit tomorrow and then I'm off. I just don't want to go tomorrow. I want to wake up and know that I have nothing to do but take my damn time. Wishful thinking eh? The relationship stuff is so good right now. We are working so hard. We check in with each other often and we are both really trying to be mindful of each other's space. I'm looking for part time work to help out with the money stuff. I'm also really trying to get out there with my tarot reading and reiki. *anyone need a reading? gift certificates are available for long distances!* Nice plug eh? I'm going to trying to see if I can become a reader at this one local metaphysical bookstore. I don't get the best of vibes but we need the cash right now. At least it's a start! So hopefully after the holidays I can find out about that. Well, I better go back out into the living room. Time to spend some time with the fam-dam-ily. Happy Yule to all!!!!!! :) |