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| July 11th, 2002 Well, this morning the scale said 213. Down 102 pounds. Holy crap. I went shopping for shits and grins. I went into the women's (not plus size) section, plucked an XL off the rack, tried it on, and it fit perfectly. Tell me how awesome I felt! I fit into a men's medium. Again, felt awesome. Then I tried on a juniors XL.......not quite there yet......but closer than i've been in over 14 years at least. When I got old enough to shop for myself, I was already shopping at Lane Bryant. I never did the juniors thing, or really even the women's thing. The weird thing was how foreign I felt in the women's section. I felt like everyone was staring at me thinking, what's that fat girl doing in here? You know, the same look we give to skinny people in Lane Bryant. I actually was a bit lost for a moment because I couldn't find the women's section. I was like um.......I know where the plus size clothes are and the men's clothes.......but women's? Never been there. Kinda weird. Just very new to me. I'll adjust! ;) LOL Spent the day with a good friend of mine. She's always nice to be around and I always walk away with a new perspective. Today we shopped for makeup. Again, the fish out of water thing for me. I need someone to take me on a makeover day and teach me how to be a girl. ;) Any volunteers? *giggle* Well, i'm off to beat the heat. Loves and hugs to everyone......I hope your day is beautiful. :) |
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| July 12th, 2002 VEGAS BABY VEGAS!!! That's where i'm goin in less than a week! My dad sent me a ticket to go see him! 4 days of Vegas! I also get to meet my new friend Symphony who is having her surgery August 26th (next month!). We are gonna celebrate her 21st b-day. I'm so very excited! I know a lot of cancers....so many b-days it's hard to remember. My stepmom's b-day is next week but tomorrow we are going to Sac to celebrate. Well, if someone would call me back with the plan we'll be going to Sac tomorrow. Sheesh! :) My b-day is next month so i'm trying to figure out what I want to do. I think i'll have a BBQ party or something. Of course, your all invited! :) My other friend is turning 30 next week, so i'm gonna have to give her rashes of shit. :) *lil devil* Well, nothing too horribly important to write about today. Just remember to love each other and keep the judgement on the down low (minus stupid and ignorant people...LOL). Much love! :) PS: there are new links up on my links page. If your looking to get a home loan or refinance I have the person to help you......pass along the info! :) |
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| July 15th, 2002 I'm sick and it SUCKS! I've been sick since Friday, went to the dr's this morning and found out I have a sinus infection with an inner ear infection. I told her i'm gonna be on a plane in 3 days, so please give me some drugs. She did and we'll see. I'll be totally bummed if I have to cancel. I missed my step mommie's b-day dinner this weekend too. I was hella bummed about that. I almost went and then said I probably shouldn't get the baby sick. So all weekend long I sat on my couch and blew my nose and whined and watched horrible TV movies. Weight loss is holding.......since I haven't moved around at all. Oh well, they say when your not losing weight your losing inches. I'd rather take the latter cause it's all about the clothes baby yeah! ;) Have a wonderful day.....and Happy B-day Step Mommiedearest! |
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| July 16th, 2002 Okay, I got this email this morning and it cracked me up! I have to post some of these here online. The subject is: You know when your a weight loss patient when: "I have a date" doesn't mean your going out Just water for me please You love the taste of chewable Centrum Rugrat vitamins or biting the head off of Wilma When the word LAP has nothing to do with a strip club When your excited that your incision is only 6 inches When you have to prove you are you on your license When they look at you resentfully in the plus size store because you really don't belong there anymore These cracked me up! Esp since I bite Wilma's head off often. :) I hope everyone has a wonderful day! :) |
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| July 17th, 2002 Happy 6 months to me!! It's been 6 short months. So much has happened it's amazing. I'm 102lbs less than I was. TONS healthier! My BP is now 110/64. It used to be 140/90.I can flex, stretch, see bones, feel bones, sit, walk, run, jump,have sex, wrestle, sit on my man's lap, shop almost anywhere, breathe, hike, ride a bike, ride a horse, did I mention have sex? ;) The shame is almost gone, the hopelessness is gone. I'm almost under 200lbs. Holy way to go batman! Tomorrow I get on a plane and fly. Without the embarassment of asking for a seat belt extender. I won't have to squeeze into a seat, at least I hope. Part of that fear inside of me still exists, but I can try to override it with common sense. I am smaller. I'm gonna walk around Las Vegas and sweat only because it's over 100 degrees, not because I took 10 steps and thought I was gonna die. The 17th of every month is my 4th of July, my independence day. My friend Terry just had surgery. She's doing fine, TONS better than I was. I was a drugged out zombie. She held a conversation with me. Amazing! Lots of hope going around for better lives..........I think it's wonderful. So tomorrow I leave for Vegas which means no updates til Monday night or Tuesday morning. I'm gonna take tons of pictures! Thanks again to everyone for their love and support thru this process. Its never easy, but totally rewarding. And always, all the love in the world goes to my man........my inspiration and heart. I love you baby......... Have a great weekend all and don't forget that kindness is it's own reward. :) *mauh* |